The Test Of Faith!!

hahahaha!! alright! i will just adapt a positive attitude and go through this ordeal!! treat every setback as a learning experience and go through it all!!

i think i am mad la!! hahaha.

I think i am very fortunate. i may not be blessed with a good academic mind but i am certainly blessed with many better things and everything always happen to fall in place for my academic life ever since i'm sec1. I am very certain that all this would not have happened without God!! what can i say? i am very BLESSED and LOVE in all aspect! In order to return this, i should study hard and do my best and leave the rest for God to handle and stop grumbling!! hahha
Mother Mary. thank you for your endless support and love too!! All this would not have happen without you too! I Love you!

I fully understand what one is going through when you know you really did tried your best and the outcome of it all is just not what you expected and it is devastatingly upsetting knowing that this is the harsh fact of reality. However, knowing that you did tried your best already is already a consolation itself. Some things are just meant to happen and we must always trust in God's greater plan for us (quote from audrey).

As what my cousin said, the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment so i shall learn from it and not expect anything. Why put myself through this agony. haha. but i trust and pray that God will put everything in it's correct place and will not give me too big a disppointment which i cannot handle...

God! thank you for everything that you have done for me. If you weren.t there today i'll prob did much worse than what it is now. I hope another miracle will happen like what happen for my MT! that was truly a miracle man! hahaha if you know how bad my chinese can be. i believe that another miracle will happen for this prelim and all will be well for me in a way or another.

Thank you Lord! continue to guide me and give me all your strength, wisdom, knowledge and love. I Love you!

Dilemma

alright.. I've gotten back my MT result and i dont know whether i should retake.. It may seem like a very easy thing to decide but it is far away from easy. I've been in this dilemma for almost the whole day and i still cant get an answer.

The only thing i know is God will bless my decision and guide me through it all. I know that i am fortunate and i know that whatever decision i make, he will be there to lead and guide like he always does. I am really uncertain now. I know instead of typing this out i should be concentrating on other subjects but i just cant. I have to derive an answer latest by Wednesday so i will have ample(hopefully) time to study if i choose to retake.

This is really a 50 50 take with no direction to head towards. i am stucked and i need help!! I know the final decision still lies with me but if i am so undecisive how on earth am i going to make this big one. SIGHs!

GOD!!! thank you for your grace and for your love. i feel so so so loved and elated now!!! YAY! i will blog more after i come back from mass!

all i can say is I AM HAPPY AND I LOVE GOD!!

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU
BY: GEORGE BENSON

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way it was
Like a guiding star
And i'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and i'll share with you i'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't wanna live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!

Look Within
by WhtDove

There is so much beauty in
This wondrous, blue rose
If only we could capture it
Within our very souls

If we could take its beauty
And apply the glow within
Search a little deeper
In the soul beneath our skin

Take what it does stand for
And shed its love abroad
Don't hide the glow within you
But share the love of God

You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do

There lies within each one of us
The beauty like this rose
When it's used in touching others
Then its beauty overflows

i love this poem!! : )

alright with regard to the last post, i am happy to say that he is relieved of all his pain now and is on his road to recovery! praise God for alway being there to heal and care for the sick!

Now i fully understand how fragile one's life can be.. I hate this feeling helpleseness. Seeing him lying there with the tubes all over his body, with his hands and feets tied up and what you can only do is to pray and pray and pray and hope that everything turns out right. Sigh.