GOD.. please be with me to guide and lead me, to give me strength, wisdom, knowledge( i need both of them badly) and the ability to answer my question well. thank you for always being with me and allowing me to experience your endless love. God i besiege you... please help me to go through this period and continue to have faith in you!!!

LORD, send down your spirit to help and guide me..

I LOVE YOU LORD

AND I LIFT MY VOICE

TO WORSHIP YOU,

OH MY SOUL, REJOICE

TAKE JOY MY KING

IN WHAT YOU HEAR

MAY IT BE A SWEET SWEET

SOUND IN YOUR EAR!

I LOVE YOU LORD!

This week and the following.. is going to be VERY tough and TIRING(knowing that i love to sleep a lot).. i will have to sit for 7 papers during the course of this two weeks. GOODNESS!!! it may seem little and easy but it is definitely no and NOT... but ya. i know all students have to sit for exams and it is part of our life. how sad. JUST hope that mid year will end soon! like really soon. but even with the end of mid year, there is still the prelims awaiting me.. and there is seriously lots of work and papers to be done in order to be prepared for it.

The after mid year list to do
1) start praying for the results to be acceptable by (myself, parents, tuition teacher(s) well i have only one so far but i have many

2) start panicking before the results come out

3)START MY INTENSIVE CHINESE REVISION

4)Start writing EL compos

5) oh ya.. must buy ear piece first (sure get lots of scolding... grammer, sentence
structure,verbs..., lack of vocabulary, expressions, tenses. spelling errorsssss.)

6) A math prelim papers

7) Science revision ( Chemistry+Physic= Headaches and Frustrations)

8)Humanities revision (SS+ GEOG+HIST= brain explosion)

9) Mathematic revision ( Amath= GOING MAD and brain dying and E math= brain draining and GOING CRAZY)

10) Start preparing for O Level

I think thats about it. but i still have to think about what i can do to help choir and some friends of mine! sad right.. haha. but it's ok i guess. seeing their happy faces makes me happy too! : ) : ) I need to find people or person or whoever who can make me study( angels are welcome too)

I also want to........

1)Go and find good makan places( not find actually. i want to go and survey their food.. haha)
2) Go and exercise (which ever way you all want, NO RUNNING without a purpose thats all)
3)Go and get tan ( i am losing my brown colour)
4)Get away from studies and just relax

ANYONE WOULD LIKE TO VOLUNTEER??? all this do you good too!;);)

sigh,,, for now i guess its back to STUDYING, STUDYING, STUDYING. the most dreadful word in the list of vocabulary!

* Anyways elizabeth. thanks for your chocs.. they are really nice like you!! haha. :)

HAPPY 21 st ELIZABETH!!!!

hey hey!! i remembered!! see i told you i would.. anyways! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! 21st means the key to freedom so... Here's cheers to this key of freedom and for a blast of a fun time for the many more years to come! GOD BLESS! :)



* i will buy jelly beans for you if i come across. haha.

FOOLISH!!!! argh.. how foolish can i get.. ok i promise never to make that mistake again. NEVER!!!!. today a person's life was in danger... ok SO long as WE Dont make the mistake again. everything will be fine! right? i mean so long as we repent. God wont make things so difficult right??

OH GOD... i pray that she will be ok and nothing will happen to her.. I promise never to let history repeats itself again... please guide and guard her and me safely.. PLease lord. be with us throughout the day and for the rest of our life.

I seriously hope that everything will be ok and no one is hurt... Please let this matter rest as of today and never let history repeat again!

I'm sorry Lord for the things i made it....
Please just let matter rest!

To Audrey

ALL THE BEST

ARGH!!! ok i am defintiely running out of ideas.. i have tried all kinds of techno stuff and i can safely say i AM seriously running of out ideas.. but nevertheless.. This post is delicated to Audrey!!!


Hey Audrey.. kind of weird writing it here.. but haha. Anyways dont fred or worry. Think you are giving yourself too much pressure!!! haha.. ya look on the bright side. you have ONLY one paper more.. just ONE more. i am sure you are able to do it.. Then on friday you will be free and and liberated and you willl be able to play more, eat more, sleep more and have more fun.. so lucky!!! while i on the otherhand wont be free and will suffer tragically till Nov..(consolation for you) haha.. I will be praying for you to do well. Dont worry i dont ask people to pray themself! i am nice! : ): ).. YA.. Just relax and study.. you are sure able to do it!! and as usual my saying goes, i can help you in anything except academically. haha so sorry.. the only thing i can do now is to relieve you of your school work for a moment and laugh at this lame post. haha

I will never fail you or forsake you.
- Hebrews 13:5

See he will never fail or forsake you so dont worry about anything.. cause worry is a total waste of time, it steals your joy away! haha.. SO JOY, always be happy k!! and yes God will bless and guide you through it although you self proclaim that you didnt study. haha.



you definitely came across this before!


AUDREY! I AM CERTAIN AND SURE YOU CAN DO IT!!
GO AUDREY!



* Sorry. i am like totally lack of ideas already so this is like a very short and last min thing but still hope it relieve you of your school work for like 1 min. judging that you read very fast : ) sorry.. effort wise is like 0/100 but sincerity wise it is 100/100. really wish you all the best for your exams


oh ya people who have ideas on what i can do besides video, letters,ppt... do drop by your email on my tag board and dont write what to do there cause then she will know what i am up to. LOL

Seek Ye First

Seek ye first the
Kingdom of God and
His righteousness and all these things
Shall be added unto you,
Allelu, Alleluia.

Man shall not live by bread alone,
But by every word
That proceeds from the mouth of God,
Allelu, Alleluia.

Ask, and it shall be given unto you,
Seek, and ye shall find.
Knock, and the door shall be opened unto you,
Allelu, Alleluia.


God has poured out his love into our hearts. - Romans 5:5

WAH..... Mass today was SUPERLY SUPERBLY superb... It confirm the message like on the spot, ok maybe not on the spot but in an hour that i should love one another regardless of whatever and i should not be judgemental... It was so real so Nice, So wonderful... GOD i will never doubt your presence( for now until i feel spiritually dry), you are definitely more than real.. You are So REAL!! ok i am not making sense.... but ya.. GOD IS DEFINITELY REAL AND ALIVE!!!! AND YES I LOVE HIM and i want to tell the whole world i LOVE HIM.. :):):)

ALLELUJAH! JESUS IS ALIVE..

* To marie.. that does not mean i am Holy k... is just that i am feeling spiritually high at the moment and yes you are SO coming with me to mass on Fri!!!

For the first time. chemistry practical was manageable..(claps).. haha.. ya. i think i should start looking at those dreadful subjects from a new perspective... i think that is the fastest way to love and do well in it. Although looking it from a new perspective is difficult but i'll try.. :):).. i have been thinking a lot lately... i should look at things from a new perspective and learn to enjoy every second i spent with my family, friends, dogs?? haha.. ya i should learn to appreciate the people around me more and to give and let. I should not bear grudges and be judgemental. I should love the people around me more and treasure them.. yes? haha

I LOVE GOD
I love mummy and daddy
I love my grandma
I love Audrey
I love jeremy( better put his name there if not he starts complaining again)
I love nana
I love shamini, Gayathri and.....
I love Marie and Sarah
I love.....

ok I love everyone k.. even though you dont like me or hate me i still love you all!!!
Love one another as i have loved you. : )

God thank you so much for letting me go through the first day of the week smoothly.. please continue to be my guide, my light and my lord.. Thank you for helping me to not take things for granted and to love one another and i am truely BLESSED and EXTREMELY HAPPY to have you in my life. I may not see you BUT i know you are always there no matter what. THANK YOU GOD!!!

ok i'm off to church now. bye!

The Longing

God you are really so wonderful.. i once again felt your presence the last two days and i want to proclaim to the World how Marvelous and great you are.. Thanks for putting a smile on my face again... Thanks for everything that you have done for me. In return, empower me to spread your love and presence to the world. Help me to constantly acknowledge that you are my God, My pillar of strength and support.

I attended charismatic on fri and man.. It was damn good (beyond description)... its been a long time since i felt spiritually high. It was a wonderful feeling. The playing of Audrey's and Jeremy's combined was...EXCELLENT... it was great. I dont think ANYONE can play as well as them(not being bias or anything) maybe because i have not come across one yet. When one of them play i already can feel the presence of GOd and it allows me to get closer to him. Imagine when they combine forces... it was heavenly, wonderful, superior, first class, superb, top-notch and i could go on and on and on. Ya thats how good it was.. but i must say that the P and W leaders were exemplary too.. :) yeah i got closer to God.. haha..

Oh yes i got to see my baby cousins.. they are so cute la... they are a constant reminder to us that GOD love us to be children like because they

1)Have A Pure Heart
2)They Are Innocent
3) They Dont Bear Grudges
4)They know the word love more than hate
5)And the most important.. They Are not judgemental...( the deadliest sin) hahaha..

Yes on sat went for choir... We did something different for choir practice and i think it did benefit some of them.. It did benefit me though... It brought me closer to God again. YAY... haha. choir today did sound soft and everything( judging from the no. of ppl and their age and we are not professional) but we are CONSTANTLY TRYING to improve and built up his choir again in terms of volume and standard. We are made his instruments to give Glory to Him and to help our BROTHERS AND SISTERES built up his Church TOGETHER..

Anyways.. GOD i love you so much thank you for being part of my life and for putting all those trials and ordeals before my way so i can become stronger.. oh ya. i still owe you readers out there the Journeying with Christ part 2. haha. Soon k. after my exams.
I lOVE YOU GOD

Light of the World

Light of the world
You stepped down into darkness
Opened my eyes, Let me see
Beauty that made this heart adore you
Hope of a life spent with you

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

King of all days
So highly exalted
Glorious in heaven above
Humbly you came to the earth you created
All for love's sake became poor

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

I'll never know how much it cost
To see my sin upon that cross

Here I am to worship
Here I am to bow down
Here I am to say that you're my God
You're altogether lovely
Altogether worthy
Altogether wonderful to me

ARGH... the stupid El paper IS extremely difficult.. goodness. what owl, what kangaroos... argh.. think i am going to flunk it. I never ever come out of an examination hall after an El paper feeling so insecure and dissappointed. If IF i flunk the el paper i dont see a need to go and sit for the rest of the paper anymore. it is totally pointless and argh.... why must my command of El be so bad to the point of not being able to understand the comprehension and answer the questions. i dont know why. but i feel that that i underperforming and Dont have the ability to do well for everything now..

My el is disgusting and horrible. My chem is like GONE. My physic is also a Goner not to mention my MT which is SO fantastically GOOD not. My SS which i cant seem to past.Geog which i dont understand how i could fail. My Amath which is so unpredictable and not stable and Hist which is Ok but thanks to my SS i keep passing SS/Hist on the DOT only therefore it is very risky as the mark fluctuate all the time.. The onyl thing i hope and wish for is to get a A1 for my e math for mid year. Although the marks during Midyear wont be counted for O level, it is like a gauge to see how well you will do for your Os.. I want to work hard and ace through every single subject but it is hard and the joruney is certainly going to be arduous.,

GOD i need your grace and mercy.

I just hope that i will have ample time to go and study for the rest of my upcoming paper. It is drawing closer day by day and i feel the lack of confident and Courage day by day. Although it is only mid year, it can be compared to life and death.

The only consolation i have is to lift up my el paper to him and the remaining papers to him and hoping that everthing will turn out alright. God what will i ever do without you. How can i ever survive without you. How can i go through this year without you. i need you Lord. come into my life and fill me with your knowledge and wisdom once again. Help me to go through and sail through each and everyone of my paper.

Today's saturday... yeah. This week had been the most tiring week man.. dont know the reason why but after each day, i just come back home and fall asleep. goodness. dont know why.. anyone knows why?? maybe its because i didnt go home after school immediately or something or because of ALL the homeowork and annoying test which the school is giving. As usual we had e and a math test which i think i screwed one of it(the answer is so obvious if you know me). the amount of homework is definitely piling infinity high.. it never seem to end.

Although this week had been the most tiring week but it was a week full of laughter and fun. i met up with marie and sarah not once, not twice but thrice this week!!!. life with them is always full of laughter and fun.. meeting up and chatting with them really make me miss my primary school days where we use to play and play and play.. haha. Life after PSLE was the best. we always go to the playground near marie's house to play and chat and eat and.... we used to go ice skating very often which dear marie has forjotten( sarah favorite word). yes yes that is life duirng primary school.

Life in secondary school is fun too because you get to go out later and you are more mature and stuff to notice things around you.. ok i have been changing class since sec 1 and 2 and luckily 3 and 4 is the same bunch of people. yes ( Secondary 3/8 ans 4/8 is the best class.. yeah) you cannot imagine what we do in class. its damn funny at times. like this week during chem lesson my two seating partners and i had the most interesting chem lesson. Gaya was filing my nails while sham and i was handcuff to each other( the result of being bored in class). Sham then notice that we were the only ones awake during her lesson and she still manage to go on and on.

Yes.. and fri was international friendship day and Ij Fiesta... it was quite boring even with all the game stalls and food stalls set up. i was at the Ij enterprise booth rotting away and then jac and jas came along asking what booth was I in charge of.. They realise i was kindda bored so they asked me whether i would like to eat. So we headed for the canteen and pig out like we have not eaten for days. we had spaghetti, pizza, nasi lemak, cream puffs, isotonic drinks, mug float and cotton candy.. After our heavy branch, They accompanied back to the booth and help me dragged customers. So nice of them right. haha. i had a great time with them yesterday. the best part was, we all walked in the heavy rain yesterday and was soaking wet but i felt refresh after the walk.

i went to meet sarah and marie after that to go the gym but we did something else instead. As usual we had lotsa fun and sarah had to go for her shooting so it was left with marie and i. we went to the arcade to play and she won first in racing (car) and i won first in racing (motobikes). it was really fun. and then we wne to pig oout again at one of the cafe in the SAFRA club. we ate brownie and ice cream whcih tasted like banana cake and ice cream. ok it wasn't really nice but marie and i had a wonderful time talking and chatting and communicating.

After this meeting, i cab down with marie to my grandma's house and then she went home. i wen to eat again at Jumbo this time round to celebrate my beloved grandma's birthday( i do love her a lot) .The food is damn nice especially the cereal prawns. ar.. it just so heavenly.. and the best part was it was near the sea. you know how much i love nature. : ) : ) .. that was yesterday.

Moving on to today.. i have like tons of work to do and i have to prepare for my el and cl exams and i have to do my hist project which i owe gaya,, i am SOOO sorry.. think i better get going.
bye!

yes ok we manage to snap a bit here and there but we being girls, are very concern about our looks in photos so we had to use photoshop to cover all the "errors" and beautify it. haha.. the power of technology!.. ok i better go back to my el. bye!

screwed... screwed...screwed...

ok i am not that screwed but nearing to that real soon
i have like
1) Geog workbook around 20 pages
2) 2 el comprehension
3) 1 situational writing which i owe the el teacher
4) hist project thing
5) Emath test( if i fail this test i am screwed)
6) Amath test ( if i fail i am also screwed)
7) Geog test

and..... ALL of them are like due tomorrow!!! and here comes the best part.. I HAVE NOT STARTED ON ANYTHING. how screwed can i be... ok. yes today we had a prasie and worship thing in school. i must say that i wasnt captured by the p&w leaders and i wasnt in my usual p&w mood.. maybe it is the environment or the people there.. but i did manage to spend some time with God which is good!!. : )
ok i should go and start my whole chuck of work listed above.. bye!
and i am meeting sarah and marie again tmr.. YEAH,,

today today.. i must say it is one of the best Monday of all... first i had 2.4 which i thought i was going to die halfway due to the fact that i have not run for a gazillion long time but i manage to complete it.. yes... then i got back my hist and emath assignment which i thought i did badly but it turns out that i did quite well. Oral today was good to. I had a great time chatting with the teacher.. yeah right. but ya it is better than most of them.



Lastly the limelight of the day



I GOT TO MEET MARIE AND SARAH WHOM I DID NOT SEE FOR DONKEY YEARS!!!!!...

THEY ARE THE BEST OF THE BEST I TELL YOU..

THEY TRUELY MADE MY DAY ...

YES I LOVE THEM PLENTY.....

CHEERS TO THAT!!

and i could nto have survive 2.4 and oral today without you lord.. thank you!!

HAPPY EASTER DAY EVERYONE

MINE EYES HAVE SEEN THE GLORY
OF THE COMING OF THE LORD
HE IS TRAMPLING OUT THE VINTAGE
WHERE THE GRAPES OF WRATH ARE STORED
HE HATH LOOSED THE FATEFUL LIGHTNING
OF HIS TERRIBLE SWIFT SWORD
HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
GLORY GLORY HALLELUJAH
HIS TRUTH IS MARCHING ON!!!!

Dont know why but i am in the easter mood although i am stuck at home doing work. It must be the songs that are sung during mass today which made me feel that way.. The choir is like damn powerful la.. It was really nice listening to them sing with LOTS of gusto and lotsa energy to proclaim that jesus have resurrected.....
ok i have to now... thats all for today folks.. haha
Jesus christ is risen today....

Good Old Happy Times

Life have been rather still nowadays with nothing new and exciting happening. The only thing is i manage to catch up with some of my primary school good friends and we are gonna meet up soon.. Cant wait for that.. Its been like donkey years eversince we met up.. yes other than that nothing new happpen. boring right.. So i am stuck at hoem doing homework and chatting(the only stress reliver for now) then i had the sudden urge to look at my childhood photos as i was chatting with one of my priamry school friend. I got SO engross at looking and laughing at the photos until i didnt know three hours have past(that is how much photos i have). haha. ok so i decided to scan some photos and share it with you. so ya. here are some of the photos.


WE ARE ONE "BIG" FAMILY

what you starring at! ( can you imagine this is me!)

My Grandparents.. they are the best thing
that happen to me when i was young

Nana and me!!

i have been expose to mahjong

since young.. care to play??

I am the creation of these two

wonderful human begins.

I love them

WATER!!!!

Although life have been rather stressful and full of ups and downs nowadays, the memories of childhood seem to make everything all right.. : ) I would like to thank mummy and daddy for bringing me into this world, for letting me experience things that life may bring. My childhood would not have been completed without their Love and Warmth. Besides them, i would like to thank my grandparents too for looking after me and for showering me with love and showering me. hahaha.. Yes i spend most time with them as my parents gotta go to work. they are the BEST grandparents i can ever asked for. I Love my granddad more actually but ya both of them ROX!! cousins too play a very important role in my life since i am the only child. they fill my life with joy and happiness and lotsa lotsa lotsa laughter and most importantly when you are young you need to have FUN! lots of them to make a childhood complete.

SO parents wannabe out there. If you want to know the main essential of having a HAPPY AND WONDERFUL childhood.. here are some tips that might help you. Firstly, you need to stock up lotsa milk, diapers, pacifiers etc etc.. but most importantly, You need to give the child alot of care and concern, shower them with endless love, give them warmth and the most important of importants is to give them FOOD!!!!. when a baby is full they will be happy and sleepy babies :). Now you know why i seldom cry! Oh yes. Family outings is very important too. like the beach, the zoo( my most favorite place to be when i was young), the botanic garden, parks, playground, chalets swimming pools....

The machine where you put $0.20 in and it will move and music starts playing make a child happy too! ya.. Places that allow family bonding and things that the child will enjoy..

YES YES YES>> All this would not have been possible without the love of my real father for
planting me in my mother's womb. He has truely allow me to experience what it is like of being love plenty. He had sent many angels to be around me when i was young and is still sending many more... HE has guard and guide me eversince i was born. He watched over me and protected me with his mighty hands. I was so small, yet he showered me with unconditional love that no one could ever give. Despite turning away times and times again, he still watch over me and guide me back to the correct path.. My happy and memoriable childhood seriously and without a doubt would not have been possible without him, the ONE TRUE GOD. (:(:(:(:(:

FOR YOU CREATED ME AND SHAPE ME
GAVE ME LIFE WITHIN MY MOTHER'S WOMB
FOR THE WONDER OF WHO I AM I PRAISE YOU
SAVE IN YOUR HANDS ALL CREATION IS MADE NEW!

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,
The emblem of suffering and shame;
And I love that old cross
where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

O that old rugged cross,
so despised by the world,
Has a wondrous attraction for me;
For the dear Lamb of God left
His glory aboveTo bear it to dark Calvary.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

In that old rugged cross,
stained with blood so divine,
A wondrous beauty I see,
For 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
To pardon and sanctify me.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;
Its shame and reproach gladly bear;
Then He'll call me some day to my home far away,
Where His glory forever I'll share.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

i seriously feel very irratated now.,. VERY...aargh.. i need somewhere to vent my anger. i am i in the wrong. but i dont like it when they cast judgement on people and making assumption of them.... i TOTALLY HATE THEM FOR NOW,,.. hopefully this thing will end.. i dont wanna hate but i have this feeling of hatred now..
you whoever out there. if you dont shut up soon i am gg to blow up real soon,,.

You are my light, you're the lamp upon my feet

All the time my lord i need you there

You are my light, i cannot live alone.

Let me stay by your guiding light

All through my life,,

Lead me lord..

I feel like i am drifting away again and not walking on the correct path.. I need to go back to the correct path and let God take control of it. Help me to seek you Lord... Today i felt your prescene again during mass when audrey played and jeremy sang.. i think they are the most compatible organist and singer. they can truely move me.. I felt that God understood what i was going through and have stood by me and never leave me. He understands me through and through and accept my weaknesses and make them seems nothing to big. God i now fully understand the meaning of "There is nothing too big that i cannot handle". Yes lord. there is nothing to big that you cannot manage and handle. Help me to constantly search seek for you and help my heart who desire for you to enter..

Cause it goes against the way i am

To put my human nature down

And let the spirit take control of all i do

Cause when those trials come

My human nature

Shouts the things to do

And God's soft promting can be easily ignored.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST SE SOK!!

oh gosh.. i think i am still sober.. i have to be.. i have like an essay to write out and here i am stoning and falling asleep real soon .. i just came back form my Godpa's birthday party and i think i am dead drunk but if i am i dont see how i still can blog about it hmm.. damn shouldn;t have drank that much alchohol although i dont think it is a lot..i am getting sleepy and i have no mood to write an essay. guess i still have to do it no matter how much i detest. but overall the party was great. My cousin and i took a lot A LOT of random photos.. especially the toilet. seems like the best hang out place.. haha.. ok i should stop for now. i am going mad....

isnt he just plain adorable...... the overly exaggerated cheese

what are these words man?? are they some hebrew words..

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO JEREMY AND AUDREY...

And

Welcome back JEREMY

Since it is jeremy's anniversary, i will take this opportunity to blog something about him and make him happy... jeremy is a very nice and wonderful friend. yes he is.. met him a few years ago and got to know him better over the years. He is definitely a great guy and he is fantastic at consoling people when they are upset. he will offer you a cookie which will make you laugh when you think about it a few days later. (btw.. you still owe me cookies!!) erm.. damn i am running out of things to say(this shows that he have not done much to make me remember stuff).. goodness.. hmm.. yes i remember now.. his favourite food at the church coffee shop is the claypot ee-mee thing with lots and LOTS and LOTS of vinegar. ok,, i will blog again when i recall things about him.. haha..

Anyways, CONGRATULATION GODMA AND "GODPA" for sticking together for 3 years and the super glue between them seem to get "superer" and "superer" each year. thats good isn't it.. haha ok (sorry brain is really not functioning well today) Continue to stick to each other and may God Bless you2 abundantly and keep you2 in his presence always on this memorial day and for the many many many more years to come.. :)

Love,

me always!!

Argh.. my legs, hands, shoulders and stomach are totally worn out.. goodness... it must be the result of not exercising regularly for the past 1 month. I had to do a physical fitness test and i am totally exhausted... the onky thing i derive out of the whole physical fitness test is... i am still considered quite "fit". haha.. anyways i think i need to start exercising again.. i need some1(s) to

1) play tennis with..

2) go to the gym

3) swim with?? nah .. i rather swim on my own.. : )

4) play more tennis

5) maybe climb or trek up something somewhere in singapore unless i am allowed to go overseas to climb mountains.

6) go to the beach to have fun ( i need my tan)

7)....

ok maybe exercises or something(beside running... i hate running )that i will enjoy and able to keep fit and build up stamina.. Sadly i can only do majority of it after my Midyear, prelims and Os... right now i have to focus on books, worksheets, assignments and exams.

Beside that i realise Mid year is just round the corner.. like less than a month time.. NO... stay away from me.... sigh.. cant help it.. exams, tests and datelines love students a lot.. it is TRYING to be your best friend... hah. ok

OH YA.. i was asked a question yesterday from my friend and the question is Why is life so depressing??..hmm.. ok i find that question rather challenging because i never thought that life was depressing. maybe sometimes it can seems that way to many when you face trials and ordeals but it is all part of growing up. From all the trials and ordeals, we can learn to grow stronger mentally and emotionally and wiser.

Challenges are place before us constantly to prepare us for the future and to make us stronger if you asked me and to prove to ourself that we are able to do something that we thought we can never do before... i think the answer to the question above is because we ourself think that life is depressing and so we live our live depressingly if there is such a word but i guess you all understand what i am trying to say. It is all in the state of mind. you can learn to love something/someone you hate as long as your mind is not stopping you to but it takes a lot of courage and determination to change your way of thinking. It needs time to because time has the power to change everything, to heal things. but in all that we do know that we are not facing it on our own.

There are many people out there who feels the same as you. There are also your family, relative and friends whom you can confide in and to talk to.. To all people who think life is depressing, i invite you to think about all the happy times in your lives and forget all the bad moments. Nobody's life is filled with rainbows and beds of roses but we can change our thinking and always look on the positive side of life. As long as we can achieve that, the bed of roses and rainbows can also be available to you. And in all things, remember that God loves us and would never put us here on earth to suffer. He loves us so much that he place us here on earth to enjoy his creation and to be awed by it. He wants to give us an experience of what he created here on earth so life is definitely not depressing if you think about it. It is up to you to lead a depressing life or to change it and to lead a happy and fulfilling one. The choice is yours so generally it is wrong to say that life IS depressing.

Yes.. but in all the trails and ordeals, there will be someone to walk beside you, to guide you, to lead you and to protect you, to carry you and to grant you peace if you are willing to let go and to allow him to take over.. :):)

*Smiling helps too