Journeying with Christ (1)

Since i revive my blog and almost got everything going smoothly, it is time to dedicate a post to the Savior of my Soul. Yes. the Savior of my Soul and the wonders he has done for me. He has been there for me even before i was born but only got to know him better after i have aged a little.

My mum recently told me that when i was little and adorable ( i'm still..haha) I will always fall asleep even if i have not completed my night prayer. Then one night she woke me up to ask me to sleep properly(guess my legs and hands were dangling off the bed) but guess what was my reaction. I still dreaming and unaware of what i am doing,raised my palms to face towards heaven and i started to mumbled some words or something. My mum got so shock she left me alone! haha when i heard it. I was thinking to myself.. it is so nice and fantastic +wonderful to encounter the spirit of God even when my faith is limited and i know nothing about the spirit.ok maybe a little but still.. i myself got so shocked after i heard what she told me.

Another thing my mum told me was. My Dad and her dreamt that i had bible passages written all over my face! can you imagine bible passages and verses written and scribble all over my face!!. that happen when i was still in her womb.. two people dreaming about the same thing in a night is totally unbelivable if you ask me... As i grew up and mature a little, i got to know Christ a wee bit better and started saying prayers without falling asleep. Yes a achievement. : ) and as the time goes by, i return to my old self again. falling asleep halfway during prayers and sometime skipping my prayers.. i know i am naughty. but he will still come and reveal himself to me in different ways.

Since Secondary 1 till Secondary 4, the turning points in my faith will always be whenever i encounter a problem or whenever i am feeling down(confirmation camps too but will touch on that later on). Despite me not turning to him and asking him for help, he will still show me his endless mercy and love by sending various people in my life. that is why these people meant so so so much to me. They are really God's people from heaven!! I remember secondary 3 was the year which my life have so many turning points. First was when i got chased out of class for doing something i did not do and she totally embarrassed me but with the help from God i soon got over it and returned to join them after a few weeks.

Next was my horrible results i had for Mid year A math which totally shocked my parents and i was not talking to my mum after she heard about my result. When i come home, i would isolate myself in my room and dont talk at all. The only thing my mum said to me was. "YOU BETTER GO FIND A TUITION TEACHER"... ok i know i better go and find one but where and how and who ?. although i know that the state i was in at that point of time was very desperate, i still had many criteria the tuition teacher must possess. i remember some of them was. :

1) the teacher must be a female(parent),
2) the teacher must be someone i know
3)the teacher must be very nice :) and easy for me to approach her
4) her timing must be flexible
5) she must not give me extra pressure. pressure is good but too much is not.
6) the homework she gives must not be piling sky high.. .

yes to find the "perfect" tuition teacher is not easy. After a few days of asking around my ex-tutors, i finally decided to post it on msn. then on the very day itself or the following, This girl(A) from my choir asked me. "Eh what happen?" I (B) replied"huh" (A) "your nick what happen?" (B) oh my nick.. yes i desperately need a tutor for A math i failed terribly.... (A) "if you want, i can tutor you.." at that point of time i was like HALLELUJAH.. ok but a concern i had was whether she was nice because the truth was i used to be very afraid of her because when she conduct, she IS very strict. worse than the choir mistress at times.. then i was thinking i will die if i was going to have a fierce tutor but in desperate situation the first thing to do is to agree if you have an alternative. so i said(A) "really ok ok i want.. "(B) haha..oki (B) i am going to be away for a few weeks around 6 weeks during the holiday but i can give you like 2 lessons before i leave.. you asked your parent first( B) ok asked already. she said can : ) and then the story continues.... haha.. ok interesting right?

Anyways without the grace and help from God, i will never be able to find a teacher which fulfill all my criteria( yes. she turn out to be more than nice.. she is fantastic..) ok she may not know how to do all the sums but yes she is one of the nicest tutors i have and she manage to make me pass my final year paper!(clap hands) eh.. it is achievement ok! from a .....(not gg to mention my marks you will prob faint) to a passed is great!( even my teachers could not believe).

This great and wonderful person is none other than Audrey. Audrey turn out not just being a nice tuition teacher but also a nice and wonderful friend( i mean it). Besides Amath, she helps me out with my other school work to despite her own commitment. AND yes... she was there all the way until Secondary 4 when something else happened(another turning point) which completely put me to a depressed mode. Audrey was there to help me clarify things, to comfort me, to make sure things were ok, to help me through that period and she somehow reminded me about the presence of God. How lovely and gentle God was. Without her i dont think i could have "recover" from that period fast enough..

During the post trama period, i suddenly asked her a question which made her go "WHAT??" yes i think i scared her by asking that question but because of that question, i had to pray more and really focus on praying(another turning point) to get the answer. Soon her big reaction "WHAT" turned into an OK. you cant imagine how happy i was. :) you must be wondering what does Audrey got to do with my journey with Christ. The reason is simple and i just thought of it but it is true. She happen to be with me or one of the reason for my turning point in my faith so she is definitely a God sent angel! agreed?

YES she is even if you all dont believe or think so. Christ have been very kind and nice to me to send Audrey not only her( she just happen to be there most of the time) but other few important people whom i cherish and love alot. yes i love them and Lastly I love God even more for sending these people in my life to help me. "Our GOD is not a angry GOD, but a GOD filled with Love and Compassion" YES i totally agree and i would DEFINITELY sing of your love FOREVER!

Over the mountains and the seas, your river runs with love for me and i will open up my heart and let the healer set me free. i'm happy to be in the truth and i will daily lift my hands for i will ALWAYS sing of when your love came down. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever. i could sing of your love forever, i could sing of your love forever... : )... ok stay tune to part 2 for the confirmation camp part if you are interested! : )