JESUS THE SAVIOR OF MY SOUL

2008-04-13T19:17:00.002+08:00

oh man! its been a long time since i've blog in this blog!

As i was reflecting, i guess i am just very fortunate, things turned out pretty ok and i'm gald : )
God must have been watching over me! What can i say? i am really loved by someone that great! : )

2008-01-20T16:18:00.000+08:00

Attention ladies and gentlemen!! I have a new blog! : ) I wont be closing this blog but i will probably just blog lesser in this blog. : ) I plan to run 2 simultaneously. yup! : )

So here is my new blog add:
www.thefootprintsoflove.blogspot.com

2008-01-02T22:45:00.000+08:00

i thought of not blogging in this blog and move to a new blog but then i feel i have to blog this! hahah! so one last post! i think.. hahaha

God: Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. Who is this?

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will Chat .

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated .

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional .

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading...

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving In the right direction. What should I do ?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.

God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

BYE 2007 AND HELLO 2008!!! : )

Part 4- God and Mother Mary

2007-12-31T23:42:00.000+08:00

JESUS!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

thank you for a wonderful 2007!!! all of the wondeful things below wouldnt have happen without your blessings and graces! thank you for being with me in my weakest moment and for being there for me IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES! There is so much things to say to you and so much things to thank you for! Time is really running short for 2007, only 10 mins left! AHH!! I promise you my first post for 2008 will be delicated to you!!

All i want to say is Jesus, without you i am nothing, without you i wouldnt have so many things, without you i wont even exist!

Thank you for the many wonderful friends i have especially MISS AUDREY LOW!! without her i will probably die this year! hahahhaa!!! and of course to my friends and family! i would definitely die without all of you!!

Thank you Lord for all of them!
Bless each one of them and keep them safe and deliver them from any dangers and protect them God! : )

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE WITH ALL MY SOUL, HEART AND MIND AND BODY PARTS! EVERY PART OF ME IS IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

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Mother Mary!! Thank you for being there for me interceeding for me during times of difficulty and in times of need. Thank you for being there for me, for my parents, for Audrey, for all my friends and family especially my Grandma!

Mother Mary! you are really a wonderful and marvellous mum! beyond words! you are always there for those we call upon your name! Help me to get to know you better and to be closer to your Son, Jesus come 2008! Help me never forget that you love me and care for me! : )

THANK YOU MOTHER MARY FOR EVERYTHING!! : ) I LOVE YOU TOO!!! : ) DEEP DEEP DOWN INSIDE!

Part 3-Family

2007-12-30T17:13:00.000+08:00

If there is one thing to be thankful for today and that is my Family.

Being the only child in the family is not exactly the best thing cause their attention would definitely be on you all the time and you will expect less freedom especially if you are a girl because they will tend to be over protective. but for me it is not the case. i think my parents gives me just the right amount of freedom that i need. Although i do wish for more la hahahha but i know i cant force it..

Although i hardly say this to them but deep down inside i really am very very very grateful for them for bearing all my rubbish and nonsense.. it is really not easy managing a child like me. i really do think so.. Having an atrociously bad temper and seem to be talking back all the time.. having high expenses! ahahha! really not easy.

Dearest Daddy and Mummy,

Really thank you for all the things you have done
Thanks for all the support you have given me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you are your support and encouragement in all that i do

I may seem ungrateful or indifferent to your care and concern

but deep down i really do appreciate it and all i can say is

YOU 2 HAVE BEEN THE BEST PARENTS TO ME!

I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

hopefully 2008 brings us more exciting days ahead in our family and may we grow to deepen our relationship with each other! : )

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Now to my dearest dearest beloved cousins!!

Thank you so much for an exciting 2007, going to minds cafe for a day of laughter, going to marina for steamboat, going for chalets, having numerous gatherings this year, having many mahjong sessions where i will normally be the first to go bankrupt. hahahah! really thank you guys so much!

This year would definitely be very different and less exciting if it is not for you all. Being with you all is really a pleasurable and enjoyable thing to do. As you all go about busy with your school work, work and all, rest assure that i will be praying for you all and wishing you guys well in whatever you do!! : )

Cheers to an exciting 2007 and Welcome 2008 where we will have must more laughter and fun right? I am sure! Cheers!

and of course to my dearest cousin donna too!! have a great 2008 ya! : )

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To my beloved grandma! thank you so much for your love! and your showers of endless care upon me! thank you for being a great and wonderful grandma! although i hardly see you, you will always be in heart and you will not be forgotten! I love you!

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To the rest of my family members like my aunties and uncles! i may not talk to you all much and stuff but just wanna say thank you for jouneying with me till today and for being part of my life! Thank you all!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Part 2- School

2007-12-30T16:43:00.001+08:00

Ok so thats for the church. Now for School. hahaha

School this year is definitely one of the most challenging year of all the years of my 10 years of education. haha. Sitting for the O level is NOT a easy thing i tell you. The trama and the torture you go through is big enough to kill you! hhahaah!

I am not an academically incline person and i never like studying but what choices do i have? i just take things as they come and till now i dont know how i manage to pull through Os man! hahaha God is definitely there again! I wouldnt have done it without him! :) I would like to thank all my teachers in school who were there for me and who gave my friends and i all the support we needed to pull through Os. Thank you for your guidance!

Of course i would like to thank my one and only tutor Miss Low for encouraging me all the way and who taught me so patiently and so lovingly! hahaha!! Thanks for your wonderful birthday present that you have given me. A amaths formula file which helped me so much! Thank you! whatever the outcome may be for my result for Amath, i must still thank you because you have deepen my understanding of that subject!

My friends seriously played a huge part in my school life and i am very fortunate to have such good friends. Thank you Sham and Gaya for being with me and for helping me make time pass faster in school. The crazy things we did in class will never be forgotten!! All the best to you all in your future undertakings!

Beisde them there is also my chinese partner Jaslyn who is always there for me!, my crazy friend, Megan whom is crazy all the time! : ) There is also people like Angelin, Fraus and Losh ( their name always go together one! hahahaha!), Jesmine, Jac, Lynette ( late night Msn partner) and many more la!!! : )

Class 4/8 is really one of the best class i am in. We may have a lot of conflicts and differences but we will put aside all of them when it comes to class things and competitions emerging as champions most of the time! 4/8 thanks for teaching me a lot of things about class spirit and for giving me an opportunity to get to know you better! thank you so much!

May God Bless and protect you guys wherever you go and whatever you do!

Part 1- Church

2007-12-30T14:10:00.000+08:00

i have NOT been blogging recently.. i know that! hahaha! but whatever the case is.. here is 1 final post. i think before the year 2008 starts.

year 2007 is seriously one of the most exciting and amazing year of all the other years. So many things happened but it all turned out well in the end thanks to the grace of God our Savior!

2007 started with some huge thing that happened in choir and i was badly affected by it, thinking i am the one at fault and i didnt really handled situation properly. i didnt have the mood for anything at all even when i am in school. All i could think of was the incident but thankfully for me, God sent me a person who stood by me and help me to lessen this so called "burden thing". My parents was there for me too but they didnt seem to understand the situation as well as the God sent person. I seriously think that God is amazing and great, always sending people into my life to tell me i am not alone. He happen to send my A maths tutor to be there for me this time. A sweet and nice girl who knows how to cheer me up and to reassure me not only once but time and time again that everything will be fine!! seriously very thankful for her!! :D

Choir thing slowly got settled with Steph taking back the choir and Jeremy in assisting her! : ) Audrey became more active in choir, even more active than me! amazing!! hahaha : )

The choir incident definitely help me to get to know Audrey who is my A maths tutor better and i had this feeling that she would not just be my friend but something closer than a friend cause at that time i was thinking about who to ask to be my confirmation Godma too! ya and i was saying the choir incident help me realise that Audrey was actually what i was looking for in a Godma. Someone who is wiser and whom i could relate and talk to without holding anything back. She was just the perfect person for this role la! hahaha!! : ) and the rest of the story you all should know la! think i have blogged about this a gazillion time! haahha

ok so was it a Happy ending? yes!! She became my Godma.. so here is a little note for her.

Godma! i know i have said it a thousand time but just read again k?
thank you for the many many many things that you have done for me! Both big and small!
Thank you for always being there for me despite having a busy schedule.
Thank you for being the best Godma
and if you ask me now
i will still say i have ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS AT ALL!!
You are the "bestest" Godma i could ever asked for!! So stop wondering cause you are that good not good but fantabulous as a Godma to me! : )
I LOVE YOU PLENTY PLENTY PLENTY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!!

I joined the charismatic group in church somewhere in June and i simply love that group of people. I thank God for giving me a place in that group. Ya! since clarence asked me over MSN at like 3 in the morning to join logs, i am now in both worship and log ministry in charismatic! : )

Beside that this year is also a special year because I got confirm and God gave me many presents for my confirmation. 1.) Gift of tongues which i am very thankful for. 2.) the Holy Spirit 3.) A renewal of my faith 4.) Audrey - the most ideal Godma to me. i couldnt have a better confirmation that this. God is really WOW to me! : )

In both church ministry i'm in choir and charismatic, I really love the people there and i am very happy that i got to know some of them better! People like Jeremy, Nicole, Gerard, Carissa, Rachel, Rebecca and so on.. too many to name already! but there is one who i am very thankful for and that is Cheryl. Although i only know her for 3 months? i think only 3 months, i am amazed at the endless things we can talk about. Every rubbish thing we can talk about under the sun! haahha! so here is something for Cheryl

Thanks for your friendship Rock and you Rock my world!!! you really do! : )
I am really thankful for you!
Hope to get to you better in 2008! : ) Huggs and kisses! : )

To all the wonderful church friends out there! Thank you so much!! : ) Heres wishing you all the best for 2008! : )

2007-12-14T14:50:00.001+08:00

Ahhh.. i know i have not been blogging recently.. this blogging thing in me seems to have died down. hahha but i will still try and keep it alive. I will try!!!

So many things have happened during the course of the holiday. Both good and bad but i must say that this holiday is defintely a resting period for me before a brand new year starts. i can imagine how busy i will be man! Right now i am just so bored. Theres nothing much to do actually so i guess the best thing to do is to sleep! oh.. or maybe i can start counting down for christmas eve and that is when Cheryl returns hahaha..

i must say that i have lots of things to write but i am just not in the mood too. Maybe next week i will write on how i spent my holidays so far. haha : )

2007-12-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

Matthew 7:7
Ask and it will be given to you;
seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.

I am feeling so lost and so empty inside. i have no no idea which direction i want to go and i have no idea what i wanna do.

God i really dont know which way to go. Please direct me and help me to do your will each day of my life.

A broken spirit
And a contrite heart
you will not despise
you will nto despise
you desire the truth in the inward part
a broken spirit and a contrite heart!

2007-12-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Happy Birthday!! GODMA!!!!! YAY!! HAPPY 21st!! : ) : ) : )

Heres wishing my ever beautiful and ever wonderful Godma a Happy 21 st birthday!!!

YAY!!!!

2007-12-05T22:09:00.000+08:00

GOD!!! you are really so great, so marvallous, so wonderful, so magnificient... i can never understand your love for me and for all your children. Your plans are all so perfect, so great. i cant even remember a time when you let me down.. Help me to believe more and have greater faith in you! help me LORD!!! help me to experience that feeling i once had with you..

All that i am

All that i have

I lay them down before you O Lord

All my regrets

All my acclaims

The joy and the pain

I'm making them yours

Help me to grow more in faith and love with you!

2007-12-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

So much for raising my hopes up and then crushing it real hard!

THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A trip to the Library

2007-11-20T00:26:00.000+08:00

Went to the library today to read through and borrow some books on interior designing cause my room really needs a make over!!! read through some and was inspire by some of the colours and designs.. They are really damn nice! I wanna paint an ocean with the setting sun in the background on my wall but i am a horrible artist! thats really very sad.. sigh

I walked several shelves down and found that the 5th shelf or 6th(cant really remember which) contains books on Psychology! : ) I went over there, stood in front of all of the psychology books and randomly flipped open several books. I was like goodness!!! There is really tons and tons of books on psych which i dont know what on earth they are talking about!! Yes Yes i am still young so thats an excuse! YAY! hahaha

Anyway i decided that i should just borrow a book and slowly digest the contents. hahaha... The title of this book is calleed 50 Psychology Classics. the book contains writings from Sigmund Freud ( interpretation of dreams), Malcolm Gladwell ( The power of thinking without thinking), Erik Erikson (A study in psychoanalysis and History) and so on!

I am sure i am going to have a major headache after reading this man but i think the book is kindda interesting. Not sure how long i can last reading this book.I will prob fall asleep after one page! hahhaha..

Alright bye world i am going to sleep now and try and i=understand the book tmr!

2007-11-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to your side
And as i wait
I'll raise up like the eagle
and i will sore with you
your spirit leads me on
by the power of your love

2007-11-19T01:28:00.000+08:00

GOD!!! i really need direction! i feel so lost!! help me to make the best choice and a choice which you are happy with. Lord help me! Direct each and every of my steps. Help me to make the best choice. I surrender to you!!

2007-11-04T10:14:00.000+08:00

Jesus take me in Your hand

And make me all that

You want me to be

Jesus help me understand my purpose

And what You can do through me

Fulfilling my destiny

2007-11-04T10:02:00.000+08:00

Drifitng away from reality and from people! Isolation is the best policy! : ) Argh! Dont know what i am talking about.. Nevermind! What i do know is my Os is ending soon! : ) YAY!

Thank you God and Mother Mary for helping me through this and for the last three days more..

I seriously have numerous people to thank especially my lovely Godma! : ) Thank you! thank you!

The rest i'll write after my Os.
Alright it is back to studying now!!

2007-10-24T18:44:00.000+08:00

Give me oil in my lamp
Keep me going going going
Give me oil in my lamp i pray
Give me oil in my lamp
Keep me going going going
Keep me going till the end of Os..

Sing hosanna Sing hosanna
Sing hosanna to the king of Kings
Sing hosanna Sing hosanna
Sing hosanna to the King!

GOD keep me going!

2007-10-24T18:35:00.001+08:00

A process whereby I learn to embrace and love what I dislike...

Things will work out fine and right for me and everyone I PRAY!!

TRUST AND HAVE FAITH PEARL!

2007-10-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

DADDY THANK YOU FOR YOUR UNFAILING LOVE!

You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still you make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love
And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

I will praise You
Praise you God of earth and sky
How beautiful is your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

Unfailing love (x4)

2007-10-14T16:18:00.000+08:00

I LOVE GOD!!!

2007-10-14T14:24:00.000+08:00

You alone are Holy
You alone are Lord
You alone are worthy
To be honoured and adored
Mercies you have given
Kindness you have shown
LOVE IS YOU ALONE

Dear God, its 8 days away. Help me go through it and show me which path to thread on.
Whatever the situation. LEAD ME LORD!

2007-10-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

I AM TOTALLY FRUSTRATED AT MYSELF AND NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND THIS FRUSTRATION.

I feel that a battle is going on within me and i know which side i wanna stay on. I dont wanna stay on the defiant and disobedient side. i wanna stay on the right side, the correct side BUT i feel myself drifting to the other side. I HAVE TO STOP IT!

GOD help me to help myself and after that help me

2007-10-10T12:15:00.000+08:00

Despite knowing that i am left with only 12 days before the major exam starts, i am still not taking things seriously. Despite the constant reminder from me to tell myself to study, yes i told myself a thousand times, i still fail. i feel that i have not accomplish anything or gotten anything into my head depsite doing a lot of TYS. Is it just me? Gosh. Eveytime i count down to the start of Os, i will feel damn unprepared and not ready to sit for it. Is there endless things that i need to know and learn before Os or i already know my stuff but i just think that i dont?

Despite knowing that God and Mother Mary will be there for me and to see me through, i am still afraid. Do all human beings feel this way or is it just me?? i am clueless and i really need to sit down and really start sudying. Although i think i did, it is just not enough. Not good enough to have a 10. Not Good enough........

God continue to help your clueless and worried child! Give me faith, strength, perseverance and the ability to memorise and know what i need to know.

Direct me Lord!

2007-10-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

THE PRAYER

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restera
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarci che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella seiNella mia preghiera

Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai

We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

Mother..

2007-10-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

Evening with Mary was simply enjoyable and great!! It has helped me renewed my love for Mother Mary!.. A few months or a year ago, i questioned her existence in my life.. i mean i do know and believe that she is there and all but i never really felt a need to pray to her and was more attached to her son than her..

Many people have been asking me to pray the rosary and was telling me that the rosary is very powerful but i just didnt like it because i felt it was too darn long and i never had the determination to pray the entire 5 decades.Although i was exposed to praying the rosary when i was at a tender age, i eventually grew bored and tired of it.

At the beginining of this year, my dad told me that i should start going to the weekly novena services since i was going to sit for my major exam this year but i just couldnt find the strength to go for it maybe because reason no.

1) It is kind of boring to attend alone. Yes i know even with an extra person there, it doesnt make a difference since i am not suppose to talk but i prefer going with someone. but haha it does not matter to me anymore cause i find going for novena refreshing and wonderful.

2) i wasnt very attach to her and the idea of going to novena for the sake of just going and not because you really want to go makes me feel unhappy? i dont know. it just seems wrong because you are not going with a willing heart.

3) My weekdays are filled with activities and i would like Saturday to rest and just do nothing besides going for mass later at 4

yup. maybe its because of all these thoughts that went through my head that i am not very keen to attend novena. Then during a period of time( cant remember what), there was lots of dicussion going on about Mary Mary and i decided that i should be soemthig about it but i never had the strength but God sent a person to attend novena with me and since from that day onwards, i started prayign to our Blessed Mother and i believe she in her miraculous way have helped me A LOT! Plenty! Countless! : )

I am just very thankful for Mother Mary in my life and i love her!

yes back to evening with Mary.. it started out with the Rosary followed by the Eucharist. Such a pity i didnt take any photos. The place especially the groto was beautifully decorated. Eurcharistic celebration was Fr Jacob Ong was SOOO GOOD!! it wasnt the funny type neither is it the boring type, It was a reflecting and learning homily. flashback of my childhood just went pass my mind and me imagining Mother Mary carrying Jesus so tenderly

OH the best part was the responsorial palsm sung by a guy from the 945 choir. He sung it so beautifully and filled sincerity.! The lyric of this palsm is also very measningful. Fr Jacob Ong then decided to ask the cantor to sing again but this time round, he asked a mother who was carrying her child, with her child tightly cling to her to walk round the church. And the mother and her child was none other than Stephanie and her son Tristan.

When i saw that and hear the palsm at the same time, i just couldnt control my tears! IT WAS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL AND HEART WARMING!!! Flashback of my childhood just went pass my mind and the image of Mother Mary carrying Jesus so tenderly just makes me melt! Really MELT!

After that, the homily was about how powerful prayers is especially the rosary and how Mother Mary will definitely hear us when we cry out to her..

I am just so amazed at how much Mother Mary loved us and how much she is willing to do for us. I should really learn to pray the Rosary more often...

Mpther Mary thank you for all that you have done for me. I was wrong to say that i felt that you were not close to me and you are not important im life.. I am SO wrong! thank you for your constant love even though i doubted in you. You are defintely THE BEST MOTHER ONE CAN EVER GET! A thoughtful, loving, understanding and compassionate mum! Help me duirng this moment and through my Os. Intercede for me.

Like a child rest in its mother's arms
So will I rest in you (X2)

2007-10-02T21:04:00.001+08:00

Discipline, Strength, Perseverance, Determination, A Positive attitude, A Calm and Quick Witted Mind, A Faithful and Trusting heart, A Mouth that will sing of your praise!...

GOD! PLEASE TAKE OVER!

2007-09-30T17:02:00.000+08:00

You are my light
You're the lamp upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need you there!

You are my light
I cannot live alone
Let me stay by your guiding light
All my through my life
Lead me Lord!

2007-09-30T16:28:00.000+08:00

Heres my last entry for the month of September before October starts. September has been the most terrible month of the entire year so far but i guess the most terrible one would be October and early Nov. However many good things happen duirng the month of September too although it has been claimed as the most terrible month. Good things such as:

1) Prelims are over and results are way better than what i think i deserve but i did pray a lot man! Thank GOD for that! Help me through Os too!

2) Grandma and Godpa bought me lots of clothes from China. hahah. 1 black versace t-shirt, 1 made in italy shirt but bought from China? haha 2 long pants, 1 blouse. i think there is more but i cant exactly remember

3) Went shopping last week and bought myself 3 pants and 1 jeans material jacket.

4) Ate a lot od Dim Sum during this month! my favorite!

5) Ate Steamboat at Marina with my Cousins! : )

6) Ate at Kushinbo. It was so unexpected!!

7) Theres exactly 38 days to the end of Os(not counting today!)!!!! One Month. One week and One day more!

8) Most importantly, I realised that there is a lot of people who cares for me. Not that i dont know earlier but i just didnt really make an effort to remember. hahaha. ok this doesnt make sense. Nevermind!

Come October, it will be STUDYING STUDYING STUDYING. People nagging at you to STUDY, STUDY STUDY! and I will be telling people I AM STUDYING! hahaha.. This always happens to me especially when the exams are drawing nearer. i really hate studying! I wish that it didnt even exist at all!! but sigh! yes i surrender to my fate! Guess i will have to go study now!

Thank you lord for the trails that come my way!!

* Hope you are feeling better now and everything is going as per normal for you!! : ) I love you!

2007-09-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

I am a flower quicky fading
Here today and gone Tomorrow
Away tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still you, hear me when I'm calling
Lord you catch me when I'm falling
And you told me who i am
I AM YOURS!

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercy never come to an end
They are new every morning
New every morning
Great is thy faithfulness O Lord
GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS!

O God you certainly do hear me when i am calling! There is no doubt to that!! Thank you for eveything that you have done for me! Really Really thank you!

Mother Mary. Thank you for interceding for me! Thank you!!

This is definitely going to chamge my way of thinking. It showed me that there is still hope and 0nly if i continue to work hard and persevere that i will succeed. Will hardwork and perseverance bring me the marks that i desire for Os? The answer to this question is obviously a Yes BUT i feel that there is more to it. I must continue to put in the effort and continue to trust and have faith in him. With that, i am sure i will be able to do pretty ok for it.

God show me the direction that you want me to tread and guide and direct me in every part of this journey. :)

With God, Nothing is impossible! How true.. How true..

2007-09-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

God i need a bigger miracle and i trust and pray that it will happen. If it does not, you have already shown me that nothing is impossible without you!

All Glory and Praise to you Lord!

2007-09-12T16:46:00.001+08:00

I COULD SING OF YOUR LOVE FOREVER!!!
Thank you for guiding me through the last mile of this prelim! You have proven to me times and times again of your faithfulness and for your everlasting love!! Love beyond one can imagine. Despite for not trusting in you and for not having faith at times, you still call me and help me through no matter how difficult things may be. You have shown and proven to me that NOTHING, ABSOUTELY NOTHING is too big for you to handle! I am just awed by how much you loved me and much you would do for me.

Still you hear me when i am calling
Lord, you catch me when i am falling
I am yours!

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!! I REALLY DO and i WILL trust and have faith in you no matter what happens. I commit all that i have done into your hands and believe that whatever the outcome is, you have a greater plan for me and you wont disappoint me.

MOther Mary. thank you for your constant intercessions and for loving me in your own unique and special ways. Thank you for comforting me and for helping me and for pushing me on when i fall. Without you, i wouldnt have done it and wouldnt have made it through. Thank you!

These past few days/ weeks have defintely been very tiring and very taxing. Without the love and assurance from God and Mother Mary, i wouldnt have made it through smoothly. It wasnt an easy path but with the guidance and love, I've made it. Not by my own strength but bu the strength of God.

I must emphasize that God's love is simply overpowering yet gentle. i am swayed by his Love! : )
He has sent many many people into my life to make sure my days goes alright. I am certain that these people are God sent
1)My parents for their endless support and encouragement
2)My Godma for her advice and just simply for her friendship : ) She makes me smile all the time despite the situation!
3)My cousins for filling my life with bright shining stars
4) Sham, Gaya for being the good friend they are
5) Sarah for her laughter anf her wondeful companion
6) Nicole and Rachel!! my studying partners to push me on
7) My teachers/ tuition teacher for imparting their knowledge and for teaching me.
8) Lastly to all my other friends who really help me through with their motivational messages. Perserverance messages..

Thank you for all the things that you have done!!! : )

hahha.. i Just realised the way i typed is as if i have completed my Os,. but who cares ya? haha I am so loved and fortunate!

2007-09-02T11:50:00.000+08:00

Here i am O Lord.
I bring this sacrifice
My broken heart
I offer up my life
I look to you Lord
Your Love that never ends
Restores me again

ok i think there is some error in the lyric but this song,complete, just suddenly came to my head as i am typing this blog post so i decided to type it here. Maybe there is some message behind this song for me today. haha.

Teachers' Day just past and yes the school as usual celebrated teachers' day with a few performance and stuff but the best part was i got to meet my primary school friends! 4 years have past since i graduated from MCS but the bond with the friends made there seem to be rather strong.. I kind of miss the primary school days but oh well, all of us have to grow up.. i shall post the photos taken soon. = )

Lord your constant reminders help me through but my human weakness seem to be overpowering your reminders. sigh!

2007-08-25T21:55:00.000+08:00

The Test Of Faith!!

2007-08-20T17:31:00.000+08:00

hahahaha!! alright! i will just adapt a positive attitude and go through this ordeal!! treat every setback as a learning experience and go through it all!!

i think i am mad la!! hahaha.

I think i am very fortunate. i may not be blessed with a good academic mind but i am certainly blessed with many better things and everything always happen to fall in place for my academic life ever since i'm sec1. I am very certain that all this would not have happened without God!! what can i say? i am very BLESSED and LOVE in all aspect! In order to return this, i should study hard and do my best and leave the rest for God to handle and stop grumbling!! hahha
Mother Mary. thank you for your endless support and love too!! All this would not have happen without you too! I Love you!

2007-08-20T17:09:00.000+08:00

I fully understand what one is going through when you know you really did tried your best and the outcome of it all is just not what you expected and it is devastatingly upsetting knowing that this is the harsh fact of reality. However, knowing that you did tried your best already is already a consolation itself. Some things are just meant to happen and we must always trust in God's greater plan for us (quote from audrey).

As what my cousin said, the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment so i shall learn from it and not expect anything. Why put myself through this agony. haha. but i trust and pray that God will put everything in it's correct place and will not give me too big a disppointment which i cannot handle...

God! thank you for everything that you have done for me. If you weren.t there today i'll prob did much worse than what it is now. I hope another miracle will happen like what happen for my MT! that was truly a miracle man! hahaha if you know how bad my chinese can be. i believe that another miracle will happen for this prelim and all will be well for me in a way or another.

Thank you Lord! continue to guide me and give me all your strength, wisdom, knowledge and love. I Love you!

Dilemma

2007-08-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

alright.. I've gotten back my MT result and i dont know whether i should retake.. It may seem like a very easy thing to decide but it is far away from easy. I've been in this dilemma for almost the whole day and i still cant get an answer.

The only thing i know is God will bless my decision and guide me through it all. I know that i am fortunate and i know that whatever decision i make, he will be there to lead and guide like he always does. I am really uncertain now. I know instead of typing this out i should be concentrating on other subjects but i just cant. I have to derive an answer latest by Wednesday so i will have ample(hopefully) time to study if i choose to retake.

This is really a 50 50 take with no direction to head towards. i am stucked and i need help!! I know the final decision still lies with me but if i am so undecisive how on earth am i going to make this big one. SIGHs!

2007-08-13T17:19:00.000+08:00

GOD!!! thank you for your grace and for your love. i feel so so so loved and elated now!!! YAY! i will blog more after i come back from mass!

all i can say is I AM HAPPY AND I LOVE GOD!!

2007-08-12T18:09:00.000+08:00

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU
BY: GEORGE BENSON

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way it was
Like a guiding star
And i'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and i'll share with you i'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't wanna live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!

2007-08-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

Look Within
by WhtDove

There is so much beauty in
This wondrous, blue rose
If only we could capture it
Within our very souls

If we could take its beauty
And apply the glow within
Search a little deeper
In the soul beneath our skin

Take what it does stand for
And shed its love abroad
Don't hide the glow within you
But share the love of God

You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do

There lies within each one of us
The beauty like this rose
When it's used in touching others
Then its beauty overflows

i love this poem!! : )

alright with regard to the last post, i am happy to say that he is relieved of all his pain now and is on his road to recovery! praise God for alway being there to heal and care for the sick!

2007-08-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

Now i fully understand how fragile one's life can be.. I hate this feeling helpleseness. Seeing him lying there with the tubes all over his body, with his hands and feets tied up and what you can only do is to pray and pray and pray and hope that everything turns out right. Sigh.

2007-07-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

I had a heart to heart today with sham and it felt really very good after letting all your worries and stress out.. I feel that she is quite a good listener and advicer judging from her reply. haha. thanks so much girl. haha. we had a few common topic and one of it was " what is this friendship/relationship based on?? haha. we were both buffled by this and could not arrive to an answer.

Life is rather mundane and boring at the moment with nothing new happening. Besides the workload and the numerous tests i have coming up, there is seriously nothing i look forward to. hahahaha!!!

Anyways I just hope that everything will be alright and go back to how it was last time. I have to stop thinking too much and think more about my studies. I BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO IT!! AND I MUST!!

GOD!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS AND I TRUST THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. please show me signs! : )

And i thank you Lord

For the trials that come my way

In the way I can grow each day

As I let you lead

And i thank you Lord

For the patience those trials bring

In the process of growing

I can learn to care.

2007-07-13T23:24:00.000+08:00

The SIX WORDS for the day-

I AM UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF!!!!!!

2007-07-10T17:57:00.000+08:00

During Catechism Class today at school, one sentence out of the thousand that she spoke struck me. This sentence goes like that " What is God's plan and will for me? " . I wonder what he wants me to accomplish before i return to him? i was really thinking hard. haha. Pearl actually do think.. wondeful! but whatever the case is, i am sure that he will reveal it to me when the time is right.

For now, lets just pray and ask God to be there no matter how tough things is going to be... : ) I asked my friend this question today, What makes friendship work?. Is it the amount of time spent? How well we know each other? How much are we willing to put in to make this friendship work or it is just the chemistry between two people.. She gave me two important answers and that is humility and and the other one is erm.. ok i cant remember. Humility to be able to accept the other person for who they are, their strength and weaknesses and so on... haha so true!!

Yes to be able to accept each other for who they are really make a big difference to the friendship. It helps the friendship to be real and genuine... : ) : ) and she say we must be patient too!

Friendship makes up a big part of one's life
Just like how you've made up mine.
But now it seems like a stand still
and i dont really understand why.

I've tried to find the reason why
and yes I've tried all ways.
But the answers to the question, why
Just doesn't seem to surface

I've blame it on myself
For not making this work
but then i realised,
It takes two hands to clap.

Maybe the problem to this
Doesnt lie with me, but with you.
Maybe there wasnt a problem at all
But just me being over sensitive.

hahaha. nice poem right. filled with emotions and all! hahaha. Friendship really needs two hands to claps and lotsa communication. : ) i hope i have treasured every single one of them. Like talk to them, laugh with them, dont leave out any of them, make them feel comfortable and happy! and of course be there for them when they need me the most : ) If not my sincere apology! and yes laughter is very important! serious coversation too but laughter is still the most important.

oh my. ok i seen to have a lot of work to do, like really a lot.. got to go now.

GOD I LEAVE THIS FOR YOU TO TAKE OVER AND THINGS WILL TURN OUT RIGHT!

When the ocean rise

And thunders roar

I will soar with you

Above the storm

Father you are King

Over the Flood

I will be still and know

You are God! : )

2007-07-09T18:24:00.000+08:00

ELMO IS SO CUTE AND SO IS SHE!!! ERM. OK SHE IS NOT CUTE! SHE IS PRETTY : ) AGREED? I DO!

For audrey! : )

Lalala lalala elmo's world! X2

Elmo loves his goldfish and crayons too
Thats elmo's world! : )

2007-07-08T12:24:00.000+08:00

I am so happy, so very happy!!.. yesterday was the funniest day of the entire year so far!hahaa. i went to my grandma's house to celebrate her birthday.. Its been a long time eversince we had a get together. As usual there were lotsa food, lotsa jokes and lotsa of laughter. They are seriously a fun bunch of people. Especially my aunties. hahaha

As i am typing this down, i recall all the fun moments i've spent with my cousins. Yes. we are a bunch of closely knitted people!. what can i say? I Love them to bits! Alright photo time!

food food food! ok i went late so i didnt manage to take the one before everyone started grabbing. haha

Teaching small kids to play mahjong? bad bad!

Justina and i trying real hard to imitate someone! but ok i guess who failed! hahaha

The ones whom i grew up with!

Imagine your mum and all your aunties doing the peace sign thing and taking a photo! well you dont have to imagine. cause they really did it! Its superly funny la!

O Lord. Thank you are all of them! they really made my day. Thank you for such lovely cousins and relatives that i have! : )

2007-07-04T21:24:00.000+08:00

NO self control= hopeless!!

ok after getting nagging from my mum, i realised that i really have no self control! No control over my fingers!! argh!! i HATE the way i am spending my time,i really do HATE IT!! my hands and my mind just dont connect and work together. This is really terrible!

me? hopeless? maybe! I only have myself to blame!

Holy spirit!! i need the fruit of self control!! and if there is,, discipline!!

Pearl!!! you better start doing your work and dont let them down anymore..

2007-07-04T20:32:00.000+08:00

Ok.. heres another person who is sweet...not just sweet but very sweet!! : )

She typed this as her personal message "pearly's my lovely"! so nice of her right! i didnt even tell her to do so! Awww.. how fortunate i am to have known her! right. so like marie she is another of my primary school friend. if i am not wrong, i knew her since primary 3. i think so? hmm.. ok. yes dont know how we became so close but yes. we are close. She also did our project work together and also came in first! : ) that is the team spirit man!

Sarah is a very sweet and nice girl, never quick to temper and she is also very understanding and caring! It is really my honour to have such a close friend even till now! Yes! friendship do last for a long long time if you ask me! Not many people have the privillage to experience friendships that last. Yup. and lastly

Sarah i will never regret knowing you and spending like 3/4 of my primary school's day with you. you are really a very nice friend and a trustworthy one too and just like marie's, ours will last and will create history! : ) : )(ok maybe i am exaggerating but you get my point ya?) always love and remembered by me!

I dont know what i am doing here. I suppose to do reading MT books and trying to answer questions in MT! argh ok! as you all know my MT is very bad! All i ask for is to go through tmr very smoothly! God help me to go through adn overcome it! With you i am sure and certain that things wont go so bad .

Its less than 24 hrs!!.. oh well!

2007-07-03T19:26:00.000+08:00

Marie says:
..ok.

Marie says:
fine

Marie says:
becos i love u.i'll do it

yes thats how SWEET marie is!! (:(:!! I known her eversince erm.. lets see primary 2 and we only became close friends in primary 6 and our friendship is still going strong! yes! Despite our differences and all, we are still close friends, one which goes through thick and thin alike. Although i hardly get to see her, be rest assured that i have never forgotten her and i will always keep her in my prayers! : )

Heres cheers to our friendship and for the many exciting years to come!
* We will still remain as friends, one that will last!! : )

Alright, now to school! school today was great! I think i am nearly settling down now. You can now see me paying attention to what the teachers is saying in class or i will be doing something useful like studying and writing compositions( one which i hate doing), but i have come to terms with it. Who knows, maybe the more i do it, i will like it, just like A math! : ) The following days will just be nothing but test test and more test! and the worst one is my MOTHER TONGUE Os ORAL!!! argh.. ok. i must really gear myself up and prepare myself for it physically, mentally. emotionally and spiritually.haha and of course for the many tests which i will be seating for.

GOD thank you for everything that you have done for me! Continue to help and guide me through each day and for the rest of my life. Be my light and my source of strength!

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And its all about you
Its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When its all about
Its all about you Jesus!

I Love you!!

2007-07-02T15:44:00.000+08:00

Romans 8:31 If God is for us who can be against us?

This verse is yet again told to me by Jason a few mintues ago and it really affirmed me a lot knowing that God is always there for me and knowing that all things is possible through him.. God is really amazing man! He had sent so many people in my life to guide me and to affirmed me in times of need. People like Jason, Godma, my parents, Justina, the Charismatic people and many more. They are indeed Children of God and they are all made in the image and likeness of God! Praise God for them!

Such a pity that Jason is leaving to study in the states. Although i only know him for like 2 months, I can tell that he is a very good person and a very good worship leader. One full of confidence and one filled with compassion as he carried out his duty. He is also a very spirit led person and i believed that he had helped and touched the lives of many by conveying God's messages to them! Amen! This type of people is rarely seen nowadays. what happended to them? Maybe all of them had gone to study in the states. hahaha! ok... I wish him all the best and may our gracious God continue to shower his blessings and love upon him wherever he go. : ) and oh yes i have not thanked him enough for the message. so Thank you!! : )

My Jesus. My Savior
Lord there is none like you
All of my days
I want to praise
The Wonders of your Mighty Love!

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvallous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp your infinite Wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your Love
You are beautiful beyond Description
Majesty enthrone above!

2007-07-01T10:16:00.000+08:00

hello!! Good morning to one and all! : ) must be surprise that i am up and awake SO early on a sun morning. haha its 1017 now but still it is damn early la. The reason for waking up sp early. 1) the phone rang so many times and my parents are not at home. argh..
2) my grandma is coming at 11 : )

haha ok this is mainly the reasons. yup. i had a very good sleep last night! knowing that things are fine with certain people and they are back on track again. As in being happy and smiling! that is the most important thing right. Everything and Anything has a solution not solution but solutionssss. So... if any of you out there is worried and bolt down by all your problems just be assured that God will take over and take control as long as we put our trust in him and allow him to enter our heart.

Praise him you heavens
And all thats above!
Praise him you angels and heavenly hosts
Let the whole earth praise him

Praise him the sun moon and bright shining stars
Praise you heavens that waters the sky
Let the whole earth praise him

Great in Power, Great in Glory
Great in Mercy, King of heavens
Great in battle, Great in Wonder
Great in Zion, King over all the earth!!

Yup for those of you out there who thinks that there is no way out for you, be assured that he will always guide you, be there for you and to love you. He cant wit to shower all his graces and blessing upon you. Lastly he cant wait to shower you with his endless love! heres a song for you. if you want the song, you can ask me over msn..

God will make a way where there seem to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

By the roadway in the wilderness he'll lead me
Rivers in the desert will i see
Heaven and Earth will fade
But his word will still remains
And he will do something new today!

bye people, have a wonderful day ahead! : )

*God i continue to ask you to bless her and be with her in her time of needs. Help her go through each week with happiness and under your protection and love! Shower her with your love Lord.

2007-07-01T10:13:00.001+08:00

i had wanted to do this a long long time ago but too busy. So now that i remembered i shall type it down first!

LIZ! WELCOME BACK!!! : )

2007-06-29T22:57:00.000+08:00

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME
HE PUTS A SONG OF PRAISE IN THIS HEART OF MINE!!! : )

Indeed God is really Good all the time. Even if we dont see it or feel it at times, He is definitely good and he is always there beside us leading and guiding.. God presence is just so real that you can almost see it with your bare eyes and feel him with your hands.

The week is finally coming to a closure and i have to credit it to almighty GOD for enabling me to go pass this week. Even though it was a very VERY VERY tiresome week, It was still a great one! why? because God was there helping and guiding me! Without him being there, This week would have been much worse of..

I am so lucky and fortunate to be Loved by this wonderful and mighty God. If he is for us, who can be against us? This verse struck me just now as Jason was elaborating on it during charismatic. Sometimes, we worry about too much things, having unnecessary stress regarding this and that, angry with this person and that and the worst part is, we are always worried that everything might just go wrong. Maybe its time that i really have to sit down and just reflect about the love of God. How much Jesus loves us, even to the point of stretching out his arms and dying on the cross. yup!

and Melvin gave me this sentence which goes like that.. "If you rely completely in my strength, you will be able to accomplish things you thought is impossible". Oh my.. i tell you! when i heard it, I felt so affirmed and so comforted. I even felt a very strong sense of joy in my heart to the point where i nearly teared. Yes.. thats how amazing God can be!

His strength is perfect when our strength is gone;
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His power, the weak become strong;
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.

This is the chorus of the song His strength is perfect introduce to me by Godma during my mid year period. Yup. and as i was reflecting the phrase His strength is perfect came to mind and i realise that Godma has sent me this song( a little slow to realise it.. i know). but nevertheless i know that he is always there and all i have to do is to depend on him! : )

I LOVE THE LORD!!!! i really do!

2007-06-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

I finally realised the importance of starting early and not wait till last min! right now, i only have myself to blame for not starting early. There always seem to be a lot of tomorrow during the "holiday" and now, the tomorrow is nowwhere in sight. Rushing through my work thats my life right now. Dead lines to meet and extra set of work to do. Right now in hand i have like

1) 4 sets of physic Exam papers ( to be done by tmr)
2) 1 SEQ for hist( to be done by tmr)
3) 2 Comprehension( to be done by tmr)

4) 4-5 sets of Geog work ( to be completed)
6) SS notes for Venice
7) E math test this coming thurs ( geometry, arithmetic, algebra, trigo)
8) E math test this coming fri ( vectors)
9) E math practice worksheet
10) Testimonal and Statement of experience

*11) Amath prelim papers ( asap)
*12) 2-4 compositions ( due by 7th July)

* This homework is not school work but it does matters to me a lot to do them. Yup and i am so sorry if i cant keep up to my promise to do all of them! really sorry!

Yes this is my homework schedule for this week. Beside all of these, there will still be more Homework to be done as each day goes by and the Homework weighing machine is going to be overloaded anytime soon!

I just hope that i am discipline enough to do all these and complete it. Doing homework and studying has been officially part and parcel of my life right now along with stress and worries.
I am afraid that i wont be able to handle all of this and might just break down and give up!( ok thats if the rubberband is over stretched)

The only consolation i have right now is that i am not alone and i have my father who will give me all the strength and graces that i need. All the support and encouragement from him never fails to jeer me on. Just knowing that there is someone there who will help me and to guide so long as i trust in him and do my best just makes me feel comforted.

O lord, the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak! i really need your help to go pass this week! sleeping at 1 plus is bad enough, waking up at around 4 in the morning to complete work before heading to school is even worse! that is not the worst part. The worse part is every Sat i still have to be in school at 730 for extra lessons which leaves me about an average 4 hours of sleep everyday.

Give me all the energy that i need Lord!
I place my days into your mighty hands and trust that everything will turn out right.

Sighs!!

2007-06-22T16:28:00.000+08:00

God i am just amazed at the wonders of all you've done!! indeed all people are made in your image and likeness and no one else can really touch my heart like you do. No one can fathom the depth of your love and richness! i am just awed at all you have done! I am shocked and I am speechless at how you work.

I will never regret knowing you Lord, by just knowing you Lord, Life is already fulfilling and enriching. i can never understand how amazing you are. you are just beyond words! Words alone cant describe my feelings towards you. you've have rendered me speechless Lord..

Yes Lord,
I will run to you,
To your words of truth,
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God.
Yes, i will run the race
Till i see your face.
O let me live in the Glory of your grace.

You Lord called each and everyone of us to your purpose, each and everone is worthy to praise you and to share in your endless Love. All i can say now is i am simply awed, really awed at how you work. I pray and hope this time, she will turn back to you and live in the glory of your grace! : ) Empower her lord, let her know who you are, the mighty yet gentle God! Holy Spirit be with her, guide her back to the heavenly Father!

I LOVE YOU!(how i wish there are more words to describe my love for you Lord!)

All that I have
All that I am
I Lay them down before you O lord
All my regrets
All my acclaims
The joy and the pain
I'm making them yours

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU!!

* Thanks to the 9 cds given to me by Godma! : ) : ) : )
Godma, your gift is just the best! It has helped a person! erm.. make it 2 people! Thank you!!!

2007-06-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

Something IS VERY wrong with me lately. i am very much interested in churning out words to form sentences. Sentences that flows and link to become a poem. hahaha. ok.. must be the confirmation gift from God. The gift of writing. HAHAHA!! ok i am just joking..

Since pearl's brain is so interested in thinking and finding words that match(i tried). i have written couple of them on my blog at the side bar.. so if you are interested, go read. i must say some of them are quite erm.. badly written. but still, the most important thing is to mean what you write and i REALLY mean what i wrote.I am serious!! : )

ok..moving on! school is starting soon like real soon! I must say that the workload is just going to get heavier and heavier each passing day, but i know that there are people who are there to help me and guide me and to make sure things turns out right! I really thank God for them in my life! shant elaborate on that! i will never end! haha : )

God please give me the graces and the strength that i need to go through each day. i know so long as i work hard and seek help from you, you will work wonders and show miracles to me. I believe in you Lord. Take charge of my entire Life and i will just be still and know you are God!

Praise and Worship songs have seriously been in my mind and part of my life for the past 4 days. Yes. why? because Godma gave me a total of 9 cds consisting of 90 songs! Be shocked! haha : ) No but i love it a lot since i relate to God better through music, she thought it would be the most ideal gift for me. Yup it definitely is, i must say. So i have been listening to it day and night. night and day! So for some nice praise and worship songs, go to my side bar to check out the ten of my favorite ones. : ) but all are nice!

Confirmation Part 2

2007-06-18T15:45:00.000+08:00

ok this is just a post to let the Pictures do the talking! hahha

getting all prepared at home!

the one in church before spiritual prep

ok i dont have photos during spiritual prep and after that! the next few will be the mass ones and the post confirmation!

before i went up to get to get the oil put on my fore head

the waiting process one

the waiting process two

and finally the moment i've been waiting for!!!

the Anoiting with the chrism oil..

this is when i can officially call her Godma!! CHEERS to that!

try finding me!

photos time! friends from school and all over the world! hahaha

All credits to this special guy here! he took most of the photos in church and i must say they are not too badly taken! Thank you Jeremy!

My new Family!! I love them lots! : )

And congrats to Nicole for getting Confirmed too! : ) : )

ok stay tune for Confirmation part 3 which are the ones taken at Audrey's house. i mean Godma's house! hahah : ) and maybe a Part 4 if there is too many photos to be uploaded!

Confirmation Part 1

2007-06-18T14:00:00.000+08:00

I am finally confirmed which is to be baptised with the Holy Spirit i think.. : ) After 3 and a half years of catechism class to prepare for this day, i am finally confirmed! : ) YAY!! This past few years have definetely been one of the best part of my spiritual life. Having to get to experience God and really, just the thought of how much God loves each and everyone of us really makes me feel proud to be his children and to be a Catholic.

Yes, how time really flies. i would definitely miss all the camps and spiritual sessions that catechism class offers but all good things will come to an end and soon a new chapter would begin. One that is filled with excitment, joy and fun!. Am i glad that i will be able to start this new chapter of Faith in 2 different ministry and with this very important person in my life whom i will journey with spiritually and of course all the nonsensical things comes in too. : )

God thank you for sending the Holy Spirit down upon us to guide us and to lead us closer to you. To give us this soft prompting in our heart and to lead us to the path of light. With the Holy Spirit here to help us and lead us, i am sure we are able to do more things for you God, to proclaim you to the world and to worship and honour you in all that we do! :)

Dearest mummy and daddy. thank you for giving me this religion! One which one would never ever regret believing and knowing. Thank you for making this decision to baptised me and to allow me to know this awesome God of ours. Thank you for the constant reminder also to pray and to have faith and trust! Thank you for journeying with me this past 16 years of my spiritual life and arent you all glad you have found another person whom i can journey with! haha.. In any case thanks for everything and I love you!

Arent you all excited to find out who is this dearest person whom i will be journeying with? hha..actually you all can guess one. very easy! let me help you along.. its a her. her name starts with the alphabet A and her confirmation name is one of the fruit of the Holy Spirit! guess already? haha. yes She is none other than Audrey! oh she is the same Audrey who is tutoring me too. Actually i think she is a super woman la.. : ) haha

and i just realised that i known her for only 1 year! 1 year ONLY! can you believe that. i mean i know she existed like 5 years ago but i only got to know her better after she returned from her trip to Europe. and how did it happen? it all started when stupid pearl didnt know how to do A Math and flunk it terribly. haha. Yes.

So from a Hi Bye friend, she became my tutor, then my friend, followed by close friend and lastly my Godma! dont ask me what made us so close cause i dont really know the reason. i just know that GOD MADE IT POSSIBLE! and i dont know whether to thank God anot for her after what she she did to me! sighs! hahaha.. ok jokes aside.. Yes i truely thank God for her in my life and i believe she will be a GOOD Godma! right Godma? haha

Yes she will, since God will be looking after us and journeying with us and i am so excited to embark on this new chapter of my this spiritual life with her. ok Thanks for everything Godma.

for the party,
for the 9 disc which she collated all the P and W songs into it,
for your understanding
for your care and concern
for your love
for your laughter
for your smile
for your listening ear
for your full of compassion heart
for your hands to comfort me
for your legs to journey with me

and lastly for this simple word "JOY" which you have placed in my heart! Time spent with you is always full of laughter and full of Joy! : ) : ) liebe Sie!! i truely meant it! : ) hahaha!

2007-06-18T03:45:00.000+08:00

2007-06-08T23:27:00.000+08:00

THIS HAVE BEEN THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!! SO FAR I MEAN.. it is not the amount of presents i received or the places that i went to that made me happy! what really made me happy was to able to spent it with the most important people in my life!! People such as

1) Daddy and Mummy

Thank you for being there for me always. for loving me and for giving me a comfortable home where love is found. thank you for giving me all the support that i need. The moments that i am down . thanks for always being there! i love you all!! and yes thank you for the levis pair of shoe!! its so beautiful! ! : )

2) My grandma

What can i say about my grandma? hmm?? She is a fantastic and extraordinary grandma whom i can talk to and get really good advice. yes thank you Ah-ma for all the gifts and presents you have given me.. : ) She even called me up and sang a birthday song to me! so sweet!! she even brought me for lunch before my birthday to celebrate with me! I LOVE her lots!!!! to sum it all up, she is the best grandmother i can ever get and i wish she can celebrate with me every year! oh she bought more than just the sandle.. she bought 3 converse polo tee and 1 nike shirt! : )

3) Young Godma!!!( dont put yet to be also can right?)

this will always be kept aand remembered! : )

Hello Audrey!! I love you to bits!!! haha how to not love you??.. thanks for the lovely and sweet and touching note, letter, essay? hha.. it is seriously very touching.. nearly cried!! ok i admit. i did shead a few tears.. who say you cant write touching notes.. you really can k! Thanks for treat at hotel rendezvous together with wonderful counsellor( thank you jeremy!! ). yes back to the topic... you seriously mean a lot to me too!! Danke for always being there and for all your advice! you really never fail to brighten my days! and...

heres a new photo for you!! hahaha.. its now black and yellow and a bit of red!!

4) Jeremy aka wonderful counsellor

Hey Jeremy! thanks for your treat too : ) and yes i am starting to get to him a litlle better so i can write a little more about him. :) i have come to realise he is a very caring person not that he wasnt before but .. you get my drift. he has a very good sense of humour and he is very nice to all the people around him! : ) Thank you jeremy for being the wonderful and unique person you are. Thanks for everthing such as the cookie.. haha.. will never forget that! : ) Love you!

5) Sham, Gaya, Ange

Thank you girls!! thanks for all the gift and the surprise cake which you all bought for me!

Sham! thanks for being the good friend you are.. always there for one another.. thanks for making such a difference in my life. you are really a rare breed of girls.. and please stop attracting people when we go out next time.. hahaha.. ok seriously I LOVE YOU LOTS!!! thank you for the colourful pens you and ange bought. i shall use them to write beautiful notes for you all!

Gaya!!! Thank you for the effort-ful and beautiful photo collage thing you have done for me!! its really really really very very nice! and yes i will never regret each and every moment i've spent with you! all the crazy stuff we did will never be forgotten too! : ) beside that you really make me a very happy person! being able to be your good friend is a blessing to me! love you lots gaya

Ange!! hello.. thank you for the cake and pens too! : ) thank you for the listening ear when i need it the most. for the consolation i had from you after results and when i am down. you are a really great person and a friend, a friend which i will never forget!! : ) love you!

6) Marie and Sarah

friendship forge will never be forgotten!

Hello girls!! thank you for the beautiful and wonderful post you all did on your blogs to wish me a happy birthday! i know i have not been the good friend i odd to be and i have not been making time to go out and to spend time with you all. sorry for always not being able to make it for the outing which you all have organised. really really sorry.i know that you all wanted to celebrate my birthday with me and i really thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the thought and the want. thank you for the wonderful memories you all have given me. the true meaning of friendship and companions! i will never ever forget you all!! I LOVE YOU BOTH! SERIOUSLY!

7) Godma and Se Sook

the cross that Godma gave me.. its damn nice la!!!

the watch that Se Sook gave me!! the charming watch .. hahaha

Thank you for all your gifts ever year and for always remembering my birthday! although i dont celebrate it with you all and stuff, you all still never fail to forget my birthday! i know i can always count on you all for everything. thank you are always being there! : )

8) People who wished me

People out there! thank you for all the text messages, the offline meesages, friendster comments. thank you for the wishes. people whom i didnt expect such as chanel. thank you girl for the message.. really sweet of you.. and yes i one and only cousin donna for calling me all the way from china just to wish me happy birthday.. so sweet of her..

oh yes.. thank you jas, jac and joy for the very nice blue havaianas slipper.. thank you for the gift!!!

AND I WOULD NOT EVER FORGET TO THANK MY HEAVENLY FATHER for constantly looking after me and for the gift of your love. so pure and real! thank you daddy for the wonderful people you sent in my life to celebrate with me and thank you for giving me life. Life without you would be meaningless but with you. Life is so beautiful and colourful, knowing that you are always there for me and knowing that my life is in your delicate hands and you will never leave your sight off me! thank you Father!!! i love you so so much!!!

Thank you mother Mary for watching over me for interceding for me and always being there for me.. thank you are hearing all my cries and pleads!! i love you mother of us all!!! : )

I would like to end off with a big I LOVE YOU to all the people whom have made my day a extra special one! : )

2007-06-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

ok i realise i have not been blogging on a regular basis because all i do is to go to school and home! : ) HAHHA. ok not exactly but ya...VERY BORING!!! i need to go out and have fun(this word should not be in my vocab but still..) haha..thankfully my birthday is approaching and thats why i can have a break and relax! : )

Although these few days had been rather boring, i still manage to catch up with some of my friends and i get to know them better! :) ( one up for me) haha!!. for instance i got to know sham and gaya better..

And i got to know what type of clothes Audrey like or prefer..(I hope i didnt bore you.. it must be terrible going out with someone and you feel bored!) It was fun going out with her though :)

This helps me a lot because from knowing what the other party like and dislike, it would be much easier to buy things for them and you dont have to crack your brains.. : )

and counting down its 2 more days. yes 2 more days to the 8th of June!! yay!!!

2007-06-02T23:46:00.001+08:00

ok.. although i am really sleepy after all the food(didnt take any photos though because i was eating and eating and eating!!!) i feel that i should thank a few people for making today a special sataturday!

1) Young Godma!! : ) : ) : )
2) My Wonderful Coucillor!! : ) : ) : )
3) My New group of Friends!! : ): ) : )

yes they made this day very special and all of this wouldnt have been made possible without Christ Our Lord! dear God thanks for sending these excellent people in my life. thanks for giving me the gift of true friendship and i am truly blessed to have such wonderful friends!! THANK YOU LORD

i will write in detail soon( all the surprised and shocked i went through) when i am less tired and sleepy! till then bye!

2007-05-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

My Jesus

My Savior

Lord ther is none like you

All of my days

I want to praise

The wonders of your mighty love

My comfort

My shelter

Tower of refuge and strength

Let every breath

All that i am

Never cease to worship you

Shout to the Lord

All the earth

Let us sing

Power and majesty

Praise to the King

Mountain bow down

And the seas will roar

At the sound of your name

I sing for Joy

At the work

Of your hand

Forever I love you

Froever I stand

Nothing compares to the

Promise I have in you

For....

2007-05-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

This post is for Audrey! i think i am real bored with nothing to do and thats why i am here bumping around and delicating this for Audrey! ( wait..that shouldnt be the case)!!!

ok i know this sat is the release of your results and you are feeling anxious and worried. It is like awaiting a sentence! sorry cant be there to help you check though. hahaha!! yes nevertheless know that you can always count on him and trust in him. he will grant you what you deserve and it is As and Bs. yes yes i know that you know that but just telling you again in case you forget!!

Please dont do anything dumb too if your results dont turn up the way you expected it to be..
You will definitely have Bs and As because it is in you and it is so you!! hahaha,, yes yes and sucide is not an option or solution.(reminder to you in case you are being influence lately) Calling and messaging is a solution.. like me! hahhaha..I know the strong Audrey wont do anything so childish and dumb. but just to add on to the point.

Lastly if you need someone to call and scream, whine, complain, i will gladly lend my or if your finger is itchy and need to message, i will keep some of my free smses especially for you!! ya.. just know that whatever the outcome will be and if you need someone to talk to, you can always call me!! i WILL be there for you!!!

True friends are for life
Until the end
They're more than special
They're your bestest friends.

They're the ones you can go to
When you're in despair
The ones that'll help you
Even when you have white hair!( haha.. my own improvisation)

They're the ones who'll laugh
And go laughing with you all through the night
The ones who'll help you
Help you with all their might!

haha.. All the best!!! I will pray that you attain good results and hopefully a letter asking you to do masters.. haha!! : ) love ya!!

2007-05-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

Reality is finally/ hopefully sinking/dwelling into me that chinese Os is approximately 4 days away from today and what have i done in preparation for it?? For me to know and for you to find out!! hee..

Although there is nothing much to blog about lately since there is no major event in my life as yet, it have been a joyful and peaceful one!!! Lessons can be quite dull and boring at times so i am very thankful for my two noisy, irratating, childish, and who sings out of tune partners..

They truely make lessons much more fun and interesting. We still listen to the teacher and manage to absorb things k... like today, it was totally fun except for the fact that they sing out of tune! but who cares, i thoroughly LOVED their company! Best partners ever...

and yes i have been pigging out lately at and i need to exercise.. please call me if you intend to do some exercisees.

1) Pasta Mania on sun
2) New York New York yesterday!! : ) Candy Floss!!
3) Many other food in bits and pieces but it adds up!

New York New York's food is not bad i think... haha.. but its the company that you go with that make a difference. I did enjoy myself yesterday it was really worth it! BUT it is going to burn a hole in my pocket.. BUT it doesnt really matter. what matter was i did enjoy myself and manage to eat candy floss( a sudden and strange craving of mine yesterday)! and because of this odd craving of mine, We had to eat there.. haha. thank you thank you!

Yes I love God... Without him all this wouldn't happen. All this wondrful people that i treasure a lot won't be in my life. Through him all things are made possible! I love you!! please God give me the strength and give all those we are in need of strength. Help me to focus Lord. please be with me, Help me. ALL THROUGH MY LIFE, LEAD ME LORD!!

On the contrary, I feel that i am drifting away from you again!! i hate this feeling. but how? i am SO LAZY and i am not making any effort.. i Dont like this feeling, i totally abhor it. i seriously need to do something to change it!! Please help me to go back to you.. i dont know if i am being over sensitive, but i do know for a fact is i have to take this seriously and start to do something about it!

2007-05-21T16:48:00.000+08:00

I'm back from chem prac and guess what! i dont understand what on earth they want me to find? hahha.. ok nvm at least i managed to write something! went to children liturgy yesterday with nana and rachal.. THEY ARE SO CUTE! i didnt talk much though.. just dont know how to entertain the children there!

oh ya i was interveiwed by this guy form G mag and he asked me what was my favorite childhood games, hobbies, etc.. so i said the SWINGS!!!! yes i love the swings till now i am still loving it... its been a major part of my life eversince young...!!! i love going to the swings with my cousins! they are the best bunch of people.. : ) : )

2007-05-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

Results were horrible.. beyond my imagination. good gracious me but i have only myself to blame for not being hardworking and for not putting in enough effort. but nevertheless i am thankful for this horrible results in a way.. it seriously tells me to WAKE UP and to start bucking up!! hopefully its not too late..

I thought i was going to get a huge scolding from my parents for the bad results obtained... but that was not the case. They some sort understood what was going on and they didnt really scold me at all. i juust hope that i wont disappoint them in terms of results again! they are truely great parents!

From this it make me realise certain things and i am thankful

1) for my understanding parents
2) for my friends who were there for me
3) for Audrey for being there ALWAYS!! : )
4) for nana for listening to me
5) for the good teachers i have but i have never appreciated them

LAstly i am thankful and grateful for the love of GOD.. without him i am nothing, without him i dont know how i'm suppose to survive.. Thank you God for always being there for me and for not abandoning me.. Thank you are all the people whom you sent to me to help me and to care for me. you seriously make me a very happy child! who can fathom the depth of your love( how true)

I stand i stand in awe of you
I stand i stand in awe of you
holy God to whom all praise is due
I stand in awe of you!

and yes i finally join charismatic after weeks of contemplation! (CLAPS!!!).. this would definitely be a good experience and a good way to get closer to God!! YAY!!! the thought of getting closer to him just makes me happy..

2007-05-16T20:28:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!! Blogger is back to its normal state again!!! i can blog properly again!!! YEAH!! ok i shall blog again real soon!!

HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!!

2007-05-13T21:26:00.000+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER"S DAY TO ALL MUMMY OUT THERE!!!!!

To my BELOVED Mummy. thanks for watching me grow up and for always being there for me.. For always understanding me for always supporting me. Although you love NAGGING alot.. like ALOT! HAHA you're still the best mummy to me and i will never forget your love for me. Thanks for everthing that you have done for me! Thanks for your comfort too! I LOVE YOU!

To my Godma( whom dont read my blog!)... Thanks for watching me grow up and for your guidance! Your helping hand and support when i need it.. Thanks for also being understanding and supportive. Although i hardly talk to you, i know that you are always there for me and i can count on you. I love you

To my dearest Grandma!! "the grandest" of all.. haha!! Thank you for watching me grow up and for all your attention and love that you have showered on me. you are like another mum to me who knows all my thoughts and understands me through. your the best grandma one can ever get!!! I love you

Lastly to my yet to be YOUNG Godma!! i emphasize YOUNG.. THIS MESSAGE IS ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!!

HAPPY YOUNG MUMMY'S DAY!! hahaha.. ok this is like my erm.. fourth time wishing you. but its ok right? haha.. ok here goes my thank you speech!

Thanks for always being there for me.. you never fail to cheer me up and make me happy. You never fail to help me solve problems and listen to all my worries and rubbish stuff. you never fail to make me smile and make me feel better. you never fail to support me and you never fail to understand me! and lastly you never fail to drive me crazy! But still... I stick to my stand. you are the best young Godma ever in the universe! hahaha!! Ich liebe Sie!!

THANK YOU GOD FOR KINDLY GIVEN SO MANY WONDERFUL MUMMY TO ME .. my beloved mother, to my Godma, to my grandma and last but not least. my yet to be Godma( how i wish 17 june will hurry up come, then i can remove the "yet to be")! haha.. but ya..thank you god for sending so many wonderful ladies to guide me and help me! thank you are giving us your Mother as well. the one and only MOTHER MARY! who is the Mother of all Mother!!

Mother Mary. thank you for giving us your Son.. thank you are always interceding for us. thank you for always being there for us and never fail to hear our cries and pleads. Thank you for being the BEST OF ALL BEST! Mother Mary I Love you!

On this day O beautiful Mother

On this day we give thee our love

near thee madonna fondly we hover

trusting thy gentle care to prove!

Heres roses for all the mum out there!

2007-05-10T23:35:00.000+08:00

The conclusion of Elizabeth and i( my good friend or shall i say we are just two pitiful souls being neglected!! eversince jeremy came back and audrey goes all quiet and ignoring us!)

liz- is happy! says:
now-of-days

liz- is happy! says:
Audrey very quiet hor

liz- is happy! says:
Jeremy come back

liz- is happy! says:
woah lah

liz- is happy! says:
straight away

liz- is happy! says:
no one talk to me anymore alh!

liz- is happy! says:
hahahaha

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
hahahha.. YES YES YES!!!

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
HHAHAHA

liz- is happy! says:
hahahhahaha

liz- is happy! says:
(: (:

liz- is happy! says:
hahaha

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
the power of jeremy!!

liz- is happy! says:
pearl!

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
haha

liz- is happy! says:
can I cut and paste this conversation

liz- is happy! says:
on my blog post

liz- is happy! says:
?

liz- is happy! says:
hahahhahaha

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
can.. sure

liz- is happy! says:
lol

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
i wanted to do it too!!!

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
hahha

liz- is happy! says:
HAHAHA!

liz- is happy! says:
okay, let's do it tog

liz- is happy! says:
!

God's fingers can touch nothing but to mold it into loveliness... Gott, hilf doch mir bitte. says:
ok ok!!!

YES YES YES!!!.. so sad right.. This two pitiful souls! someone out there goes all quiet and stop disturbing us SUDDENLY! eversince jeremy came back not too long ago... Wonder how is she man! Its been eons eversince she communicated with elizabeth and i... Dont know if it is a good thing or not! haha... We(I) feel like we(I)are(am) lacking something all of a sudden... The silence is just engulfing us! hahaha... Its a TRAGEDY man!!..

So Elizabeth, I guessed its just you and me!!!

* I so have to go for confession after this man.. haha.. cause she just messaged me today but ya you get the drift!!!

2007-05-09T13:59:00.000+08:00

YAY!!!... freedom is the reason!!!! hahaha.. ok i have been extremely mad lately.. Dont know whats gotten into me. haha.. YES YES!!! EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER AS OF TODAY!!! Time for a break and rest before intensive Mt starts... So for now.. its shop sleep shop sleep! hahaha...

Thank you God for helping me go through the days of my exams thanks for giving me strength and the knowledge to do the paper.. God i wanna pray for courage. Courage to face the results boldly... If the results is bad yes i will have to accept it and have to put in the extra effort during hols.. Mid year is not everthing. its the Os.. so i have to work hard for it...

Yes.. yay.. i am starting to get bored! suggestions anyone?
and ya ya

WELCOME BACK JEREMY!!!! my wonderful counsellor!! so glad you're back!! you can help audrey kill her boredom so she does not have the time to come and influence me! haha.. yes yes.. whatever the case is... WELCOME BACK!!! you are missed! haahaha

2007-05-08T21:21:00.000+08:00

Someone made my day today!! haha.. ok let me blog about Amath.. the most favorable subject of all.. hahha. ok the paper was manageable i suppose.. judging that i always do badly for it at.. for me to say that is it manageable is like.. OK.. i seriously hope to pass this paper not just pass.. but pass with at least a B3 and above.. then i will be smiling with joy! haha.. cant wait to get the paper back.. people might be think i am crazy but ya.. I WANT MY PAPER BACK! haha..

After all the tramas and nervous breakdown i went through before the exam, i hope to pass and i better do..

yes back to the someone who made my day... this person is none other than audrey! yay! haha..she messaged me like at 658. 41 just to wish me all the best for my exams when she can do something more productive like continue with her sleep or something... she's so sweet right... haha.. and oh ya.. i guess she was like praying for the paper to be manageable for me and her prayer was answered! haha
THANK YOU AUDREY!!... whether you purposely wake up or happen to wake up or for whatever reasons.. Thanks for the message. Although i saw it after the exam it still made my day.. : ) haha.

Yes thats why i ALWAYS SAY THAT SHE IS THE BEST TUTOR AND GODMA IN THE UNIVERSE!!! eh i am serious k.. you tell me where to find such a person who will wake up just to message you so early in the morning ALL THE BEST..

hahha.. and yes i should not have been so mean yesterday when she offered to listen to me if i needed to complain or lament. you know what i said?? i said.. "wah.. you very free ah?" haha. so mean of me right.. now i am so guilty..She's damn smart... GOOD JOB!!! : )
So sorry audrey.. am i forgiven ?? haha

See a simple message can make one's day... this shows that you do not need to do great things but do simple things with love! quoted from mother teresa..

ok i have one more.. just one more and i will be freed for awhile!! cant wait man

yes and I HAVE TO THANK GOD for helping me through today.. you cant imagine how anxious i was last night .. i woke almost every hour or so.. and the only thing in my head was"AMATH AND HIST... DIE!!!" then i went to school and got confuse further by some of my friends.. but yes with the help, grace and strength from God i managed to do the paper although i was still damn worried,, i managed to complete it! YAY!!! I LOVE YOU LORD!! you are so full of compassion and love and i can always count on you no matter what. Thanks!!

2007-05-06T19:43:00.000+08:00

3 more days!!! 3 more days!! 3 more days!! hahahaha... but i guess the three days will take a million years to pass by ya ):

I am told to write down a list of things i want for my birthday but i seriously dont know what i need. But if you see me lacking something than buy that lacking thing. haha.. ok i will really consider what i really need and post it for you soon... : )

And yes.. Mt Os is coming soon.. i shall start writing blog post in chinese or at least try to make an attempt. All those chinese expert out there.. time to do me a favour!!! and yes if you are a chem expert.. please render your services and help too!!!

ok off to studying... i would like to end off with a song ...

Do Not Be Afraid
I Am With You
I Have Called You Each By Name
Come And Follow Me
I Will Bring You Home
I LOVE You And You Are Mine!

2007-05-04T23:00:00.000+08:00

Thank you lord for allowing me to experience you once again tonight. despite this torturous and hectic week. you were always there for me.. Thanks for this wonderful night!!

Worthy is the lamb

Seated on the throne

Crown you now with many crowns

You reign victorious

High and lifted up

Jesus son of God

The darling of heaven crucified

Worthy is the lamb!

YAY!!!. i am happy now for GOD made me happy! :) haha.. Exams so far...hmm.. not gg to mention. but i am just going to lift all of the done and undone papers unto him! He knows best! right?. : )

ok.. shall comment on this week.
1)tiring
2)tiring
3)tiring

ok basically its been a very tiring week for me. who ask me la.. dont want to study earlier.. its not that i dont want too.. but.. aiya.. no motivation and so on.. i just hope that the coming wed will arrive in a blink of the eye and i will be free for AWHILE... a while is good enough. : ) the last day of paper 090507.. hurry hurry hurry!

090507-

free after nine

100507-

free the whoel day i suppose. but i think i will have soem brochure thing to do.. dont know yet la

110507-

Going out with marie and sarah after marie is done with her paper to celebrate her Birthday!

yup thats about it...

*marie and sarah.. so sorry that i could not go out with you all these past few days.. was really busy preparing for my MY. we shall go out and have fun on Fri k!

2007-04-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

GOD.. please be with me to guide and lead me, to give me strength, wisdom, knowledge( i need both of them badly) and the ability to answer my question well. thank you for always being with me and allowing me to experience your endless love. God i besiege you... please help me to go through this period and continue to have faith in you!!!

LORD, send down your spirit to help and guide me..

I LOVE YOU LORD

AND I LIFT MY VOICE

TO WORSHIP YOU,

OH MY SOUL, REJOICE

TAKE JOY MY KING

IN WHAT YOU HEAR

MAY IT BE A SWEET SWEET

SOUND IN YOUR EAR!

I LOVE YOU LORD!

2007-04-30T20:43:00.000+08:00

This week and the following.. is going to be VERY tough and TIRING(knowing that i love to sleep a lot).. i will have to sit for 7 papers during the course of this two weeks. GOODNESS!!! it may seem little and easy but it is definitely no and NOT... but ya. i know all students have to sit for exams and it is part of our life. how sad. JUST hope that mid year will end soon! like really soon. but even with the end of mid year, there is still the prelims awaiting me.. and there is seriously lots of work and papers to be done in order to be prepared for it.

The after mid year list to do
1) start praying for the results to be acceptable by (myself, parents, tuition teacher(s) well i have only one so far but i have many

2) start panicking before the results come out

3)START MY INTENSIVE CHINESE REVISION

4)Start writing EL compos

5) oh ya.. must buy ear piece first (sure get lots of scolding... grammer, sentence
structure,verbs..., lack of vocabulary, expressions, tenses. spelling errorsssss.)

6) A math prelim papers

7) Science revision ( Chemistry+Physic= Headaches and Frustrations)

8)Humanities revision (SS+ GEOG+HIST= brain explosion)

9) Mathematic revision ( Amath= GOING MAD and brain dying and E math= brain draining and GOING CRAZY)

10) Start preparing for O Level

I think thats about it. but i still have to think about what i can do to help choir and some friends of mine! sad right.. haha. but it's ok i guess. seeing their happy faces makes me happy too! : ) : ) I need to find people or person or whoever who can make me study( angels are welcome too)

I also want to........

1)Go and find good makan places( not find actually. i want to go and survey their food.. haha)
2) Go and exercise (which ever way you all want, NO RUNNING without a purpose thats all)
3)Go and get tan ( i am losing my brown colour)
4)Get away from studies and just relax

ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO VOLUNTEER??? all this do you good too!;);)

sigh,,, for now i guess its back to STUDYING, STUDYING, STUDYING. the most dreadful word in the list of vocabulary!

* Anyways elizabeth. thanks for your chocs.. they are really nice like you!! haha. :)

2007-04-30T17:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21 st ELIZABETH!!!!

hey hey!! i remembered!! see i told you i would.. anyways! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! 21st means the key to freedom so... Here's cheers to this key of freedom and for a blast of a fun time for the many more years to come! GOD BLESS! :)

* i will buy jelly beans for you if i come across. haha.

2007-04-26T20:35:00.000+08:00

FOOLISH!!!! argh.. how foolish can i get.. ok i promise never to make that mistake again. NEVER!!!!. today a person's life was in danger... ok SO long as WE Dont make the mistake again. everything will be fine! right? i mean so long as we repent. God wont make things so difficult right??

OH GOD... i pray that she will be ok and nothing will happen to her.. I promise never to let history repeats itself again... please guide and guard her and me safely.. PLease lord. be with us throughout the day and for the rest of our life.

I seriously hope that everything will be ok and no one is hurt... Please let this matter rest as of today and never let history repeat again!

I'm sorry Lord for the things i made it....
Please just let matter rest!

To Audrey

2007-04-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

ALL THE BEST

ARGH!!! ok i am defintiely running out of ideas.. i have tried all kinds of techno stuff and i can safely say i AM seriously running of out ideas.. but nevertheless.. This post is delicated to Audrey!!!

Hey Audrey.. kind of weird writing it here.. but haha. Anyways dont fred or worry. Think you are giving yourself too much pressure!!! haha.. ya look on the bright side. you have ONLY one paper more.. just ONE more. i am sure you are able to do it.. Then on friday you will be free and and liberated and you willl be able to play more, eat more, sleep more and have more fun.. so lucky!!! while i on the otherhand wont be free and will suffer tragically till Nov..(consolation for you) haha.. I will be praying for you to do well. Dont worry i dont ask people to pray themself! i am nice! : ): ).. YA.. Just relax and study.. you are sure able to do it!! and as usual my saying goes, i can help you in anything except academically. haha so sorry.. the only thing i can do now is to relieve you of your school work for a moment and laugh at this lame post. haha

I will never fail you or forsake you.
- Hebrews 13:5

See he will never fail or forsake you so dont worry about anything.. cause worry is a total waste of time, it steals your joy away! haha.. SO JOY, always be happy k!! and yes God will bless and guide you through it although you self proclaim that you didnt study. haha.

you definitely came across this before!

AUDREY! I AM CERTAIN AND SURE YOU CAN DO IT!!
GO AUDREY!

* Sorry. i am like totally lack of ideas already so this is like a very short and last min thing but still hope it relieve you of your school work for like 1 min. judging that you read very fast : ) sorry.. effort wise is like 0/100 but sincerity wise it is 100/100. really wish you all the best for your exams

oh ya people who have ideas on what i can do besides video, letters,ppt... do drop by your email on my tag board and dont write what to do there cause then she will know what i am up to. LOL

Seek Ye First

2007-04-23T20:44:00.000+08:00

Seek ye first the
Kingdom of God and
His righteousness and all these things
Shall be added unto you,
Allelu, Alleluia.

Man shall not live by bread alone,
But by every word
That proceeds from the mouth of God,
Allelu, Alleluia.

Ask, and it shall be given unto you,
Seek, and ye shall find.
Knock, and the door shall be opened unto you,
Allelu, Alleluia.

God has poured out his love into our hearts. - Romans 5:5

2007-04-23T20:18:00.000+08:00

WAH..... Mass today was SUPERLY SUPERBLY superb... It confirm the message like on the spot, ok maybe not on the spot but in an hour that i should love one another regardless of whatever and i should not be judgemental... It was so real so Nice, So wonderful... GOD i will never doubt your presence( for now until i feel spiritually dry), you are definitely more than real.. You are So REAL!! ok i am not making sense.... but ya.. GOD IS DEFINITELY REAL AND ALIVE!!!! AND YES I LOVE HIM and i want to tell the whole world i LOVE HIM.. :):):)

ALLELUJAH! JESUS IS ALIVE..

* To marie.. that does not mean i am Holy k... is just that i am feeling spiritually high at the moment and yes you are SO coming with me to mass on Fri!!!

2007-04-23T17:16:00.000+08:00

For the first time. chemistry practical was manageable..(claps).. haha.. ya. i think i should start looking at those dreadful subjects from a new perspective... i think that is the fastest way to love and do well in it. Although looking it from a new perspective is difficult but i'll try.. :):).. i have been thinking a lot lately... i should look at things from a new perspective and learn to enjoy every second i spent with my family, friends, dogs?? haha.. ya i should learn to appreciate the people around me more and to give and let. I should not bear grudges and be judgemental. I should love the people around me more and treasure them.. yes? haha

I LOVE GOD
I love mummy and daddy
I love my grandma
I love Audrey
I love jeremy( better put his name there if not he starts complaining again)
I love nana
I love shamini, Gayathri and.....
I love Marie and Sarah
I love.....

ok I love everyone k.. even though you dont like me or hate me i still love you all!!!
Love one another as i have loved you. : )

God thank you so much for letting me go through the first day of the week smoothly.. please continue to be my guide, my light and my lord.. Thank you for helping me to not take things for granted and to love one another and i am truely BLESSED and EXTREMELY HAPPY to have you in my life. I may not see you BUT i know you are always there no matter what. THANK YOU GOD!!!

ok i'm off to church now. bye!

The Longing

2007-04-22T19:31:00.000+08:00

God you are really so wonderful.. i once again felt your presence the last two days and i want to proclaim to the World how Marvelous and great you are.. Thanks for putting a smile on my face again... Thanks for everything that you have done for me. In return, empower me to spread your love and presence to the world. Help me to constantly acknowledge that you are my God, My pillar of strength and support.

I attended charismatic on fri and man.. It was damn good (beyond description)... its been a long time since i felt spiritually high. It was a wonderful feeling. The playing of Audrey's and Jeremy's combined was...EXCELLENT... it was great. I dont think ANYONE can play as well as them(not being bias or anything) maybe because i have not come across one yet. When one of them play i already can feel the presence of GOd and it allows me to get closer to him. Imagine when they combine forces... it was heavenly, wonderful, superior, first class, superb, top-notch and i could go on and on and on. Ya thats how good it was.. but i must say that the P and W leaders were exemplary too.. :) yeah i got closer to God.. haha..

Oh yes i got to see my baby cousins.. they are so cute la... they are a constant reminder to us that GOD love us to be children like because they

1)Have A Pure Heart
2)They Are Innocent
3) They Dont Bear Grudges
4)They know the word love more than hate
5)And the most important.. They Are not judgemental...( the deadliest sin) hahaha..

Yes on sat went for choir... We did something different for choir practice and i think it did benefit some of them.. It did benefit me though... It brought me closer to God again. YAY... haha. choir today did sound soft and everything( judging from the no. of ppl and their age and we are not professional) but we are CONSTANTLY TRYING to improve and built up his choir again in terms of volume and standard. We are made his instruments to give Glory to Him and to help our BROTHERS AND SISTERES built up his Church TOGETHER..

Anyways.. GOD i love you so much thank you for being part of my life and for putting all those trials and ordeals before my way so i can become stronger.. oh ya. i still owe you readers out there the Journeying with Christ part 2. haha. Soon k. after my exams.
I lOVE YOU GOD

Light of the World

2007-04-22T19:19:00.000+08:00

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes, Let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
So highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly you came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

2007-04-19T15:17:00.000+08:00

ARGH... the stupid El paper IS extremely difficult.. goodness. what owl, what kangaroos... argh.. think i am going to flunk it. I never ever come out of an examination hall after an El paper feeling so insecure and dissappointed. If IF i flunk the el paper i dont see a need to go and sit for the rest of the paper anymore. it is totally pointless and argh.... why must my command of El be so bad to the point of not being able to understand the comprehension and answer the questions. i dont know why. but i feel that that i underperforming and Dont have the ability to do well for everything now..

My el is disgusting and horrible. My chem is like GONE. My physic is also a Goner not to mention my MT which is SO fantastically GOOD not. My SS which i cant seem to past.Geog which i dont understand how i could fail. My Amath which is so unpredictable and not stable and Hist which is Ok but thanks to my SS i keep passing SS/Hist on the DOT only therefore it is very risky as the mark fluctuate all the time.. The onyl thing i hope and wish for is to get a A1 for my e math for mid year. Although the marks during Midyear wont be counted for O level, it is like a gauge to see how well you will do for your Os.. I want to work hard and ace through every single subject but it is hard and the joruney is certainly going to be arduous.,

GOD i need your grace and mercy.

I just hope that i will have ample time to go and study for the rest of my upcoming paper. It is drawing closer day by day and i feel the lack of confident and Courage day by day. Although it is only mid year, it can be compared to life and death.

The only consolation i have is to lift up my el paper to him and the remaining papers to him and hoping that everthing will turn out alright. God what will i ever do without you. How can i ever survive without you. How can i go through this year without you. i need you Lord. come into my life and fill me with your knowledge and wisdom once again. Help me to go through and sail through each and everyone of my paper.

2007-04-14T10:51:00.000+08:00

Today's saturday... yeah. This week had been the most tiring week man.. dont know the reason why but after each day, i just come back home and fall asleep. goodness. dont know why.. anyone knows why?? maybe its because i didnt go home after school immediately or something or because of ALL the homeowork and annoying test which the school is giving. As usual we had e and a math test which i think i screwed one of it(the answer is so obvious if you know me). the amount of homework is definitely piling infinity high.. it never seem to end.

Although this week had been the most tiring week but it was a week full of laughter and fun. i met up with marie and sarah not once, not twice but thrice this week!!!. life with them is always full of laughter and fun.. meeting up and chatting with them really make me miss my primary school days where we use to play and play and play.. haha. Life after PSLE was the best. we always go to the playground near marie's house to play and chat and eat and.... we used to go ice skating very often which dear marie has forjotten( sarah favorite word). yes yes that is life duirng primary school.

Life in secondary school is fun too because you get to go out later and you are more mature and stuff to notice things around you.. ok i have been changing class since sec 1 and 2 and luckily 3 and 4 is the same bunch of people. yes ( Secondary 3/8 ans 4/8 is the best class.. yeah) you cannot imagine what we do in class. its damn funny at times. like this week during chem lesson my two seating partners and i had the most interesting chem lesson. Gaya was filing my nails while sham and i was handcuff to each other( the result of being bored in class). Sham then notice that we were the only ones awake during her lesson and she still manage to go on and on.

Yes.. and fri was international friendship day and Ij Fiesta... it was quite boring even with all the game stalls and food stalls set up. i was at the Ij enterprise booth rotting away and then jac and jas came along asking what booth was I in charge of.. They realise i was kindda bored so they asked me whether i would like to eat. So we headed for the canteen and pig out like we have not eaten for days. we had spaghetti, pizza, nasi lemak, cream puffs, isotonic drinks, mug float and cotton candy.. After our heavy branch, They accompanied back to the booth and help me dragged customers. So nice of them right. haha. i had a great time with them yesterday. the best part was, we all walked in the heavy rain yesterday and was soaking wet but i felt refresh after the walk.

i went to meet sarah and marie after that to go the gym but we did something else instead. As usual we had lotsa fun and sarah had to go for her shooting so it was left with marie and i. we went to the arcade to play and she won first in racing (car) and i won first in racing (motobikes). it was really fun. and then we wne to pig oout again at one of the cafe in the SAFRA club. we ate brownie and ice cream whcih tasted like banana cake and ice cream. ok it wasn't really nice but marie and i had a wonderful time talking and chatting and communicating.

After this meeting, i cab down with marie to my grandma's house and then she went home. i wen to eat again at Jumbo this time round to celebrate my beloved grandma's birthday( i do love her a lot) .The food is damn nice especially the cereal prawns. ar.. it just so heavenly.. and the best part was it was near the sea. you know how much i love nature. : ) : ) .. that was yesterday.

Moving on to today.. i have like tons of work to do and i have to prepare for my el and cl exams and i have to do my hist project which i owe gaya,, i am SOOO sorry.. think i better get going.
bye!

2007-04-11T23:46:00.000+08:00

yes ok we manage to snap a bit here and there but we being girls, are very concern about our looks in photos so we had to use photoshop to cover all the "errors" and beautify it. haha.. the power of technology!.. ok i better go back to my el. bye!

2007-04-10T21:00:00.000+08:00

screwed... screwed...screwed...

ok i am not that screwed but nearing to that real soon
i have like
1) Geog workbook around 20 pages
2) 2 el comprehension
3) 1 situational writing which i owe the el teacher
4) hist project thing
5) Emath test( if i fail this test i am screwed)
6) Amath test ( if i fail i am also screwed)
7) Geog test

and..... ALL of them are like due tomorrow!!! and here comes the best part.. I HAVE NOT STARTED ON ANYTHING. how screwed can i be... ok. yes today we had a prasie and worship thing in school. i must say that i wasnt captured by the p&w leaders and i wasnt in my usual p&w mood.. maybe it is the environment or the people there.. but i did manage to spend some time with God which is good!!. : )
ok i should go and start my whole chuck of work listed above.. bye!
and i am meeting sarah and marie again tmr.. YEAH,,

2007-04-09T20:52:00.000+08:00

today today.. i must say it is one of the best Monday of all... first i had 2.4 which i thought i was going to die halfway due to the fact that i have not run for a gazillion long time but i manage to complete it.. yes... then i got back my hist and emath assignment which i thought i did badly but it turns out that i did quite well. Oral today was good to. I had a great time chatting with the teacher.. yeah right. but ya it is better than most of them.

Lastly the limelight of the day

I GOT TO MEET MARIE AND SARAH WHOM I DID NOT SEE FOR DONKEY YEARS!!!!!...

THEY ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST I TELL YOU..

THEY TRUELY MADE MY DAY ...

YES I LOVE THEM PLENTY.....

CHEERS TO THAT!!

and i could nto have survive 2.4 and oral today without you lord.. thank you!!

2007-04-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY EASTER DAY EVERYONE

MINE EYES HAVE SEEN THE GLORY
OF THE COMING OF THE LORD
HE IS TRAMPLING OUT THE VINTAGE
WHERE THE GRAPES OF WRATH ARE STORED
HE HATH LOOSED THE FATEFUL LIGHTNING
OF HIS TERRIBLE SWIFT SWORD
HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON!!!!

Dont know why but i am in the easter mood although i am stuck at home doing work. It must be the songs that are sung during mass today which made me feel that way.. The choir is like damn powerful la.. It was really nice listening to them sing with LOTS of gusto and lotsa energy to proclaim that jesus have resurrected.....
ok i have to now... thats all for today folks.. haha
Jesus christ is risen today....

Good Old Happy Times

2007-04-07T21:30:00.000+08:00

Life have been rather still nowadays with nothing new and exciting happening. The only thing is i manage to catch up with some of my primary school good friends and we are gonna meet up soon.. Cant wait for that.. Its been like donkey years eversince we met up.. yes other than that nothing new happpen. boring right.. So i am stuck at hoem doing homework and chatting(the only stress reliver for now) then i had the sudden urge to look at my childhood photos as i was chatting with one of my priamry school friend. I got SO engross at looking and laughing at the photos until i didnt know three hours have past(that is how much photos i have). haha. ok so i decided to scan some photos and share it with you. so ya. here are some of the photos.

WE ARE ONE "BIG" FAMILY

what you starring at! ( can you imagine this is me!)

My Grandparents.. they are the best thing
that happen to me when i was young

Nana and me!!

i have been expose to mahjong

since young.. care to play??

I am the creation of these two

wonderful human begins.

I love them

WATER!!!!

Although life have been rather stressful and full of ups and downs nowadays, the memories of childhood seem to make everything all right.. : ) I would like to thank mummy and daddy for bringing me into this world, for letting me experience things that life may bring. My childhood would not have been completed without their Love and Warmth. Besides them, i would like to thank my grandparents too for looking after me and for showering me with love and showering me. hahaha.. Yes i spend most time with them as my parents gotta go to work. they are the BEST grandparents i can ever asked for. I Love my granddad more actually but ya both of them ROX!! cousins too play a very important role in my life since i am the only child. they fill my life with joy and happiness and lotsa lotsa lotsa laughter and most importantly when you are young you need to have FUN! lots of them to make a childhood complete.

SO parents wannabe out there. If you want to know the main essential of having a HAPPY AND WONDERFUL childhood.. here are some tips that might help you. Firstly, you need to stock up lotsa milk, diapers, pacifiers etc etc.. but most importantly, You need to give the child alot of care and concern, shower them with endless love, give them warmth and the most important of importants is to give them FOOD!!!!. when a baby is full they will be happy and sleepy babies :). Now you know why i seldom cry! Oh yes. Family outings is very important too. like the beach, the zoo( my most favorite place to be when i was young), the botanic garden, parks, playground, chalets swimming pools....

The machine where you put $0.20 in and it will move and music starts playing make a child happy too! ya.. Places that allow family bonding and things that the child will enjoy..

YES YES YES>> All this would not have been possible without the love of my real father for
planting me in my mother's womb. He has truely allow me to experience what it is like of being love plenty. He had sent many angels to be around me when i was young and is still sending many more... HE has guard and guide me eversince i was born. He watched over me and protected me with his mighty hands. I was so small, yet he showered me with unconditional love that no one could ever give. Despite turning away times and times again, he still watch over me and guide me back to the correct path.. My happy and memoriable childhood seriously and without a doubt would not have been possible without him, the ONE TRUE GOD. (:(:(:(:(:

FOR YOU CREATED ME AND SHAPE ME
GAVE ME LIFE WITHIN MY MOTHER'S WOMB
FOR THE WONDER OF WHO I AM I PRAISE YOU
SAVE IN YOUR HANDS ALL CREATION IS MADE NEW!

2007-04-06T10:47:00.000+08:00

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,
The emblem of suffering and shame;
And I love that old cross
where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

O that old rugged cross,
so despised by the world,
Has a wondrous attraction for me;
For the dear Lamb of God left
His glory aboveTo bear it to dark Calvary.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

In that old rugged cross,
stained with blood so divine,
A wondrous beauty I see,
For 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
To pardon and sanctify me.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;
Its shame and reproach gladly bear;
Then He'll call me some day to my home far away,
Where His glory forever I'll share.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

2007-04-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

i seriously feel very irratated now.,. VERY...aargh.. i need somewhere to vent my anger. i am i in the wrong. but i dont like it when they cast judgement on people and making assumption of them.... i TOTALLY HATE THEM FOR NOW,,.. hopefully this thing will end.. i dont wanna hate but i have this feeling of hatred now..
you whoever out there. if you dont shut up soon i am gg to blow up real soon,,.

2007-04-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

You are my light, you're the lamp upon my feet

All the time my lord i need you there

You are my light, i cannot live alone.

Let me stay by your guiding light

All through my life,,

Lead me lord..

I feel like i am drifting away again and not walking on the correct path.. I need to go back to the correct path and let God take control of it. Help me to seek you Lord... Today i felt your prescene again during mass when audrey played and jeremy sang.. i think they are the most compatible organist and singer. they can truely move me.. I felt that God understood what i was going through and have stood by me and never leave me. He understands me through and through and accept my weaknesses and make them seems nothing to big. God i now fully understand the meaning of "There is nothing too big that i cannot handle". Yes lord. there is nothing to big that you cannot manage and handle. Help me to constantly search seek for you and help my heart who desire for you to enter..

Cause it goes against the way i am

To put my human nature down

And let the spirit take control of all i do

Cause when those trials come

My human nature

Shouts the things to do

And God's soft promting can be easily ignored.

2007-04-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST SE SOK!!

oh gosh.. i think i am still sober.. i have to be.. i have like an essay to write out and here i am stoning and falling asleep real soon .. i just came back form my Godpa's birthday party and i think i am dead drunk but if i am i dont see how i still can blog about it hmm.. damn shouldn;t have drank that much alchohol although i dont think it is a lot..i am getting sleepy and i have no mood to write an essay. guess i still have to do it no matter how much i detest. but overall the party was great. My cousin and i took a lot A LOT of random photos.. especially the toilet. seems like the best hang out place.. haha.. ok i should stop for now. i am going mad....

isnt he just plain adorable...... the overly exaggerated cheese

what are these words man?? are they some hebrew words..

2007-04-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO JEREMY AND AUDREY...

And

Welcome back JEREMY

Since it is jeremy's anniversary, i will take this opportunity to blog something about him and make him happy... jeremy is a very nice and wonderful friend. yes he is.. met him a few years ago and got to know him better over the years. He is definitely a great guy and he is fantastic at consoling people when they are upset. he will offer you a cookie which will make you laugh when you think about it a few days later. (btw.. you still owe me cookies!!) erm.. damn i am running out of things to say(this shows that he have not done much to make me remember stuff).. goodness.. hmm.. yes i remember now.. his favourite food at the church coffee shop is the claypot ee-mee thing with lots and LOTS and LOTS of vinegar. ok,, i will blog again when i recall things about him.. haha..

Anyways, CONGRATULATION GODMA AND "GODPA" for sticking together for 3 years and the super glue between them seem to get "superer" and "superer" each year. thats good isn't it.. haha ok (sorry brain is really not functioning well today) Continue to stick to each other and may God Bless you2 abundantly and keep you2 in his presence always on this memorial day and for the many many many more years to come.. :)

Love,

me always!!

2007-04-03T14:59:00.000+08:00

Argh.. my legs, hands, shoulders and stomach are totally worn out.. goodness... it must be the result of not exercising regularly for the past 1 month. I had to do a physical fitness test and i am totally exhausted... the onky thing i derive out of the whole physical fitness test is... i am still considered quite "fit". haha.. anyways i think i need to start exercising again.. i need some1(s) to

1) play tennis with..

2) go to the gym

3) swim with?? nah .. i rather swim on my own.. : )

4) play more tennis

5) maybe climb or trek up something somewhere in singapore unless i am allowed to go overseas to climb mountains.

6) go to the beach to have fun ( i need my tan)

7)....

ok maybe exercises or something(beside running... i hate running )that i will enjoy and able to keep fit and build up stamina.. Sadly i can only do majority of it after my Midyear, prelims and Os... right now i have to focus on books, worksheets, assignments and exams.

Beside that i realise Mid year is just round the corner.. like less than a month time.. NO... stay away from me.... sigh.. cant help it.. exams, tests and datelines love students a lot.. it is TRYING to be your best friend... hah. ok

OH YA.. i was asked a question yesterday from my friend and the question is Why is life so depressing??..hmm.. ok i find that question rather challenging because i never thought that life was depressing. maybe sometimes it can seems that way to many when you face trials and ordeals but it is all part of growing up. From all the trials and ordeals, we can learn to grow stronger mentally and emotionally and wiser.

Challenges are place before us constantly to prepare us for the future and to make us stronger if you asked me and to prove to ourself that we are able to do something that we thought we can never do before... i think the answer to the question above is because we ourself think that life is depressing and so we live our live depressingly if there is such a word but i guess you all understand what i am trying to say. It is all in the state of mind. you can learn to love something/someone you hate as long as your mind is not stopping you to but it takes a lot of courage and determination to change your way of thinking. It needs time to because time has the power to change everything, to heal things. but in all that we do know that we are not facing it on our own.

There are many people out there who feels the same as you. There are also your family, relative and friends whom you can confide in and to talk to.. To all people who think life is depressing, i invite you to think about all the happy times in your lives and forget all the bad moments. Nobody's life is filled with rainbows and beds of roses but we can change our thinking and always look on the positive side of life. As long as we can achieve that, the bed of roses and rainbows can also be available to you. And in all things, remember that God loves us and would never put us here on earth to suffer. He loves us so much that he place us here on earth to enjoy his creation and to be awed by it. He wants to give us an experience of what he created here on earth so life is definitely not depressing if you think about it. It is up to you to lead a depressing life or to change it and to lead a happy and fulfilling one. The choice is yours so generally it is wrong to say that life IS depressing.

Yes.. but in all the trails and ordeals, there will be someone to walk beside you, to guide you, to lead you and to protect you, to carry you and to grant you peace if you are willing to let go and to allow him to take over.. :):)

*Smiling helps too

Torturous week

2007-03-31T08:30:00.000+08:00

THANK GOD for helping me through this week man.. IT have been the most torturous week in my SEC 4 life so far although i know the real torture is coming anytime soon.. i had millions of tests this week.. ok maybe not millions but it seems that way.. I had like chemistry which i am VERY CERTAIN i am going to fail like horribly. A Math which i am not going to comment on the test. Chinese Oral which was like ..erm....Physic pratical test which was one of the easiest test this week. PFT which i didnt take this week because i am still sick and i am going to developed a sore eye like real soon. the cause of the red eye is still undiscovered. the only thing that got better this week is my voice. i think it is more or less recovered and i can sing although not as good but still .. I CAN SING!!. the feeling is terrible when you wanna sing and because of this dumb sore troat and sexy voice, It have deprived me of singing for at least 2 weeks!! and am i glad to have partially recovered part of my voice. The only thing consolation i have this week is, there is someone out there who had a much worser week than me. She had many sleepless night this week and she is still rushing through one of her assignment to be handed up today!... i sincerely wish her all the best for her assignment(s)!! i somehow think the school is a little crazy to give the students so much work to do.. but thats the life of a student as usual. Nothing but assignments and tests and exams and the most irratating part which is the DATELINES!!!. hah. Anyways Congratulation Audrey... You have made it through this week by the time you read this and rest well.. : ) Dont worry, the day will past very fast and the night is approaching real soon!!! Ok to the rest of you out there who had the most terrible week in their life. Congratulations!!! you have made it through this week..

Without the help from God, i dont think i can manage to scrap through this week. So a million thanks to God who is so merciful and understanding for helping your children here on earth and for giving us blessings everyday in our lives.. LOVE YOU!

2007-03-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BIRTHDAY ANGELIN! :) MAY GOD SHOWER YOU WITH ALL HIS BLESSINGS AND GRACE...