JESUS THE SAVIOR OF MY SOUL

ARGH... the stupid El paper IS extremely difficult.. goodness. what owl, what kangaroos... argh.. think i am going to flunk it. I never ever come out of an examination hall after an El paper feeling so insecure and dissappointed. If IF i flunk the el paper i dont see a need to go and sit for the rest of the paper anymore. it is totally pointless and argh.... why must my command of El be so bad to the point of not being able to understand the comprehension and answer the questions. i dont know why. but i feel that that i underperforming and Dont have the ability to do well for everything now..

My el is disgusting and horrible. My chem is like GONE. My physic is also a Goner not to mention my MT which is SO fantastically GOOD not. My SS which i cant seem to past.Geog which i dont understand how i could fail. My Amath which is so unpredictable and not stable and Hist which is Ok but thanks to my SS i keep passing SS/Hist on the DOT only therefore it is very risky as the mark fluctuate all the time.. The onyl thing i hope and wish for is to get a A1 for my e math for mid year. Although the marks during Midyear wont be counted for O level, it is like a gauge to see how well you will do for your Os.. I want to work hard and ace through every single subject but it is hard and the joruney is certainly going to be arduous.,

GOD i need your grace and mercy.

I just hope that i will have ample time to go and study for the rest of my upcoming paper. It is drawing closer day by day and i feel the lack of confident and Courage day by day. Although it is only mid year, it can be compared to life and death.

The only consolation i have is to lift up my el paper to him and the remaining papers to him and hoping that everthing will turn out alright. God what will i ever do without you. How can i ever survive without you. How can i go through this year without you. i need you Lord. come into my life and fill me with your knowledge and wisdom once again. Help me to go through and sail through each and everyone of my paper.