oh man! its been a long time since i've blog in this blog!

As i was reflecting, i guess i am just very fortunate, things turned out pretty ok and i'm gald : )
God must have been watching over me! What can i say? i am really loved by someone that great! : )

Attention ladies and gentlemen!! I have a new blog! : ) I wont be closing this blog but i will probably just blog lesser in this blog. : ) I plan to run 2 simultaneously. yup! : )

So here is my new blog add:
www.thefootprintsoflove.blogspot.com

i thought of not blogging in this blog and move to a new blog but then i feel i have to blog this! hahah! so one last post! i think.. hahaha

God: Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. Who is this?

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will Chat .

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated .

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional .

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading...

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving In the right direction. What should I do ?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.

God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

BYE 2007 AND HELLO 2008!!! : )

Part 4- God and Mother Mary

JESUS!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

thank you for a wonderful 2007!!! all of the wondeful things below wouldnt have happen without your blessings and graces! thank you for being with me in my weakest moment and for being there for me IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES! There is so much things to say to you and so much things to thank you for! Time is really running short for 2007, only 10 mins left! AHH!! I promise you my first post for 2008 will be delicated to you!!

All i want to say is Jesus, without you i am nothing, without you i wouldnt have so many things, without you i wont even exist!

Thank you for the many wonderful friends i have especially MISS AUDREY LOW!! without her i will probably die this year! hahahhaa!!! and of course to my friends and family! i would definitely die without all of you!!

Thank you Lord for all of them!
Bless each one of them and keep them safe and deliver them from any dangers and protect them God! : )

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE WITH ALL MY SOUL, HEART AND MIND AND BODY PARTS! EVERY PART OF ME IS IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

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Mother Mary!! Thank you for being there for me interceeding for me during times of difficulty and in times of need. Thank you for being there for me, for my parents, for Audrey, for all my friends and family especially my Grandma!

Mother Mary! you are really a wonderful and marvellous mum! beyond words! you are always there for those we call upon your name! Help me to get to know you better and to be closer to your Son, Jesus come 2008! Help me never forget that you love me and care for me! : )

THANK YOU MOTHER MARY FOR EVERYTHING!! : ) I LOVE YOU TOO!!! : ) DEEP DEEP DOWN INSIDE!

Part 3-Family

If there is one thing to be thankful for today and that is my Family.

Being the only child in the family is not exactly the best thing cause their attention would definitely be on you all the time and you will expect less freedom especially if you are a girl because they will tend to be over protective. but for me it is not the case. i think my parents gives me just the right amount of freedom that i need. Although i do wish for more la hahahha but i know i cant force it..

Although i hardly say this to them but deep down inside i really am very very very grateful for them for bearing all my rubbish and nonsense.. it is really not easy managing a child like me. i really do think so.. Having an atrociously bad temper and seem to be talking back all the time.. having high expenses! ahahha! really not easy.

Dearest Daddy and Mummy,

Really thank you for all the things you have done
Thanks for all the support you have given me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you are your support and encouragement in all that i do

I may seem ungrateful or indifferent to your care and concern

but deep down i really do appreciate it and all i can say is

YOU 2 HAVE BEEN THE BEST PARENTS TO ME!

I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

hopefully 2008 brings us more exciting days ahead in our family and may we grow to deepen our relationship with each other! : )

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Now to my dearest dearest beloved cousins!!

Thank you so much for an exciting 2007, going to minds cafe for a day of laughter, going to marina for steamboat, going for chalets, having numerous gatherings this year, having many mahjong sessions where i will normally be the first to go bankrupt. hahahah! really thank you guys so much!

This year would definitely be very different and less exciting if it is not for you all. Being with you all is really a pleasurable and enjoyable thing to do. As you all go about busy with your school work, work and all, rest assure that i will be praying for you all and wishing you guys well in whatever you do!! : )

Cheers to an exciting 2007 and Welcome 2008 where we will have must more laughter and fun right? I am sure! Cheers!

and of course to my dearest cousin donna too!! have a great 2008 ya! : )

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To my beloved grandma! thank you so much for your love! and your showers of endless care upon me! thank you for being a great and wonderful grandma! although i hardly see you, you will always be in heart and you will not be forgotten! I love you!

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To the rest of my family members like my aunties and uncles! i may not talk to you all much and stuff but just wanna say thank you for jouneying with me till today and for being part of my life! Thank you all!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Part 2- School

Ok so thats for the church. Now for School. hahaha

School this year is definitely one of the most challenging year of all the years of my 10 years of education. haha. Sitting for the O level is NOT a easy thing i tell you. The trama and the torture you go through is big enough to kill you! hhahaah!

I am not an academically incline person and i never like studying but what choices do i have? i just take things as they come and till now i dont know how i manage to pull through Os man! hahaha God is definitely there again! I wouldnt have done it without him! :) I would like to thank all my teachers in school who were there for me and who gave my friends and i all the support we needed to pull through Os. Thank you for your guidance!

Of course i would like to thank my one and only tutor Miss Low for encouraging me all the way and who taught me so patiently and so lovingly! hahaha!! Thanks for your wonderful birthday present that you have given me. A amaths formula file which helped me so much! Thank you! whatever the outcome may be for my result for Amath, i must still thank you because you have deepen my understanding of that subject!

My friends seriously played a huge part in my school life and i am very fortunate to have such good friends. Thank you Sham and Gaya for being with me and for helping me make time pass faster in school. The crazy things we did in class will never be forgotten!! All the best to you all in your future undertakings!

Beisde them there is also my chinese partner Jaslyn who is always there for me!, my crazy friend, Megan whom is crazy all the time! : ) There is also people like Angelin, Fraus and Losh ( their name always go together one! hahahaha!), Jesmine, Jac, Lynette ( late night Msn partner) and many more la!!! : )

Class 4/8 is really one of the best class i am in. We may have a lot of conflicts and differences but we will put aside all of them when it comes to class things and competitions emerging as champions most of the time! 4/8 thanks for teaching me a lot of things about class spirit and for giving me an opportunity to get to know you better! thank you so much!

May God Bless and protect you guys wherever you go and whatever you do!

Part 1- Church

i have NOT been blogging recently.. i know that! hahaha! but whatever the case is.. here is 1 final post. i think before the year 2008 starts.

year 2007 is seriously one of the most exciting and amazing year of all the other years. So many things happened but it all turned out well in the end thanks to the grace of God our Savior!

2007 started with some huge thing that happened in choir and i was badly affected by it, thinking i am the one at fault and i didnt really handled situation properly. i didnt have the mood for anything at all even when i am in school. All i could think of was the incident but thankfully for me, God sent me a person who stood by me and help me to lessen this so called "burden thing". My parents was there for me too but they didnt seem to understand the situation as well as the God sent person. I seriously think that God is amazing and great, always sending people into my life to tell me i am not alone. He happen to send my A maths tutor to be there for me this time. A sweet and nice girl who knows how to cheer me up and to reassure me not only once but time and time again that everything will be fine!! seriously very thankful for her!! :D

Choir thing slowly got settled with Steph taking back the choir and Jeremy in assisting her! : ) Audrey became more active in choir, even more active than me! amazing!! hahaha : )

The choir incident definitely help me to get to know Audrey who is my A maths tutor better and i had this feeling that she would not just be my friend but something closer than a friend cause at that time i was thinking about who to ask to be my confirmation Godma too! ya and i was saying the choir incident help me realise that Audrey was actually what i was looking for in a Godma. Someone who is wiser and whom i could relate and talk to without holding anything back. She was just the perfect person for this role la! hahaha!! : ) and the rest of the story you all should know la! think i have blogged about this a gazillion time! haahha

ok so was it a Happy ending? yes!! She became my Godma.. so here is a little note for her.

Godma! i know i have said it a thousand time but just read again k?
thank you for the many many many things that you have done for me! Both big and small!
Thank you for always being there for me despite having a busy schedule.
Thank you for being the best Godma
and if you ask me now
i will still say i have ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS AT ALL!!
You are the "bestest" Godma i could ever asked for!! So stop wondering cause you are that good not good but fantabulous as a Godma to me! : )
I LOVE YOU PLENTY PLENTY PLENTY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!!

I joined the charismatic group in church somewhere in June and i simply love that group of people. I thank God for giving me a place in that group. Ya! since clarence asked me over MSN at like 3 in the morning to join logs, i am now in both worship and log ministry in charismatic! : )

Beside that this year is also a special year because I got confirm and God gave me many presents for my confirmation. 1.) Gift of tongues which i am very thankful for. 2.) the Holy Spirit 3.) A renewal of my faith 4.) Audrey - the most ideal Godma to me. i couldnt have a better confirmation that this. God is really WOW to me! : )

In both church ministry i'm in choir and charismatic, I really love the people there and i am very happy that i got to know some of them better! People like Jeremy, Nicole, Gerard, Carissa, Rachel, Rebecca and so on.. too many to name already! but there is one who i am very thankful for and that is Cheryl. Although i only know her for 3 months? i think only 3 months, i am amazed at the endless things we can talk about. Every rubbish thing we can talk about under the sun! haahha! so here is something for Cheryl

Thanks for your friendship Rock and you Rock my world!!! you really do! : )
I am really thankful for you!
Hope to get to you better in 2008! : ) Huggs and kisses! : )

To all the wonderful church friends out there! Thank you so much!! : ) Heres wishing you all the best for 2008! : )

Ahhh.. i know i have not been blogging recently.. this blogging thing in me seems to have died down. hahha but i will still try and keep it alive. I will try!!!

So many things have happened during the course of the holiday. Both good and bad but i must say that this holiday is defintely a resting period for me before a brand new year starts. i can imagine how busy i will be man! Right now i am just so bored. Theres nothing much to do actually so i guess the best thing to do is to sleep! oh.. or maybe i can start counting down for christmas eve and that is when Cheryl returns hahaha..

i must say that i have lots of things to write but i am just not in the mood too. Maybe next week i will write on how i spent my holidays so far. haha : )

Matthew 7:7
Ask and it will be given to you;
seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.

I am feeling so lost and so empty inside. i have no no idea which direction i want to go and i have no idea what i wanna do.

God i really dont know which way to go. Please direct me and help me to do your will each day of my life.

A broken spirit
And a contrite heart
you will not despise
you will nto despise
you desire the truth in the inward part
a broken spirit and a contrite heart!