THANK GOD for helping me through this week man.. IT have been the most torturous week in my SEC 4 life so far although i know the real torture is coming anytime soon.. i had millions of tests this week.. ok maybe not millions but it seems that way.. I had like chemistry which i am VERY CERTAIN i am going to fail like horribly. A Math which i am not going to comment on the test. Chinese Oral which was like ..erm....Physic pratical test which was one of the easiest test this week. PFT which i didnt take this week because i am still sick and i am going to developed a sore eye like real soon. the cause of the red eye is still undiscovered. the only thing that got better this week is my voice. i think it is more or less recovered and i can sing although not as good but still .. I CAN SING!!. the feeling is terrible when you wanna sing and because of this dumb sore troat and sexy voice, It have deprived me of singing for at least 2 weeks!! and am i glad to have partially recovered part of my voice. The only thing consolation i have this week is, there is someone out there who had a much worser week than me. She had many sleepless night this week and she is still rushing through one of her assignment to be handed up today!... i sincerely wish her all the best for her assignment(s)!! i somehow think the school is a little crazy to give the students so much work to do.. but thats the life of a student as usual. Nothing but assignments and tests and exams and the most irratating part which is the DATELINES!!!. hah. Anyways Congratulation Audrey... You have made it through this week by the time you read this and rest well.. : ) Dont worry, the day will past very fast and the night is approaching real soon!!! Ok to the rest of you out there who had the most terrible week in their life. Congratulations!!! you have made it through this week..
Without the help from God, i dont think i can manage to scrap through this week. So a million thanks to God who is so merciful and understanding for helping your children here on earth and for giving us blessings everyday in our lives.. LOVE YOU!
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Thursday, March 29, 2007
i woke up feeling alright as usual and went to school. When i entered the school compound, this friend of my came and asked me. "Pearl... what happen to your eye?" when she said that, i was puzzled because my eye felt perfectly fine and so i asked her what is wrong. She said that it looks like i was having a sore eye and some blood clot thing.. and she still can make a joke out of it. This crazy friend here said.. Pearl you must be watching porn ar.. or starring at guys!.. I really wanted to kill her.. haha.. the only thing i starred at the whole night was alphabets as usual my favorite.. i guess it was the lack of sleep of something like tt. but the thing is i didnt feel tired at all in the morning so i was wondering whether it is just an infection or the reason is truly because i didnt have enough sleep!. i hope the reason is because of an infection and not because of the lack of sleep. WHY i say that? A lot of people was telling me to go and sleep last night but i just didnt listen and went on doing my homework until 1 something 2 and the night before i slept around 3 in the morning.. now you know why i say i hope it is an infection.. so that they wont have a chance to say ."you see.. told you to go and sleep right.. never listen.. now what happen?!" haha
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Journeying with Christ (1)
Since i revive my blog and almost got everything going smoothly, it is time to dedicate a post to the Savior of my Soul. Yes. the Savior of my Soul and the wonders he has done for me. He has been there for me even before i was born but only got to know him better after i have aged a little.
My mum recently told me that when i was little and adorable ( i'm still..haha) I will always fall asleep even if i have not completed my night prayer. Then one night she woke me up to ask me to sleep properly(guess my legs and hands were dangling off the bed) but guess what was my reaction. I still dreaming and unaware of what i am doing,raised my palms to face towards heaven and i started to mumbled some words or something. My mum got so shock she left me alone! haha when i heard it. I was thinking to myself.. it is so nice and fantastic +wonderful to encounter the spirit of God even when my faith is limited and i know nothing about the spirit.ok maybe a little but still.. i myself got so shocked after i heard what she told me.
Another thing my mum told me was. My Dad and her dreamt that i had bible passages written all over my face! can you imagine bible passages and verses written and scribble all over my face!!. that happen when i was still in her womb.. two people dreaming about the same thing in a night is totally unbelivable if you ask me... As i grew up and mature a little, i got to know Christ a wee bit better and started saying prayers without falling asleep. Yes a achievement. : ) and as the time goes by, i return to my old self again. falling asleep halfway during prayers and sometime skipping my prayers.. i know i am naughty. but he will still come and reveal himself to me in different ways.
Since Secondary 1 till Secondary 4, the turning points in my faith will always be whenever i encounter a problem or whenever i am feeling down(confirmation camps too but will touch on that later on). Despite me not turning to him and asking him for help, he will still show me his endless mercy and love by sending various people in my life. that is why these people meant so so so much to me. They are really God's people from heaven!! I remember secondary 3 was the year which my life have so many turning points. First was when i got chased out of class for doing something i did not do and she totally embarrassed me but with the help from God i soon got over it and returned to join them after a few weeks.
Next was my horrible results i had for Mid year A math which totally shocked my parents and i was not talking to my mum after she heard about my result. When i come home, i would isolate myself in my room and dont talk at all. The only thing my mum said to me was. "YOU BETTER GO FIND A TUITION TEACHER"... ok i know i better go and find one but where and how and who ?. although i know that the state i was in at that point of time was very desperate, i still had many criteria the tuition teacher must possess. i remember some of them was. :
1) the teacher must be a female(parent),
2) the teacher must be someone i know
3)the teacher must be very nice :) and easy for me to approach her
4) her timing must be flexible
5) she must not give me extra pressure. pressure is good but too much is not.
6) the homework she gives must not be piling sky high.. .
yes to find the "perfect" tuition teacher is not easy. After a few days of asking around my ex-tutors, i finally decided to post it on msn. then on the very day itself or the following, This girl(A) from my choir asked me. "Eh what happen?" I (B) replied"huh" (A) "your nick what happen?" (B) oh my nick.. yes i desperately need a tutor for A math i failed terribly.... (A) "if you want, i can tutor you.." at that point of time i was like HALLELUJAH.. ok but a concern i had was whether she was nice because the truth was i used to be very afraid of her because when she conduct, she IS very strict. worse than the choir mistress at times.. then i was thinking i will die if i was going to have a fierce tutor but in desperate situation the first thing to do is to agree if you have an alternative. so i said(A) "really ok ok i want.. "(B) haha..oki (B) i am going to be away for a few weeks around 6 weeks during the holiday but i can give you like 2 lessons before i leave.. you asked your parent first( B) ok asked already. she said can : ) and then the story continues.... haha.. ok interesting right?
Anyways without the grace and help from God, i will never be able to find a teacher which fulfill all my criteria( yes. she turn out to be more than nice.. she is fantastic..) ok she may not know how to do all the sums but yes she is one of the nicest tutors i have and she manage to make me pass my final year paper!(clap hands) eh.. it is achievement ok! from a .....(not gg to mention my marks you will prob faint) to a passed is great!( even my teachers could not believe).
This great and wonderful person is none other than Audrey. Audrey turn out not just being a nice tuition teacher but also a nice and wonderful friend( i mean it). Besides Amath, she helps me out with my other school work to despite her own commitment. AND yes... she was there all the way until Secondary 4 when something else happened(another turning point) which completely put me to a depressed mode. Audrey was there to help me clarify things, to comfort me, to make sure things were ok, to help me through that period and she somehow reminded me about the presence of God. How lovely and gentle God was. Without her i dont think i could have "recover" from that period fast enough..
During the post trama period, i suddenly asked her a question which made her go "WHAT??" yes i think i scared her by asking that question but because of that question, i had to pray more and really focus on praying(another turning point) to get the answer. Soon her big reaction "WHAT" turned into an OK. you cant imagine how happy i was. :) you must be wondering what does Audrey got to do with my journey with Christ. The reason is simple and i just thought of it but it is true. She happen to be with me or one of the reason for my turning point in my faith so she is definitely a God sent angel! agreed?
YES she is even if you all dont believe or think so. Christ have been very kind and nice to me to send Audrey not only her( she just happen to be there most of the time) but other few important people whom i cherish and love alot. yes i love them and Lastly I love God even more for sending these people in my life to help me. "Our GOD is not a angry GOD, but a GOD filled with Love and Compassion" YES i totally agree and i would DEFINITELY sing of your love FOREVER!
Over the mountains and the seas, your river runs with love for me and i will open up my heart and let the healer set me free. i'm happy to be in the truth and i will daily lift my hands for i will ALWAYS sing of when your love came down. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever... : )... ok stay tune to part 2 for the confirmation camp part if you are interested! : )
My mum recently told me that when i was little and adorable ( i'm still..haha) I will always fall asleep even if i have not completed my night prayer. Then one night she woke me up to ask me to sleep properly(guess my legs and hands were dangling off the bed) but guess what was my reaction. I still dreaming and unaware of what i am doing,raised my palms to face towards heaven and i started to mumbled some words or something. My mum got so shock she left me alone! haha when i heard it. I was thinking to myself.. it is so nice and fantastic +wonderful to encounter the spirit of God even when my faith is limited and i know nothing about the spirit.ok maybe a little but still.. i myself got so shocked after i heard what she told me.
Another thing my mum told me was. My Dad and her dreamt that i had bible passages written all over my face! can you imagine bible passages and verses written and scribble all over my face!!. that happen when i was still in her womb.. two people dreaming about the same thing in a night is totally unbelivable if you ask me... As i grew up and mature a little, i got to know Christ a wee bit better and started saying prayers without falling asleep. Yes a achievement. : ) and as the time goes by, i return to my old self again. falling asleep halfway during prayers and sometime skipping my prayers.. i know i am naughty. but he will still come and reveal himself to me in different ways.
Since Secondary 1 till Secondary 4, the turning points in my faith will always be whenever i encounter a problem or whenever i am feeling down(confirmation camps too but will touch on that later on). Despite me not turning to him and asking him for help, he will still show me his endless mercy and love by sending various people in my life. that is why these people meant so so so much to me. They are really God's people from heaven!! I remember secondary 3 was the year which my life have so many turning points. First was when i got chased out of class for doing something i did not do and she totally embarrassed me but with the help from God i soon got over it and returned to join them after a few weeks.
Next was my horrible results i had for Mid year A math which totally shocked my parents and i was not talking to my mum after she heard about my result. When i come home, i would isolate myself in my room and dont talk at all. The only thing my mum said to me was. "YOU BETTER GO FIND A TUITION TEACHER"... ok i know i better go and find one but where and how and who ?. although i know that the state i was in at that point of time was very desperate, i still had many criteria the tuition teacher must possess. i remember some of them was. :
1) the teacher must be a female(parent),
2) the teacher must be someone i know
3)the teacher must be very nice :) and easy for me to approach her
4) her timing must be flexible
5) she must not give me extra pressure. pressure is good but too much is not.
6) the homework she gives must not be piling sky high.. .
yes to find the "perfect" tuition teacher is not easy. After a few days of asking around my ex-tutors, i finally decided to post it on msn. then on the very day itself or the following, This girl(A) from my choir asked me. "Eh what happen?" I (B) replied"huh" (A) "your nick what happen?" (B) oh my nick.. yes i desperately need a tutor for A math i failed terribly.... (A) "if you want, i can tutor you.." at that point of time i was like HALLELUJAH.. ok but a concern i had was whether she was nice because the truth was i used to be very afraid of her because when she conduct, she IS very strict. worse than the choir mistress at times.. then i was thinking i will die if i was going to have a fierce tutor but in desperate situation the first thing to do is to agree if you have an alternative. so i said(A) "really ok ok i want.. "(B) haha..oki (B) i am going to be away for a few weeks around 6 weeks during the holiday but i can give you like 2 lessons before i leave.. you asked your parent first( B) ok asked already. she said can : ) and then the story continues.... haha.. ok interesting right?
Anyways without the grace and help from God, i will never be able to find a teacher which fulfill all my criteria( yes. she turn out to be more than nice.. she is fantastic..) ok she may not know how to do all the sums but yes she is one of the nicest tutors i have and she manage to make me pass my final year paper!(clap hands) eh.. it is achievement ok! from a .....(not gg to mention my marks you will prob faint) to a passed is great!( even my teachers could not believe).
This great and wonderful person is none other than Audrey. Audrey turn out not just being a nice tuition teacher but also a nice and wonderful friend( i mean it). Besides Amath, she helps me out with my other school work to despite her own commitment. AND yes... she was there all the way until Secondary 4 when something else happened(another turning point) which completely put me to a depressed mode. Audrey was there to help me clarify things, to comfort me, to make sure things were ok, to help me through that period and she somehow reminded me about the presence of God. How lovely and gentle God was. Without her i dont think i could have "recover" from that period fast enough..
During the post trama period, i suddenly asked her a question which made her go "WHAT??" yes i think i scared her by asking that question but because of that question, i had to pray more and really focus on praying(another turning point) to get the answer. Soon her big reaction "WHAT" turned into an OK. you cant imagine how happy i was. :) you must be wondering what does Audrey got to do with my journey with Christ. The reason is simple and i just thought of it but it is true. She happen to be with me or one of the reason for my turning point in my faith so she is definitely a God sent angel! agreed?
YES she is even if you all dont believe or think so. Christ have been very kind and nice to me to send Audrey not only her( she just happen to be there most of the time) but other few important people whom i cherish and love alot. yes i love them and Lastly I love God even more for sending these people in my life to help me. "Our GOD is not a angry GOD, but a GOD filled with Love and Compassion" YES i totally agree and i would DEFINITELY sing of your love FOREVER!
Over the mountains and the seas, your river runs with love for me and i will open up my heart and let the healer set me free. i'm happy to be in the truth and i will daily lift my hands for i will ALWAYS sing of when your love came down. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever... : )... ok stay tune to part 2 for the confirmation camp part if you are interested! : )
With Men it is impossible; but to God all things are possible - Matthew 19:26
If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believeth. - Mark 9:23-
Fear thou not . . . I will strengthen thee. . . I will help thee. - Isaiah 41:10
I will never fail you or forsake you. - Hebrews 13:5
For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace. - I Corinthians 14:33
God thank you for your constant reminder of your presence in my life. Thank you are always being the light upon my feet. Thank you are always being there and it is only in you where i can find peace. Continue to strengthen my faith in you to be like the mustard seed. Strong and Stable. To you all things are possible. Help me to turn to you in everything. Help me to seek help from you Lord. Lastl thank you for your ENDLESS and UNCONDITIONAL love!
I LOVE YOU !
If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believeth. - Mark 9:23-
Fear thou not . . . I will strengthen thee. . . I will help thee. - Isaiah 41:10
I will never fail you or forsake you. - Hebrews 13:5
For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace. - I Corinthians 14:33
God thank you for your constant reminder of your presence in my life. Thank you are always being the light upon my feet. Thank you are always being there and it is only in you where i can find peace. Continue to strengthen my faith in you to be like the mustard seed. Strong and Stable. To you all things are possible. Help me to turn to you in everything. Help me to seek help from you Lord. Lastl thank you for your ENDLESS and UNCONDITIONAL love!
I LOVE YOU !
Just not sinking in
I realised that O level is drawing near in like 6 months time and i am going to start panicking real soon.. i have not started preparing for it in anyway and i cant find the time to go and start preparing for it.. maybe i might have by not blogging but it is just too difficult to get your butt glued to the chair and open your textbook to start revising. Dont you find it much easier to type whatever you like here and you dont have much Rules, Laws, Equations, Formulas, that you must stick to. I guess it is just part and parcel of school life, going through Secondary 4, studying everyday to get your facts right for the life and death exam at the end of the year. I have been told of the importance of this exam far to many times but the sense of urgency to start studying now is just not sinking into my head. HELP.... My teacher told us that we should set aside at least 4-6 hours a day beside school to sit down and study but where do i find the time?? anyone have extra time to give me?? she also expect us to sleep by 1030. I find it quite ridiculous because there is no way i can fulfill 4-6 hours studying and then sleep at 1030. It is just impossible for now. Maybe i have not really managed my time well enough and I do not have the determination and strength to really sit down and flip open the textbook to read. Flipping in itself is easy but reading and absorbing things from it is hard.. Guess i need to find someone to tie me to the chair and hold a cane and make sure i study! haha.. anyone would like to volunteer???
Monday, March 26, 2007
Revive, Revivng,........
ok... I'm back.. i am told by my BELOVED friend that i should revive this blog and start blogging on the happenings in my life.. she also says that it is more exciting to communicate through blogging besides other communication devices and she she choose to believe that my Post SHOULD or WILL be more interesting and less nonsensical compared to her two other close beings blog.. guess she is wrong for a start.. but being a nice friend.. i shall make her believes come true soon in a few months time... hee :) ok lets start from today... i woke up feeling happy and all after a good night sleep and went to visit my Favorite website.. the E learning portal... think those who might have heard or come across of it would agree with me too that it is the best Website created... It has a task list on the top right hand corner of the site, which when you click it, brings you to a world of whole lots of numbers and alphabets... It requires your attention for the day and make your brain suffer and work to its maximum thanks to the millions and gazillions alphabets there.. guess i've become smarter after today.. : )... see.. told her i dont like blogging.. i become too sacarstic for my liking.. but oh well.. after today.. i WILL TRY not add sarcasm to my post UNLESS it require me and it is begging me to do so.. : ) I think i shall make it a point to post at least once a week! hmm.. should I? i think I should. haha.. ok.. till then
Cheerios...
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