Part 4- God and Mother Mary

JESUS!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU SO SO SO SO SO SO MUCH!!

thank you for a wonderful 2007!!! all of the wondeful things below wouldnt have happen without your blessings and graces! thank you for being with me in my weakest moment and for being there for me IN ALL CIRCUMSTANCES! There is so much things to say to you and so much things to thank you for! Time is really running short for 2007, only 10 mins left! AHH!! I promise you my first post for 2008 will be delicated to you!!

All i want to say is Jesus, without you i am nothing, without you i wouldnt have so many things, without you i wont even exist!

Thank you for the many wonderful friends i have especially MISS AUDREY LOW!! without her i will probably die this year! hahahhaa!!! and of course to my friends and family! i would definitely die without all of you!!

Thank you Lord for all of them!
Bless each one of them and keep them safe and deliver them from any dangers and protect them God! : )

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE WITH ALL MY SOUL, HEART AND MIND AND BODY PARTS! EVERY PART OF ME IS IN LOVE WITH YOU!!

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Mother Mary!! Thank you for being there for me interceeding for me during times of difficulty and in times of need. Thank you for being there for me, for my parents, for Audrey, for all my friends and family especially my Grandma!

Mother Mary! you are really a wonderful and marvellous mum! beyond words! you are always there for those we call upon your name! Help me to get to know you better and to be closer to your Son, Jesus come 2008! Help me never forget that you love me and care for me! : )

THANK YOU MOTHER MARY FOR EVERYTHING!! : ) I LOVE YOU TOO!!! : ) DEEP DEEP DOWN INSIDE!

Part 3-Family

If there is one thing to be thankful for today and that is my Family.

Being the only child in the family is not exactly the best thing cause their attention would definitely be on you all the time and you will expect less freedom especially if you are a girl because they will tend to be over protective. but for me it is not the case. i think my parents gives me just the right amount of freedom that i need. Although i do wish for more la hahahha but i know i cant force it..

Although i hardly say this to them but deep down inside i really am very very very grateful for them for bearing all my rubbish and nonsense.. it is really not easy managing a child like me. i really do think so.. Having an atrociously bad temper and seem to be talking back all the time.. having high expenses! ahahha! really not easy.

Dearest Daddy and Mummy,

Really thank you for all the things you have done
Thanks for all the support you have given me

Thank you for loving me

Thank you are your support and encouragement in all that i do

I may seem ungrateful or indifferent to your care and concern

but deep down i really do appreciate it and all i can say is

YOU 2 HAVE BEEN THE BEST PARENTS TO ME!

I LOVE YOU BOTH!!!

hopefully 2008 brings us more exciting days ahead in our family and may we grow to deepen our relationship with each other! : )

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Now to my dearest dearest beloved cousins!!

Thank you so much for an exciting 2007, going to minds cafe for a day of laughter, going to marina for steamboat, going for chalets, having numerous gatherings this year, having many mahjong sessions where i will normally be the first to go bankrupt. hahahah! really thank you guys so much!

This year would definitely be very different and less exciting if it is not for you all. Being with you all is really a pleasurable and enjoyable thing to do. As you all go about busy with your school work, work and all, rest assure that i will be praying for you all and wishing you guys well in whatever you do!! : )

Cheers to an exciting 2007 and Welcome 2008 where we will have must more laughter and fun right? I am sure! Cheers!

and of course to my dearest cousin donna too!! have a great 2008 ya! : )

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To my beloved grandma! thank you so much for your love! and your showers of endless care upon me! thank you for being a great and wonderful grandma! although i hardly see you, you will always be in heart and you will not be forgotten! I love you!

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To the rest of my family members like my aunties and uncles! i may not talk to you all much and stuff but just wanna say thank you for jouneying with me till today and for being part of my life! Thank you all!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Part 2- School

Ok so thats for the church. Now for School. hahaha

School this year is definitely one of the most challenging year of all the years of my 10 years of education. haha. Sitting for the O level is NOT a easy thing i tell you. The trama and the torture you go through is big enough to kill you! hhahaah!

I am not an academically incline person and i never like studying but what choices do i have? i just take things as they come and till now i dont know how i manage to pull through Os man! hahaha God is definitely there again! I wouldnt have done it without him! :) I would like to thank all my teachers in school who were there for me and who gave my friends and i all the support we needed to pull through Os. Thank you for your guidance!

Of course i would like to thank my one and only tutor Miss Low for encouraging me all the way and who taught me so patiently and so lovingly! hahaha!! Thanks for your wonderful birthday present that you have given me. A amaths formula file which helped me so much! Thank you! whatever the outcome may be for my result for Amath, i must still thank you because you have deepen my understanding of that subject!

My friends seriously played a huge part in my school life and i am very fortunate to have such good friends. Thank you Sham and Gaya for being with me and for helping me make time pass faster in school. The crazy things we did in class will never be forgotten!! All the best to you all in your future undertakings!

Beisde them there is also my chinese partner Jaslyn who is always there for me!, my crazy friend, Megan whom is crazy all the time! : ) There is also people like Angelin, Fraus and Losh ( their name always go together one! hahahaha!), Jesmine, Jac, Lynette ( late night Msn partner) and many more la!!! : )

Class 4/8 is really one of the best class i am in. We may have a lot of conflicts and differences but we will put aside all of them when it comes to class things and competitions emerging as champions most of the time! 4/8 thanks for teaching me a lot of things about class spirit and for giving me an opportunity to get to know you better! thank you so much!

May God Bless and protect you guys wherever you go and whatever you do!

Part 1- Church

i have NOT been blogging recently.. i know that! hahaha! but whatever the case is.. here is 1 final post. i think before the year 2008 starts.

year 2007 is seriously one of the most exciting and amazing year of all the other years. So many things happened but it all turned out well in the end thanks to the grace of God our Savior!

2007 started with some huge thing that happened in choir and i was badly affected by it, thinking i am the one at fault and i didnt really handled situation properly. i didnt have the mood for anything at all even when i am in school. All i could think of was the incident but thankfully for me, God sent me a person who stood by me and help me to lessen this so called "burden thing". My parents was there for me too but they didnt seem to understand the situation as well as the God sent person. I seriously think that God is amazing and great, always sending people into my life to tell me i am not alone. He happen to send my A maths tutor to be there for me this time. A sweet and nice girl who knows how to cheer me up and to reassure me not only once but time and time again that everything will be fine!! seriously very thankful for her!! :D

Choir thing slowly got settled with Steph taking back the choir and Jeremy in assisting her! : ) Audrey became more active in choir, even more active than me! amazing!! hahaha : )

The choir incident definitely help me to get to know Audrey who is my A maths tutor better and i had this feeling that she would not just be my friend but something closer than a friend cause at that time i was thinking about who to ask to be my confirmation Godma too! ya and i was saying the choir incident help me realise that Audrey was actually what i was looking for in a Godma. Someone who is wiser and whom i could relate and talk to without holding anything back. She was just the perfect person for this role la! hahaha!! : ) and the rest of the story you all should know la! think i have blogged about this a gazillion time! haahha

ok so was it a Happy ending? yes!! She became my Godma.. so here is a little note for her.

Godma! i know i have said it a thousand time but just read again k?
thank you for the many many many things that you have done for me! Both big and small!
Thank you for always being there for me despite having a busy schedule.
Thank you for being the best Godma
and if you ask me now
i will still say i have ABSOLUTELY NO REGRETS AT ALL!!
You are the "bestest" Godma i could ever asked for!! So stop wondering cause you are that good not good but fantabulous as a Godma to me! : )
I LOVE YOU PLENTY PLENTY PLENTY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!!

I joined the charismatic group in church somewhere in June and i simply love that group of people. I thank God for giving me a place in that group. Ya! since clarence asked me over MSN at like 3 in the morning to join logs, i am now in both worship and log ministry in charismatic! : )

Beside that this year is also a special year because I got confirm and God gave me many presents for my confirmation. 1.) Gift of tongues which i am very thankful for. 2.) the Holy Spirit 3.) A renewal of my faith 4.) Audrey - the most ideal Godma to me. i couldnt have a better confirmation that this. God is really WOW to me! : )

In both church ministry i'm in choir and charismatic, I really love the people there and i am very happy that i got to know some of them better! People like Jeremy, Nicole, Gerard, Carissa, Rachel, Rebecca and so on.. too many to name already! but there is one who i am very thankful for and that is Cheryl. Although i only know her for 3 months? i think only 3 months, i am amazed at the endless things we can talk about. Every rubbish thing we can talk about under the sun! haahha! so here is something for Cheryl

Thanks for your friendship Rock and you Rock my world!!! you really do! : )
I am really thankful for you!
Hope to get to you better in 2008! : ) Huggs and kisses! : )

To all the wonderful church friends out there! Thank you so much!! : ) Heres wishing you all the best for 2008! : )

Ahhh.. i know i have not been blogging recently.. this blogging thing in me seems to have died down. hahha but i will still try and keep it alive. I will try!!!

So many things have happened during the course of the holiday. Both good and bad but i must say that this holiday is defintely a resting period for me before a brand new year starts. i can imagine how busy i will be man! Right now i am just so bored. Theres nothing much to do actually so i guess the best thing to do is to sleep! oh.. or maybe i can start counting down for christmas eve and that is when Cheryl returns hahaha..

i must say that i have lots of things to write but i am just not in the mood too. Maybe next week i will write on how i spent my holidays so far. haha : )

Matthew 7:7
Ask and it will be given to you;
seek and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened to you.

I am feeling so lost and so empty inside. i have no no idea which direction i want to go and i have no idea what i wanna do.

God i really dont know which way to go. Please direct me and help me to do your will each day of my life.

A broken spirit
And a contrite heart
you will not despise
you will nto despise
you desire the truth in the inward part
a broken spirit and a contrite heart!

Happy Happy Happy Birthday!! GODMA!!!!! YAY!! HAPPY 21st!! : ) : ) : )

Heres wishing my ever beautiful and ever wonderful Godma a Happy 21 st birthday!!!

YAY!!!!

GOD!!! you are really so great, so marvallous, so wonderful, so magnificient... i can never understand your love for me and for all your children. Your plans are all so perfect, so great. i cant even remember a time when you let me down.. Help me to believe more and have greater faith in you! help me LORD!!! help me to experience that feeling i once had with you..

All that i am

All that i have

I lay them down before you O Lord

All my regrets

All my acclaims

The joy and the pain

I'm making them yours

Help me to grow more in faith and love with you!

So much for raising my hopes up and then crushing it real hard!

THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A trip to the Library

Went to the library today to read through and borrow some books on interior designing cause my room really needs a make over!!! read through some and was inspire by some of the colours and designs.. They are really damn nice! I wanna paint an ocean with the setting sun in the background on my wall but i am a horrible artist! thats really very sad.. sigh

I walked several shelves down and found that the 5th shelf or 6th(cant really remember which) contains books on Psychology! : ) I went over there, stood in front of all of the psychology books and randomly flipped open several books. I was like goodness!!! There is really tons and tons of books on psych which i dont know what on earth they are talking about!! Yes Yes i am still young so thats an excuse! YAY! hahaha

Anyway i decided that i should just borrow a book and slowly digest the contents. hahaha... The title of this book is calleed 50 Psychology Classics. the book contains writings from Sigmund Freud ( interpretation of dreams), Malcolm Gladwell ( The power of thinking without thinking), Erik Erikson (A study in psychoanalysis and History) and so on!

I am sure i am going to have a major headache after reading this man but i think the book is kindda interesting. Not sure how long i can last reading this book.I will prob fall asleep after one page! hahhaha..

Alright bye world i am going to sleep now and try and i=understand the book tmr!

Hold me close
Let your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to your side
And as i wait
I'll raise up like the eagle
and i will sore with you
your spirit leads me on
by the power of your love

GOD!!! i really need direction! i feel so lost!! help me to make the best choice and a choice which you are happy with. Lord help me! Direct each and every of my steps. Help me to make the best choice. I surrender to you!!

Jesus take me in Your hand

And make me all that

You want me to be

Jesus help me understand my purpose

And what You can do through me

Fulfilling my destiny

Drifitng away from reality and from people! Isolation is the best policy! : ) Argh! Dont know what i am talking about.. Nevermind! What i do know is my Os is ending soon! : ) YAY!

Thank you God and Mother Mary for helping me through this and for the last three days more..

I seriously have numerous people to thank especially my lovely Godma! : ) Thank you! thank you!

The rest i'll write after my Os.
Alright it is back to studying now!!

Give me oil in my lamp
Keep me going going going
Give me oil in my lamp i pray
Give me oil in my lamp
Keep me going going going
Keep me going till the end of Os..

Sing hosanna Sing hosanna
Sing hosanna to the king of Kings
Sing hosanna Sing hosanna
Sing hosanna to the King!

GOD keep me going!

A process whereby I learn to embrace and love what I dislike...

Things will work out fine and right for me and everyone I PRAY!!

TRUST AND HAVE FAITH PEARL!

DADDY THANK YOU FOR YOUR UNFAILING LOVE!

You have my heart
And I am Yours forever
You are my strength
God of grace and power

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My unfailing love
Unfailing love

You are my rock
The one I hold on to
You are my song
And I sing for You

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still You make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

And everything You hold in Your hand
Still you make time for me
I can't understand
Praise You God of Earth and sky
How beautiful is Your unfailing love
Unfailing love
And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

I will praise You
Praise you God of earth and sky
How beautiful is your unfailing love
Unfailing love

And You never change God
You remain The Holy One
My Unfailing love
Unfailing love

Unfailing love (x4)

I LOVE GOD!!!

You alone are Holy
You alone are Lord
You alone are worthy
To be honoured and adored
Mercies you have given
Kindness you have shown
LOVE IS YOU ALONE

Dear God, its 8 days away. Help me go through it and show me which path to thread on.
Whatever the situation. LEAD ME LORD!

I AM TOTALLY FRUSTRATED AT MYSELF AND NO ONE WILL UNDERSTAND THIS FRUSTRATION.

I feel that a battle is going on within me and i know which side i wanna stay on. I dont wanna stay on the defiant and disobedient side. i wanna stay on the right side, the correct side BUT i feel myself drifting to the other side. I HAVE TO STOP IT!

GOD help me to help myself and after that help me

Despite knowing that i am left with only 12 days before the major exam starts, i am still not taking things seriously. Despite the constant reminder from me to tell myself to study, yes i told myself a thousand times, i still fail. i feel that i have not accomplish anything or gotten anything into my head depsite doing a lot of TYS. Is it just me? Gosh. Eveytime i count down to the start of Os, i will feel damn unprepared and not ready to sit for it. Is there endless things that i need to know and learn before Os or i already know my stuff but i just think that i dont?

Despite knowing that God and Mother Mary will be there for me and to see me through, i am still afraid. Do all human beings feel this way or is it just me?? i am clueless and i really need to sit down and really start sudying. Although i think i did, it is just not enough. Not good enough to have a 10. Not Good enough........

God continue to help your clueless and worried child! Give me faith, strength, perseverance and the ability to memorise and know what i need to know.

Direct me Lord!

THE PRAYER


I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know


Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu dai


I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restera
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarci che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella seiNella mia preghiera

Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.

Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai

We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love


Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child


Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

Mother..

Evening with Mary was simply enjoyable and great!! It has helped me renewed my love for Mother Mary!.. A few months or a year ago, i questioned her existence in my life.. i mean i do know and believe that she is there and all but i never really felt a need to pray to her and was more attached to her son than her..

Many people have been asking me to pray the rosary and was telling me that the rosary is very powerful but i just didnt like it because i felt it was too darn long and i never had the determination to pray the entire 5 decades.Although i was exposed to praying the rosary when i was at a tender age, i eventually grew bored and tired of it.

At the beginining of this year, my dad told me that i should start going to the weekly novena services since i was going to sit for my major exam this year but i just couldnt find the strength to go for it maybe because reason no.

1) It is kind of boring to attend alone. Yes i know even with an extra person there, it doesnt make a difference since i am not suppose to talk but i prefer going with someone. but haha it does not matter to me anymore cause i find going for novena refreshing and wonderful.

2) i wasnt very attach to her and the idea of going to novena for the sake of just going and not because you really want to go makes me feel unhappy? i dont know. it just seems wrong because you are not going with a willing heart.

3) My weekdays are filled with activities and i would like Saturday to rest and just do nothing besides going for mass later at 4

yup. maybe its because of all these thoughts that went through my head that i am not very keen to attend novena. Then during a period of time( cant remember what), there was lots of dicussion going on about Mary Mary and i decided that i should be soemthig about it but i never had the strength but God sent a person to attend novena with me and since from that day onwards, i started prayign to our Blessed Mother and i believe she in her miraculous way have helped me A LOT! Plenty! Countless! : )

I am just very thankful for Mother Mary in my life and i love her!

yes back to evening with Mary.. it started out with the Rosary followed by the Eucharist. Such a pity i didnt take any photos. The place especially the groto was beautifully decorated. Eurcharistic celebration was Fr Jacob Ong was SOOO GOOD!! it wasnt the funny type neither is it the boring type, It was a reflecting and learning homily. flashback of my childhood just went pass my mind and me imagining Mother Mary carrying Jesus so tenderly

OH the best part was the responsorial palsm sung by a guy from the 945 choir. He sung it so beautifully and filled sincerity.! The lyric of this palsm is also very measningful. Fr Jacob Ong then decided to ask the cantor to sing again but this time round, he asked a mother who was carrying her child, with her child tightly cling to her to walk round the church. And the mother and her child was none other than Stephanie and her son Tristan.

When i saw that and hear the palsm at the same time, i just couldnt control my tears! IT WAS JUST SO BEAUTIFUL AND HEART WARMING!!! Flashback of my childhood just went pass my mind and the image of Mother Mary carrying Jesus so tenderly just makes me melt! Really MELT!

After that, the homily was about how powerful prayers is especially the rosary and how Mother Mary will definitely hear us when we cry out to her..

I am just so amazed at how much Mother Mary loved us and how much she is willing to do for us. I should really learn to pray the Rosary more often...

Mpther Mary thank you for all that you have done for me. I was wrong to say that i felt that you were not close to me and you are not important im life.. I am SO wrong! thank you for your constant love even though i doubted in you. You are defintely THE BEST MOTHER ONE CAN EVER GET! A thoughtful, loving, understanding and compassionate mum! Help me duirng this moment and through my Os. Intercede for me.

Like a child rest in its mother's arms
So will I rest in you (X2)

Discipline, Strength, Perseverance, Determination, A Positive attitude, A Calm and Quick Witted Mind, A Faithful and Trusting heart, A Mouth that will sing of your praise!...

GOD! PLEASE TAKE OVER!

You are my light
You're the lamp upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need you there!

You are my light
I cannot live alone
Let me stay by your guiding light
All my through my life
Lead me Lord!

Heres my last entry for the month of September before October starts. September has been the most terrible month of the entire year so far but i guess the most terrible one would be October and early Nov. However many good things happen duirng the month of September too although it has been claimed as the most terrible month. Good things such as:

1) Prelims are over and results are way better than what i think i deserve but i did pray a lot man! Thank GOD for that! Help me through Os too!

2) Grandma and Godpa bought me lots of clothes from China. hahah. 1 black versace t-shirt, 1 made in italy shirt but bought from China? haha 2 long pants, 1 blouse. i think there is more but i cant exactly remember

3) Went shopping last week and bought myself 3 pants and 1 jeans material jacket.

4) Ate a lot od Dim Sum during this month! my favorite!

5) Ate Steamboat at Marina with my Cousins! : )

6) Ate at Kushinbo. It was so unexpected!!

7) Theres exactly 38 days to the end of Os(not counting today!)!!!! One Month. One week and One day more!

8) Most importantly, I realised that there is a lot of people who cares for me. Not that i dont know earlier but i just didnt really make an effort to remember. hahaha. ok this doesnt make sense. Nevermind!

Come October, it will be STUDYING STUDYING STUDYING. People nagging at you to STUDY, STUDY STUDY! and I will be telling people I AM STUDYING! hahaha.. This always happens to me especially when the exams are drawing nearer. i really hate studying! I wish that it didnt even exist at all!! but sigh! yes i surrender to my fate! Guess i will have to go study now!

Thank you lord for the trails that come my way!!

* Hope you are feeling better now and everything is going as per normal for you!! : ) I love you!

I am a flower quicky fading
Here today and gone Tomorrow
Away tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind
Still you, hear me when I'm calling
Lord you catch me when I'm falling
And you told me who i am
I AM YOURS!

The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases
His mercy never come to an end
They are new every morning
New every morning
Great is thy faithfulness O Lord
GREAT IS THY FAITHFULNESS!

O God you certainly do hear me when i am calling! There is no doubt to that!! Thank you for eveything that you have done for me! Really Really thank you!

Mother Mary. Thank you for interceding for me! Thank you!!

This is definitely going to chamge my way of thinking. It showed me that there is still hope and 0nly if i continue to work hard and persevere that i will succeed. Will hardwork and perseverance bring me the marks that i desire for Os? The answer to this question is obviously a Yes BUT i feel that there is more to it. I must continue to put in the effort and continue to trust and have faith in him. With that, i am sure i will be able to do pretty ok for it.

God show me the direction that you want me to tread and guide and direct me in every part of this journey. :)

With God, Nothing is impossible! How true.. How true..

God i need a bigger miracle and i trust and pray that it will happen. If it does not, you have already shown me that nothing is impossible without you!

All Glory and Praise to you Lord!

I COULD SING OF YOUR LOVE FOREVER!!!
Thank you for guiding me through the last mile of this prelim! You have proven to me times and times again of your faithfulness and for your everlasting love!! Love beyond one can imagine. Despite for not trusting in you and for not having faith at times, you still call me and help me through no matter how difficult things may be. You have shown and proven to me that NOTHING, ABSOUTELY NOTHING is too big for you to handle! I am just awed by how much you loved me and much you would do for me.

Still you hear me when i am calling
Lord, you catch me when i am falling
I am yours!

I LOVE YOU LORD!!!!! I REALLY DO and i WILL trust and have faith in you no matter what happens. I commit all that i have done into your hands and believe that whatever the outcome is, you have a greater plan for me and you wont disappoint me.

MOther Mary. thank you for your constant intercessions and for loving me in your own unique and special ways. Thank you for comforting me and for helping me and for pushing me on when i fall. Without you, i wouldnt have done it and wouldnt have made it through. Thank you!

These past few days/ weeks have defintely been very tiring and very taxing. Without the love and assurance from God and Mother Mary, i wouldnt have made it through smoothly. It wasnt an easy path but with the guidance and love, I've made it. Not by my own strength but bu the strength of God.

I must emphasize that God's love is simply overpowering yet gentle. i am swayed by his Love! : )
He has sent many many people into my life to make sure my days goes alright. I am certain that these people are God sent
1)My parents for their endless support and encouragement
2)My Godma for her advice and just simply for her friendship : ) She makes me smile all the time despite the situation!
3)My cousins for filling my life with bright shining stars
4) Sham, Gaya for being the good friend they are
5) Sarah for her laughter anf her wondeful companion
6) Nicole and Rachel!! my studying partners to push me on
7) My teachers/ tuition teacher for imparting their knowledge and for teaching me.
8) Lastly to all my other friends who really help me through with their motivational messages. Perserverance messages..

Thank you for all the things that you have done!!! : )

hahha.. i Just realised the way i typed is as if i have completed my Os,. but who cares ya? haha I am so loved and fortunate!

Here i am O Lord.
I bring this sacrifice
My broken heart
I offer up my life
I look to you Lord
Your Love that never ends
Restores me again

ok i think there is some error in the lyric but this song,complete, just suddenly came to my head as i am typing this blog post so i decided to type it here. Maybe there is some message behind this song for me today. haha.

Teachers' Day just past and yes the school as usual celebrated teachers' day with a few performance and stuff but the best part was i got to meet my primary school friends! 4 years have past since i graduated from MCS but the bond with the friends made there seem to be rather strong.. I kind of miss the primary school days but oh well, all of us have to grow up.. i shall post the photos taken soon. = )

Lord your constant reminders help me through but my human weakness seem to be overpowering your reminders. sigh!

The Test Of Faith!!

hahahaha!! alright! i will just adapt a positive attitude and go through this ordeal!! treat every setback as a learning experience and go through it all!!

i think i am mad la!! hahaha.

I think i am very fortunate. i may not be blessed with a good academic mind but i am certainly blessed with many better things and everything always happen to fall in place for my academic life ever since i'm sec1. I am very certain that all this would not have happened without God!! what can i say? i am very BLESSED and LOVE in all aspect! In order to return this, i should study hard and do my best and leave the rest for God to handle and stop grumbling!! hahha
Mother Mary. thank you for your endless support and love too!! All this would not have happen without you too! I Love you!

I fully understand what one is going through when you know you really did tried your best and the outcome of it all is just not what you expected and it is devastatingly upsetting knowing that this is the harsh fact of reality. However, knowing that you did tried your best already is already a consolation itself. Some things are just meant to happen and we must always trust in God's greater plan for us (quote from audrey).

As what my cousin said, the higher the expectations, the greater the disappointment so i shall learn from it and not expect anything. Why put myself through this agony. haha. but i trust and pray that God will put everything in it's correct place and will not give me too big a disppointment which i cannot handle...

God! thank you for everything that you have done for me. If you weren.t there today i'll prob did much worse than what it is now. I hope another miracle will happen like what happen for my MT! that was truly a miracle man! hahaha if you know how bad my chinese can be. i believe that another miracle will happen for this prelim and all will be well for me in a way or another.

Thank you Lord! continue to guide me and give me all your strength, wisdom, knowledge and love. I Love you!

Dilemma

alright.. I've gotten back my MT result and i dont know whether i should retake.. It may seem like a very easy thing to decide but it is far away from easy. I've been in this dilemma for almost the whole day and i still cant get an answer.

The only thing i know is God will bless my decision and guide me through it all. I know that i am fortunate and i know that whatever decision i make, he will be there to lead and guide like he always does. I am really uncertain now. I know instead of typing this out i should be concentrating on other subjects but i just cant. I have to derive an answer latest by Wednesday so i will have ample(hopefully) time to study if i choose to retake.

This is really a 50 50 take with no direction to head towards. i am stucked and i need help!! I know the final decision still lies with me but if i am so undecisive how on earth am i going to make this big one. SIGHs!

GOD!!! thank you for your grace and for your love. i feel so so so loved and elated now!!! YAY! i will blog more after i come back from mass!

all i can say is I AM HAPPY AND I LOVE GOD!!

NOTHING GONNA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR YOU
BY: GEORGE BENSON

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way it was
Like a guiding star
And i'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and i'll share with you i'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, Touch me now
I don't wanna live without you

Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
the world may change my whole life through but
Nothing gonna change my love for you

I AM IN LOVE WITH THIS SONG!

Look Within
by WhtDove

There is so much beauty in
This wondrous, blue rose
If only we could capture it
Within our very souls

If we could take its beauty
And apply the glow within
Search a little deeper
In the soul beneath our skin

Take what it does stand for
And shed its love abroad
Don't hide the glow within you
But share the love of God

You know you can't touch beauty
Without it rubbing off on you
And spreading it to others
In the kindness that you do

There lies within each one of us
The beauty like this rose
When it's used in touching others
Then its beauty overflows

i love this poem!! : )

alright with regard to the last post, i am happy to say that he is relieved of all his pain now and is on his road to recovery! praise God for alway being there to heal and care for the sick!

Now i fully understand how fragile one's life can be.. I hate this feeling helpleseness. Seeing him lying there with the tubes all over his body, with his hands and feets tied up and what you can only do is to pray and pray and pray and hope that everything turns out right. Sigh.

I had a heart to heart today with sham and it felt really very good after letting all your worries and stress out.. I feel that she is quite a good listener and advicer judging from her reply. haha. thanks so much girl. haha. we had a few common topic and one of it was " what is this friendship/relationship based on?? haha. we were both buffled by this and could not arrive to an answer.

Life is rather mundane and boring at the moment with nothing new happening. Besides the workload and the numerous tests i have coming up, there is seriously nothing i look forward to. hahahaha!!!

Anyways I just hope that everything will be alright and go back to how it was last time. I have to stop thinking too much and think more about my studies. I BELIEVE THAT I CAN DO IT!! AND I MUST!!

GOD!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MORE THAN WORDS CAN EXPRESS AND I TRUST THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. please show me signs! : )

And i thank you Lord

For the trials that come my way

In the way I can grow each day

As I let you lead

And i thank you Lord

For the patience those trials bring

In the process of growing

I can learn to care.

The SIX WORDS for the day-

I AM UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF!!!!!!

During Catechism Class today at school, one sentence out of the thousand that she spoke struck me. This sentence goes like that " What is God's plan and will for me? " . I wonder what he wants me to accomplish before i return to him? i was really thinking hard. haha. Pearl actually do think.. wondeful! but whatever the case is, i am sure that he will reveal it to me when the time is right.

For now, lets just pray and ask God to be there no matter how tough things is going to be... : ) I asked my friend this question today, What makes friendship work?. Is it the amount of time spent? How well we know each other? How much are we willing to put in to make this friendship work or it is just the chemistry between two people.. She gave me two important answers and that is humility and and the other one is erm.. ok i cant remember. Humility to be able to accept the other person for who they are, their strength and weaknesses and so on... haha so true!!

Yes to be able to accept each other for who they are really make a big difference to the friendship. It helps the friendship to be real and genuine... : ) : ) and she say we must be patient too!

Friendship makes up a big part of one's life
Just like how you've made up mine.
But now it seems like a stand still
and i dont really understand why.

I've tried to find the reason why
and yes I've tried all ways.
But the answers to the question, why
Just doesn't seem to surface

I've blame it on myself
For not making this work
but then i realised,
It takes two hands to clap.

Maybe the problem to this
Doesnt lie with me, but with you.
Maybe there wasnt a problem at all
But just me being over sensitive.

hahaha. nice poem right. filled with emotions and all! hahaha. Friendship really needs two hands to claps and lotsa communication. : ) i hope i have treasured every single one of them. Like talk to them, laugh with them, dont leave out any of them, make them feel comfortable and happy! and of course be there for them when they need me the most : ) If not my sincere apology! and yes laughter is very important! serious coversation too but laughter is still the most important.

oh my. ok i seen to have a lot of work to do, like really a lot.. got to go now.

GOD I LEAVE THIS FOR YOU TO TAKE OVER AND THINGS WILL TURN OUT RIGHT!

When the ocean rise

And thunders roar

I will soar with you

Above the storm

Father you are King

Over the Flood

I will be still and know

You are God! : )

ELMO IS SO CUTE AND SO IS SHE!!! ERM. OK SHE IS NOT CUTE! SHE IS PRETTY : ) AGREED? I DO!

For audrey! : )

Lalala lalala elmo's world! X2

Elmo loves his goldfish and crayons too
Thats elmo's world! : )

I am so happy, so very happy!!.. yesterday was the funniest day of the entire year so far!hahaa. i went to my grandma's house to celebrate her birthday.. Its been a long time eversince we had a get together. As usual there were lotsa food, lotsa jokes and lotsa of laughter. They are seriously a fun bunch of people. Especially my aunties. hahaha


As i am typing this down, i recall all the fun moments i've spent with my cousins. Yes. we are a bunch of closely knitted people!. what can i say? I Love them to bits! Alright photo time!


food food food! ok i went late so i didnt manage to take the one before everyone started grabbing. haha



Teaching small kids to play mahjong? bad bad!


Justina and i trying real hard to imitate someone! but ok i guess who failed! hahaha










The ones whom i grew up with!



Imagine your mum and all your aunties doing the peace sign thing and taking a photo! well you dont have to imagine. cause they really did it! Its superly funny la!



O Lord. Thank you are all of them! they really made my day. Thank you for such lovely cousins and relatives that i have! : )

NO self control= hopeless!!

ok after getting nagging from my mum, i realised that i really have no self control! No control over my fingers!! argh!! i HATE the way i am spending my time,i really do HATE IT!! my hands and my mind just dont connect and work together. This is really terrible!

me? hopeless? maybe! I only have myself to blame!

Holy spirit!! i need the fruit of self control!! and if there is,, discipline!!

Pearl!!! you better start doing your work and dont let them down anymore..

Ok.. heres another person who is sweet...not just sweet but very sweet!! : )

She typed this as her personal message "pearly's my lovely"! so nice of her right! i didnt even tell her to do so! Awww.. how fortunate i am to have known her! right. so like marie she is another of my primary school friend. if i am not wrong, i knew her since primary 3. i think so? hmm.. ok. yes dont know how we became so close but yes. we are close. She also did our project work together and also came in first! : ) that is the team spirit man!

Sarah is a very sweet and nice girl, never quick to temper and she is also very understanding and caring! It is really my honour to have such a close friend even till now! Yes! friendship do last for a long long time if you ask me! Not many people have the privillage to experience friendships that last. Yup. and lastly

Sarah i will never regret knowing you and spending like 3/4 of my primary school's day with you. you are really a very nice friend and a trustworthy one too and just like marie's, ours will last and will create history! : ) : )(ok maybe i am exaggerating but you get my point ya?) always love and remembered by me!

I dont know what i am doing here. I suppose to do reading MT books and trying to answer questions in MT! argh ok! as you all know my MT is very bad! All i ask for is to go through tmr very smoothly! God help me to go through adn overcome it! With you i am sure and certain that things wont go so bad .

Its less than 24 hrs!!.. oh well!

Marie says:
..ok.

Marie says:
fine

Marie says:
becos i love u.i'll do it

yes thats how SWEET marie is!! (:(:!! I known her eversince erm.. lets see primary 2 and we only became close friends in primary 6 and our friendship is still going strong! yes! Despite our differences and all, we are still close friends, one which goes through thick and thin alike. Although i hardly get to see her, be rest assured that i have never forgotten her and i will always keep her in my prayers! : )

Heres cheers to our friendship and for the many exciting years to come!
* We will still remain as friends, one that will last!! : )

Alright, now to school! school today was great! I think i am nearly settling down now. You can now see me paying attention to what the teachers is saying in class or i will be doing something useful like studying and writing compositions( one which i hate doing), but i have come to terms with it. Who knows, maybe the more i do it, i will like it, just like A math! : ) The following days will just be nothing but test test and more test! and the worst one is my MOTHER TONGUE Os ORAL!!! argh.. ok. i must really gear myself up and prepare myself for it physically, mentally. emotionally and spiritually.haha and of course for the many tests which i will be seating for.

GOD thank you for everything that you have done for me! Continue to help and guide me through each day and for the rest of my life. Be my light and my source of strength!

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And its all about you
Its all about you Jesus
I'm sorry Lord for the things I've made it
When its all about
Its all about you Jesus!

I Love you!!

Romans 8:31 If God is for us who can be against us?

This verse is yet again told to me by Jason a few mintues ago and it really affirmed me a lot knowing that God is always there for me and knowing that all things is possible through him.. God is really amazing man! He had sent so many people in my life to guide me and to affirmed me in times of need. People like Jason, Godma, my parents, Justina, the Charismatic people and many more. They are indeed Children of God and they are all made in the image and likeness of God! Praise God for them!

Such a pity that Jason is leaving to study in the states. Although i only know him for like 2 months, I can tell that he is a very good person and a very good worship leader. One full of confidence and one filled with compassion as he carried out his duty. He is also a very spirit led person and i believed that he had helped and touched the lives of many by conveying God's messages to them! Amen! This type of people is rarely seen nowadays. what happended to them? Maybe all of them had gone to study in the states. hahaha! ok... I wish him all the best and may our gracious God continue to shower his blessings and love upon him wherever he go. : ) and oh yes i have not thanked him enough for the message. so Thank you!! : )

My Jesus. My Savior
Lord there is none like you
All of my days
I want to praise
The Wonders of your Mighty Love!

You are beautiful beyond description
Too marvallous for words
Too wonderful for comprehension
Like nothing ever seen or heard
Who can grasp your infinite Wisdom
Who can fathom the depth of your Love
You are beautiful beyond Description
Majesty enthrone above!

hello!! Good morning to one and all! : ) must be surprise that i am up and awake SO early on a sun morning. haha its 1017 now but still it is damn early la. The reason for waking up sp early. 1) the phone rang so many times and my parents are not at home. argh..
2) my grandma is coming at 11 : )

haha ok this is mainly the reasons. yup. i had a very good sleep last night! knowing that things are fine with certain people and they are back on track again. As in being happy and smiling! that is the most important thing right. Everything and Anything has a solution not solution but solutionssss. So... if any of you out there is worried and bolt down by all your problems just be assured that God will take over and take control as long as we put our trust in him and allow him to enter our heart.

Praise him you heavens
And all thats above!
Praise him you angels and heavenly hosts
Let the whole earth praise him

Praise him the sun moon and bright shining stars
Praise you heavens that waters the sky
Let the whole earth praise him

Great in Power, Great in Glory
Great in Mercy, King of heavens
Great in battle, Great in Wonder
Great in Zion, King over all the earth!!

Yup for those of you out there who thinks that there is no way out for you, be assured that he will always guide you, be there for you and to love you. He cant wit to shower all his graces and blessing upon you. Lastly he cant wait to shower you with his endless love! heres a song for you. if you want the song, you can ask me over msn..

God will make a way where there seem to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide, hold me closely to his side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

By the roadway in the wilderness he'll lead me
Rivers in the desert will i see
Heaven and Earth will fade
But his word will still remains
And he will do something new today!

bye people, have a wonderful day ahead! : )

*God i continue to ask you to bless her and be with her in her time of needs. Help her go through each week with happiness and under your protection and love! Shower her with your love Lord.

i had wanted to do this a long long time ago but too busy. So now that i remembered i shall type it down first!

LIZ! WELCOME BACK!!! : )

GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME
HE PUTS A SONG OF PRAISE IN THIS HEART OF MINE!!! : )

Indeed God is really Good all the time. Even if we dont see it or feel it at times, He is definitely good and he is always there beside us leading and guiding.. God presence is just so real that you can almost see it with your bare eyes and feel him with your hands.

The week is finally coming to a closure and i have to credit it to almighty GOD for enabling me to go pass this week. Even though it was a very VERY VERY tiresome week, It was still a great one! why? because God was there helping and guiding me! Without him being there, This week would have been much worse of..

I am so lucky and fortunate to be Loved by this wonderful and mighty God. If he is for us, who can be against us? This verse struck me just now as Jason was elaborating on it during charismatic. Sometimes, we worry about too much things, having unnecessary stress regarding this and that, angry with this person and that and the worst part is, we are always worried that everything might just go wrong. Maybe its time that i really have to sit down and just reflect about the love of God. How much Jesus loves us, even to the point of stretching out his arms and dying on the cross. yup!

and Melvin gave me this sentence which goes like that.. "If you rely completely in my strength, you will be able to accomplish things you thought is impossible". Oh my.. i tell you! when i heard it, I felt so affirmed and so comforted. I even felt a very strong sense of joy in my heart to the point where i nearly teared. Yes.. thats how amazing God can be!

His strength is perfect when our strength is gone;
He'll carry us when we can't carry on.
Raised in His power, the weak become strong;
His strength is perfect, His strength is perfect.

This is the chorus of the song His strength is perfect introduce to me by Godma during my mid year period. Yup. and as i was reflecting the phrase His strength is perfect came to mind and i realise that Godma has sent me this song( a little slow to realise it.. i know). but nevertheless i know that he is always there and all i have to do is to depend on him! : )

I LOVE THE LORD!!!! i really do!

I finally realised the importance of starting early and not wait till last min! right now, i only have myself to blame for not starting early. There always seem to be a lot of tomorrow during the "holiday" and now, the tomorrow is nowwhere in sight. Rushing through my work thats my life right now. Dead lines to meet and extra set of work to do. Right now in hand i have like

1) 4 sets of physic Exam papers ( to be done by tmr)
2) 1 SEQ for hist( to be done by tmr)
3) 2 Comprehension( to be done by tmr)

4) 4-5 sets of Geog work ( to be completed)
6) SS notes for Venice
7) E math test this coming thurs ( geometry, arithmetic, algebra, trigo)
8) E math test this coming fri ( vectors)
9) E math practice worksheet
10) Testimonal and Statement of experience

*11) Amath prelim papers ( asap)
*12) 2-4 compositions ( due by 7th July)

* This homework is not school work but it does matters to me a lot to do them. Yup and i am so sorry if i cant keep up to my promise to do all of them! really sorry!

Yes this is my homework schedule for this week. Beside all of these, there will still be more Homework to be done as each day goes by and the Homework weighing machine is going to be overloaded anytime soon!

I just hope that i am discipline enough to do all these and complete it. Doing homework and studying has been officially part and parcel of my life right now along with stress and worries.
I am afraid that i wont be able to handle all of this and might just break down and give up!( ok thats if the rubberband is over stretched)

The only consolation i have right now is that i am not alone and i have my father who will give me all the strength and graces that i need. All the support and encouragement from him never fails to jeer me on. Just knowing that there is someone there who will help me and to guide so long as i trust in him and do my best just makes me feel comforted.

O lord, the Spirit is willing but the flesh is weak! i really need your help to go pass this week! sleeping at 1 plus is bad enough, waking up at around 4 in the morning to complete work before heading to school is even worse! that is not the worst part. The worse part is every Sat i still have to be in school at 730 for extra lessons which leaves me about an average 4 hours of sleep everyday.

Give me all the energy that i need Lord!
I place my days into your mighty hands and trust that everything will turn out right.

Sighs!!

God i am just amazed at the wonders of all you've done!! indeed all people are made in your image and likeness and no one else can really touch my heart like you do. No one can fathom the depth of your love and richness! i am just awed at all you have done! I am shocked and I am speechless at how you work.

I will never regret knowing you Lord, by just knowing you Lord, Life is already fulfilling and enriching. i can never understand how amazing you are. you are just beyond words! Words alone cant describe my feelings towards you. you've have rendered me speechless Lord..

Yes Lord,
I will run to you,
To your words of truth,
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God.
Yes, i will run the race
Till i see your face.
O let me live in the Glory of your grace.

You Lord called each and everyone of us to your purpose, each and everone is worthy to praise you and to share in your endless Love. All i can say now is i am simply awed, really awed at how you work. I pray and hope this time, she will turn back to you and live in the glory of your grace! : ) Empower her lord, let her know who you are, the mighty yet gentle God! Holy Spirit be with her, guide her back to the heavenly Father!

I LOVE YOU!(how i wish there are more words to describe my love for you Lord!)

All that I have
All that I am
I Lay them down before you O lord
All my regrets
All my acclaims
The joy and the pain
I'm making them yours

LORD I OFFER MY LIFE TO YOU!!

* Thanks to the 9 cds given to me by Godma! : ) : ) : )
Godma, your gift is just the best! It has helped a person! erm.. make it 2 people! Thank you!!!

Something IS VERY wrong with me lately. i am very much interested in churning out words to form sentences. Sentences that flows and link to become a poem. hahaha. ok.. must be the confirmation gift from God. The gift of writing. HAHAHA!! ok i am just joking..

Since pearl's brain is so interested in thinking and finding words that match(i tried). i have written couple of them on my blog at the side bar.. so if you are interested, go read. i must say some of them are quite erm.. badly written. but still, the most important thing is to mean what you write and i REALLY mean what i wrote.I am serious!! : )

ok..moving on! school is starting soon like real soon! I must say that the workload is just going to get heavier and heavier each passing day, but i know that there are people who are there to help me and guide me and to make sure things turns out right! I really thank God for them in my life! shant elaborate on that! i will never end! haha : )

God please give me the graces and the strength that i need to go through each day. i know so long as i work hard and seek help from you, you will work wonders and show miracles to me. I believe in you Lord. Take charge of my entire Life and i will just be still and know you are God!

Praise and Worship songs have seriously been in my mind and part of my life for the past 4 days. Yes. why? because Godma gave me a total of 9 cds consisting of 90 songs! Be shocked! haha : ) No but i love it a lot since i relate to God better through music, she thought it would be the most ideal gift for me. Yup it definitely is, i must say. So i have been listening to it day and night. night and day! So for some nice praise and worship songs, go to my side bar to check out the ten of my favorite ones. : ) but all are nice!

Confirmation Part 2

ok this is just a post to let the Pictures do the talking! hahha



getting all prepared at home!




the one in church before spiritual prep

ok i dont have photos during spiritual prep and after that! the next few will be the mass ones and the post confirmation!



before i went up to get to get the oil put on my fore head


the waiting process one



the waiting process two


and finally the moment i've been waiting for!!!

the Anoiting with the chrism oil..


this is when i can officially call her Godma!! CHEERS to that!



try finding me!


photos time! friends from school and all over the world! hahaha



















All credits to this special guy here! he took most of the photos in church and i must say they are not too badly taken! Thank you Jeremy!


My new Family!! I love them lots! : )



And congrats to Nicole for getting Confirmed too! : ) : )

ok stay tune for Confirmation part 3 which are the ones taken at Audrey's house. i mean Godma's house! hahah : ) and maybe a Part 4 if there is too many photos to be uploaded!

Confirmation Part 1

I am finally confirmed which is to be baptised with the Holy Spirit i think.. : ) After 3 and a half years of catechism class to prepare for this day, i am finally confirmed! : ) YAY!! This past few years have definetely been one of the best part of my spiritual life. Having to get to experience God and really, just the thought of how much God loves each and everyone of us really makes me feel proud to be his children and to be a Catholic.

Yes, how time really flies. i would definitely miss all the camps and spiritual sessions that catechism class offers but all good things will come to an end and soon a new chapter would begin. One that is filled with excitment, joy and fun!. Am i glad that i will be able to start this new chapter of Faith in 2 different ministry and with this very important person in my life whom i will journey with spiritually and of course all the nonsensical things comes in too. : )

God thank you for sending the Holy Spirit down upon us to guide us and to lead us closer to you. To give us this soft prompting in our heart and to lead us to the path of light. With the Holy Spirit here to help us and lead us, i am sure we are able to do more things for you God, to proclaim you to the world and to worship and honour you in all that we do! :)

Dearest mummy and daddy. thank you for giving me this religion! One which one would never ever regret believing and knowing. Thank you for making this decision to baptised me and to allow me to know this awesome God of ours. Thank you for the constant reminder also to pray and to have faith and trust! Thank you for journeying with me this past 16 years of my spiritual life and arent you all glad you have found another person whom i can journey with! haha.. In any case thanks for everything and I love you!

Arent you all excited to find out who is this dearest person whom i will be journeying with? hha..actually you all can guess one. very easy! let me help you along.. its a her. her name starts with the alphabet A and her confirmation name is one of the fruit of the Holy Spirit! guess already? haha. yes She is none other than Audrey! oh she is the same Audrey who is tutoring me too. Actually i think she is a super woman la.. : ) haha

and i just realised that i known her for only 1 year! 1 year ONLY! can you believe that. i mean i know she existed like 5 years ago but i only got to know her better after she returned from her trip to Europe. and how did it happen? it all started when stupid pearl didnt know how to do A Math and flunk it terribly. haha. Yes.

So from a Hi Bye friend, she became my tutor, then my friend, followed by close friend and lastly my Godma! dont ask me what made us so close cause i dont really know the reason. i just know that GOD MADE IT POSSIBLE! and i dont know whether to thank God anot for her after what she she did to me! sighs! hahaha.. ok jokes aside.. Yes i truely thank God for her in my life and i believe she will be a GOOD Godma! right Godma? haha

Yes she will, since God will be looking after us and journeying with us and i am so excited to embark on this new chapter of my this spiritual life with her. ok Thanks for everything Godma.

for the party,
for the 9 disc which she collated all the P and W songs into it,
for your understanding
for your care and concern
for your love
for your laughter
for your smile
for your listening ear
for your full of compassion heart
for your hands to comfort me
for your legs to journey with me

and lastly for this simple word "JOY" which you have placed in my heart! Time spent with you is always full of laughter and full of Joy! : ) : ) liebe Sie!! i truely meant it! : ) hahaha!

THIS HAVE BEEN THE BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!! SO FAR I MEAN.. it is not the amount of presents i received or the places that i went to that made me happy! what really made me happy was to able to spent it with the most important people in my life!! People such as

1) Daddy and Mummy

Thank you for being there for me always. for loving me and for giving me a comfortable home where love is found. thank you for giving me all the support that i need. The moments that i am down . thanks for always being there! i love you all!! and yes thank you for the levis pair of shoe!! its so beautiful! ! : )

2) My grandma

What can i say about my grandma? hmm?? She is a fantastic and extraordinary grandma whom i can talk to and get really good advice. yes thank you Ah-ma for all the gifts and presents you have given me.. : ) She even called me up and sang a birthday song to me! so sweet!! she even brought me for lunch before my birthday to celebrate with me! I LOVE her lots!!!! to sum it all up, she is the best grandmother i can ever get and i wish she can celebrate with me every year! oh she bought more than just the sandle.. she bought 3 converse polo tee and 1 nike shirt! : )




3) Young Godma!!!( dont put yet to be also can right?)



this will always be kept aand remembered! : )



Hello Audrey!! I love you to bits!!! haha how to not love you??.. thanks for the lovely and sweet and touching note, letter, essay? hha.. it is seriously very touching.. nearly cried!! ok i admit. i did shead a few tears.. who say you cant write touching notes.. you really can k! Thanks for treat at hotel rendezvous together with wonderful counsellor( thank you jeremy!! ). yes back to the topic... you seriously mean a lot to me too!! Danke for always being there and for all your advice! you really never fail to brighten my days! and...




heres a new photo for you!! hahaha.. its now black and yellow and a bit of red!!




4) Jeremy aka wonderful counsellor



Hey Jeremy! thanks for your treat too : ) and yes i am starting to get to him a litlle better so i can write a little more about him. :) i have come to realise he is a very caring person not that he wasnt before but .. you get my drift. he has a very good sense of humour and he is very nice to all the people around him! : ) Thank you jeremy for being the wonderful and unique person you are. Thanks for everthing such as the cookie.. haha.. will never forget that! : ) Love you!



5) Sham, Gaya, Ange



Thank you girls!! thanks for all the gift and the surprise cake which you all bought for me!


Sham! thanks for being the good friend you are.. always there for one another.. thanks for making such a difference in my life. you are really a rare breed of girls.. and please stop attracting people when we go out next time.. hahaha.. ok seriously I LOVE YOU LOTS!!! thank you for the colourful pens you and ange bought. i shall use them to write beautiful notes for you all!



Gaya!!! Thank you for the effort-ful and beautiful photo collage thing you have done for me!! its really really really very very nice! and yes i will never regret each and every moment i've spent with you! all the crazy stuff we did will never be forgotten too! : ) beside that you really make me a very happy person! being able to be your good friend is a blessing to me! love you lots gaya

Ange!! hello.. thank you for the cake and pens too! : ) thank you for the listening ear when i need it the most. for the consolation i had from you after results and when i am down. you are a really great person and a friend, a friend which i will never forget!! : ) love you!



6) Marie and Sarah

friendship forge will never be forgotten!





Hello girls!! thank you for the beautiful and wonderful post you all did on your blogs to wish me a happy birthday! i know i have not been the good friend i odd to be and i have not been making time to go out and to spend time with you all. sorry for always not being able to make it for the outing which you all have organised. really really sorry.i know that you all wanted to celebrate my birthday with me and i really thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the thought and the want. thank you for the wonderful memories you all have given me. the true meaning of friendship and companions! i will never ever forget you all!! I LOVE YOU BOTH! SERIOUSLY!



7) Godma and Se Sook


the cross that Godma gave me.. its damn nice la!!!


the watch that Se Sook gave me!! the charming watch .. hahaha


Thank you for all your gifts ever year and for always remembering my birthday! although i dont celebrate it with you all and stuff, you all still never fail to forget my birthday! i know i can always count on you all for everything. thank you are always being there! : )

8) People who wished me

People out there! thank you for all the text messages, the offline meesages, friendster comments. thank you for the wishes. people whom i didnt expect such as chanel. thank you girl for the message.. really sweet of you.. and yes i one and only cousin donna for calling me all the way from china just to wish me happy birthday.. so sweet of her..

oh yes.. thank you jas, jac and joy for the very nice blue havaianas slipper.. thank you for the gift!!!

AND I WOULD NOT EVER FORGET TO THANK MY HEAVENLY FATHER for constantly looking after me and for the gift of your love. so pure and real! thank you daddy for the wonderful people you sent in my life to celebrate with me and thank you for giving me life. Life without you would be meaningless but with you. Life is so beautiful and colourful, knowing that you are always there for me and knowing that my life is in your delicate hands and you will never leave your sight off me! thank you Father!!! i love you so so much!!!

Thank you mother Mary for watching over me for interceding for me and always being there for me.. thank you are hearing all my cries and pleads!! i love you mother of us all!!! : )

I would like to end off with a big I LOVE YOU to all the people whom have made my day a extra special one! : )